Category Archives: with or without you

To be frank about the nature of our love

            I woke up from my late afternoon nap. And then I missed him. Or to be frank – I missed to have the warm tenderness between two people being together and liking each other. … Continue reading

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Disappointed

I woke up one morning the other day and saw like a sign for my inner sight, short simply written “I’m disappointed” Just that: no anger and no frustration, no nothing: not one emotion in motion for all the time … Continue reading

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So if I don’t have a “real life”, what do I have? Am I dead?

Forgive me friend, but… 😦 … I’ve just read an entry here on wordpress making me pissed off, frankly. I got the same anger exactly one year ago. Because the blogger had the same entry published back then… He say … Continue reading

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Fear

Even though I fell away you were there when I returned, reticent as ever before. But the following night an anxiety dream aroused me and I could not sleep more. I thought of you and I felt fear for you. … Continue reading

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Diamond love

I’m old, my feet hurts and I can hardly walk and surely not run. But my heart is in good shape, my doctors told and my brain is better than ever before, you will find out. If you want to … Continue reading

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I will never love more but you

          I got a call yesterday from an “ex” bf. I remember him as a nice man. He has still a very nice voice. Alluring. But he’s not to trust. Still it was sad to say … Continue reading

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Ride the river in this boat

(Sometimes I’m all mixed up, tottered between longing love and resentment, Paradise in Hell.) Woke up this morning realizing I have opened a line, giving a tool through which he can continue to treat me with his old habitual manner … Continue reading

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It never happened

        The very power of how you never happened to me will never go away but stay. You never touched my body, but you shook my soul. You aroused in me such a fire and now you’re … Continue reading

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I lost him a Thursday in October

I lost him a Thursday in October. It was a chilly but sunny day and I had just went to bed for a nap. It was at 17.39 to be precise and 3600 km away he looked up and met … Continue reading

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And whenever I think of you

And whenever I think of you I get the instant urge to hold you close and touch you so tenderly but all we did was arguing driving us apart but when I think of you and it’s about hundred times … Continue reading

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To live the love was not easy

I could consider to marry you (if you still want it, of course) if you never more slaughter animals never more say “I hate Jews” never more say “homosexuality is disgusting” never more abuse me with silences for weeks never … Continue reading

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Do you remember me?

minns du mig? har du också dagar då du bara hatar mig och dagar då blå längtan blommar ömt och kärleksfullt? Do you remember me, she writes. Do you have – like me – days when all is pain and … Continue reading

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I miss you (det regnar)

I miss you It’s raining I miss you It’s raining I miss you It’s raining I miss you It’s raining I miss you It’s raining I’m not crying I’m very calm I did what was right I just have to … Continue reading

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Forever you and me

  Forever you and me, he said. And it will be a shortening for forever goodbye, you and me. Alltid du och jag, sa han. Det blir en förkortning för för alltid farväl du och jag    

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Oh man, you make my heart to a dried fruit

When you were gone, life was empty and I felt like half of myself. Now back, you’re holding yourself back and with your indolence you make my heart to a dried fruit and silenced I ask myself “what was it … Continue reading

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Two dreamers in the night

      I said to my son last night “they killed King, they killed the Kennedy brothers, so why no one kill that disgusting Kim?” The best to say about that beast, he has reduced your daily life’s little … Continue reading

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The Rowan Berries (a sour-sweet love story)

In the month of August, when the berries on rowan trees ripen bright reddish, love tends to run off my life, likewise this year. The days are still sunny and warm, but it darkens earlier in the evening and nights … Continue reading

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Cruel love dance

To love or not to love is not the question. The question is: how is your daily life? Is it building you up, giving you a confident happy feeling to have your feet on a solid and safe foundation or … Continue reading

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Frankly, my dear!

The mysterious ways the drive of desire and affection takes have tied me to you. Though given my love, it will not give you the right to act arrogant and neglecting. But if you’ll mess it up you have violated … Continue reading

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1967 or 2017 – it’s the same lonely story

              1967 or 2017 – it’s the same story now as in the past. I’m left on my own alone with my books and my poetry and love is still a fallacy. But I’m … Continue reading

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Callow mind

Know that I can feel your pain now. Know that I cannot do any for you. Know that you have a callow mind. Your words were too often ignorant and lacked empathy and insight in others emotional lives. I don’t … Continue reading

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And the lilacs bloom another year

        The first of June and summer at last. But my back aches after a bad night. Two painkillers and then the bus to the supermarket to buy cat food. To feed the cat is my merely … Continue reading

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It’s never darkest before dawn

It’s never at the darkest before dawn (in summertime and now in Sweden). And “now”, it’s me on my own again! Yet, I’m happy it has come as far as until April, though the meadows still are dreary dead in … Continue reading

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“Forever love”

Misstro den som förklarar ”för evigt”. Allt som är levande bär sin egen död. Kärlek är mest önskan och villfarelse. Jag lyssnade till hans ”jag älskar dig”, men valde att inte höra det följande löftet om ett ”för evigt. Och … Continue reading

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Who needs a man when you have a cat?

Han har dragit sig tillbaka och byggt en Trumpsk mur av tystnad och han låter mig betala för den. Två dagar av total tystnad och allt av ljud som har hörts här hemma är kattens spinnande. Hon sover i min … Continue reading

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Wasted tears

I’m still under your spell wasting my tears over you wonders what bad can ever I’ve done to get so much evil back life has surely not been good to me and never better it gets yet a little love … Continue reading

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What can I say? I still miss him

What can I say? I still miss him. The days passes – as in a dream, but I guess this is called “to live”. Muteness spreads in my body – even to my heart. What is, stays the same but … Continue reading

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No, I don’t wish you “the best”!

        No, I don’t wish you “the best” when letting you go. I don’t wish you luck. If you can’t stay with me to love me as you should do, you can as well spend the rest … Continue reading

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April and silence

          That stranger’s face in my bathroom mirror? It looks oddly familiar? Oh yes – oh no…! It’s me! Those furrows from nose to mouth, deep as ditches – where did they come from? And for … Continue reading

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Early Morning

I wake up very early in the morning and I start to read through my old texts, those I work on now to do something off. And it strikes me in my reading, some years ago I had not yet … Continue reading

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So it’s Monday

              So it’s Monday and you’re back in your deed. I’m still in bed, sleepy thinking how strange someone like you met someone like me. But then I leave bed to make my morning … Continue reading

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When walking alone hand in hand with a friend in mind

          When walking alone but hand in hand with a friend in my mind countryside around my home looks its best whether it’s winter or summer. But I’m always sad. My days gets easier to conquer … Continue reading

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The story of the man at the pier

I’m a man of fire and ashes. Every day is new, I know – but it all feels like repeats. I try to walk straight, but constantly stumbles on my feet. Time and time again and all my life I’ve … Continue reading

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