Category Archives: with or without you

Laura

Inspired by Francesco Petrarca’s courtly love poems to Laura de Sade I And ever since the day you died, my Laura, my heart is an empty deserted grieving tomb. I dreamed about you in lonely bachelor nights, my feverish body … Continue reading

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A low-priced life // Fattigpensionär

            In my universe it’s rather empty, even the cat rejects the low-price tuna fish from supermarket to then run around in fury in my two-room flat when I tell her it’s what you get … Continue reading

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In your absence

      It’s three AM and too late to say good night as you must be already sleeping. If you are okay, are you? I also need sleep, but I want to stay awake a little more to think … Continue reading

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Elderly balance (single-leg stance)

When 18 people read my texts I exist. Otherwise it is not much with that, unless I not wake up in the night with cramps in one lower leg, then I surely know I’m alive. I hear on the TV … Continue reading

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A sunny day in February

Such a lovely day, strong blue sky and chirping little birds, a bleach half-moon above waits for the night. Snowdrops blooms before any snow, no winter this year and it might never be. I’m walking to the mall and I … Continue reading

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“If the people go hungry, they will eat their rulers”

Your destiny in the orange envelope     I I want something new, I need something new, I want something else. And I surely don’t want the living conditions I have. II Lack of freedom and poverty is to not … Continue reading

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Mother of five (Mater Dolorosa at Rinkeby)

Mother of five, son why did you not die in my womb? From Rinkeby to Dubai now prison for life for murder? You never came back home, reading your truth in my eyes! Son, you grew up to become a … Continue reading

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Kindly kill yourself on an unnoticed day

It is a popular game, blaming others! Everyone points fingers at everyone and nobody is good enough: you’re white not good, you’re black not good, you’re a “leftie” not good, a “right-wing” not good, you’re a criminal not good, homeless … Continue reading

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Snoppar som stoppar / Dicks that kicks

Dicks that kicks but never lift on their tops what is kind and soft and gives room to all! We see it everywhere how arrogance and selfishness are rewarded and the power is given to those who offends the integrity … Continue reading

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Love and art

Kärlek gör sig, ärligt talat, bäst omgestaltad till musik och sång. Verkligheten är lättare att förstå i litteraturen, tagen på pulsen. När en älskare säger jag ska sitta vid din sida när du skriver, då vet man att nu är … Continue reading

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One-man riot

There are riots in Hong Kong, there are riots in Paris and in Barcelona. There are riots in Bagdad and the cities around in Iraq as well as in cities in Iran as Tehran and around in the country, tell … Continue reading

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Loneliness is a treacherous haunting guest

That feeling of loneliness now sudden fills me up is a treacherous and haunting guest. When it hits, it permeates your soul and force you in desperation to meddle with the wrong kind of people, just to get some company … Continue reading

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Ice cream dreams (the end of the road)

  It was down minus 25C in Nikkaluokta last night, that would be alike minus 77 Fahrenheit in USA. There I am it’s only +3C and to me that’s far too freezing cold. I have never been in Nikkaluokta, even … Continue reading

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How many times we split up

            How many times we split up! He never learns. Watch up, sweep up, I said to him. Remember we must tiptoe walk now: maybe the last time that we try to get a future … Continue reading

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Since she left me lastly (part 2)

          Since she left me lastly I rambling around, lost. My eyes are so dry and burns as the winds have blew away all my tears. I’ve a lump in my throat and my heart is … Continue reading

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Försvinnande kvinna / Vanishing woman

Vanishing woman Part 1 That late night was now approaching, then when I intended to vanish from you without a trace and wipe you out of my life forever. But late came late all my feet colder. The next morning … Continue reading

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Even if you silently weep

  Even if you silently weep, don’t worry, no one sees your tears. Yet everybody knows that all hearts have their secret tales. I still think of you, from my early morning to the silent nights. I wonder what was … Continue reading

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Laundry day

Had a hard day taking the laundry An afternoon nap and I slept deep Woke and my hand searching you and got the fur of my sleeping cat Me and Cat in a freshly made bed My body is a … Continue reading

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Ambiguous love (feeling trapped)

He asked me if I had written something at my blog that same day and I said no. “No poems?” he asked and “No!” I said. “Why?”  he queried. “I have nothing to write about” I said unhappy. “So what … Continue reading

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Tired!

  I heard a tune on Youtube and wasted my morning with reading some Swedish song lyrics, the younger generation. It is that tiny but constant hope to find something that is genuine and heartfelt. But no? I said to … Continue reading

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Adonis’ speech

  I gave her my heart and she sliced it and spiced it and fried it and show it to the world to view and to consume. Since I’ve fled the battles she gives me bad names but my name … Continue reading

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When the passion is gone

              When the passion is over you thank your lucky stars for being able to cross the wasted land for fresh water without get a headshot from your ex beloved. There is a road … Continue reading

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Away from standstill (her ticket to a better life)!

            He dumped her today! The birds sings out: She’s happy! The wheels moves again!    

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The road to let go

  3600 miles as the crow flies from your heart and body, 4500 miles on roads where my feet have never walked. Years have passed and how far have we come, tell me! And how long do I have to … Continue reading

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There’s no tomorrow for what died yesterday

        There’s no love around us anymore what once has solidify will never change It’s silly to believe love is all you need when blindness becomes its only seed Love will fade just like the sun goes … Continue reading

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Dismissed body, missed (+ one haiku)

  I have so many photos of you: You are a wholesaler in selfies: I take one to see what I sell out: You stand by a swimming pool wearing only swim shorts and showing off a lot of your … Continue reading

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“I’m fine, thanks!”

I looked after you and found you in my heart, that which I lost given it to you. You hold yourself back with these “I’m fine”. With time, it’s like serving a chicken to a lion. We are like prisoners … Continue reading

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The request

Send me a sign! One word, one line, and make it all undone: you’re not the one for me! Turn to me, listen to my plea be the one I want you to be, the only one I want to … Continue reading

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This is the end of our story

          And this is the end of our story: so much hope and so little glory. This is the end of a sweet romance, which never got a single chance. Know, in my mind I always … Continue reading

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To have a voice and use it

        To have a voice and use it. Connect with people or separate and tear them apart. Spread love or hate. Gain power for a purpose in good or evil. Give out knowledge and open views, sharing … Continue reading

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Bitterness

I woke up today with bitterness in my heart. And I washed my hair and I had my coffee and I read the news on the web and I edited some writing. Now my hair has almost dried and I … Continue reading

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I’m sorry

Was I stupid, or was it you who misled me on purpose? No matters! We have all our desires. And I don’t want to blame any of us, but to say “I’m sorry it became as it became”. As these … Continue reading

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That old song

                You have loved that old song “Missing you” too long and too much and then you got so much of it you just had to get it out of your system as … Continue reading

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Vinegar and lemon juice (distracted day)

      We have a quarrel now again and he doesn’t talk and as ever before I’m worried not knowing if it’ll last. On the radio the old time pop star Millie Small sings shrilly “What am I living … Continue reading

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To be frank about the nature of our love

            I woke up from my late afternoon nap. And then I missed him. Or to be frank – I missed to have the warm tenderness between two people being together and liking each other. … Continue reading

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Disappointed

I woke up one morning the other day and saw like a sign for my inner sight, short simply written “I’m disappointed” Just that: no anger and no frustration, no nothing: not one emotion in motion for all the time … Continue reading

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Fear

Even though I fell away you were there when I returned, silent as ever before. But the following night an anxiety dream aroused me and I could not sleep more. You in my head and I felt scared for you. … Continue reading

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Diamond love

I’m old, my feet hurts and I can hardly walk and surely not run. But my heart is in good shape, my doctors told me and my brain is better than ever before, you will find out. If you want … Continue reading

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I will never love more but you

          I got a call yesterday from an “ex” bf. I remember him as a nice man. He has still a very nice voice. Alluring. But he’s not to trust. Still it was sad to say … Continue reading

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Ride the river in my own boat

  (Sometimes I’m all mixed up, tottered between longing love and resentment, Paradise in Hell.) Woke up this morning realizing I have opened a line, giving a tool through which he can continue to treat me with his old habitual … Continue reading

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It never happened

The very power of how you never happened to me will never go away but stay. You never touched my body, but you shook my soul. You aroused in me such a fire and now you’re my only desire. Where … Continue reading

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I lost him a Thursday in October

I lost him a Thursday in October. It was a chilly but sunny day and I had just went to bed for a nap. It was at 17.39 to be precise and 3600 km away he looked up and met … Continue reading

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And whenever I think of you

And whenever I think of you I get the instant urge to hold you close and touch you so tenderly but all we did was arguing driving us apart but when I think of you and it’s about hundred times … Continue reading

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To live the love was not easy

I could consider to marry you (if you still want it, of course) if you never more slaughter animals never more say “I hate Jews” never more say “homosexuality is disgusting” never more abuse me with silences for weeks never … Continue reading

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Forever you and me

  Forever you and me, he said. And it will be a shortening for forever goodbye, you and me. Alltid du och jag, sa han. Det blir en förkortning för för alltid farväl du och jag    

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Oh man, you make my heart to a dried fruit

When you were gone, life was empty and I felt like half of myself. Now back, you’re holding yourself back and with your indolence you make my heart to a dried fruit and silenced I ask myself “what was it … Continue reading

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Two dreamers in the night

      I said to my son last night “they killed King, they killed the Kennedy brothers, so why no one kill that disgusting Kim?” The best to say about that beast, he has reduced your daily life’s little … Continue reading

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The Rowan Berries (a sour-sweet love story)

In the month of August, when the berries on rowan trees ripen bright reddish, love tends to run off my life, likewise this year. The days are still sunny and warm, but it darkens earlier in the evening and nights … Continue reading

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Cruel love dance

To love or not to love is not the question. The question is: how is your daily life? Is it building you up, giving you a confident happy feeling to have your feet on a solid and safe foundation or … Continue reading

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Frankly, my dear!

The mysterious ways the drive of desire and affection takes have tied me to you. Though given my love, it will not give you the right to act arrogant and neglecting. But if you’ll mess it up you have violated … Continue reading

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