Category Archives: poems by vonnely

I never knew him

  I never knew him in the flesh I withdrew for safety reasons He expected too much of me He made me his guiding light Now he rests behind my eyes I have to live with this a while Shame … Continue reading

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Weak sleep and bladder and dreams

        I barely slept last night One hour at a time and I had to pee more than once, and when dozing I got the dream that all my hair had changed to white, but when I … Continue reading

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Enslaved horse – unheard truth

          This taste of steel on my tongue, snaffle rings pressing in my mouth corners, the reins resting along my neck sides. There is a man on my back and he urge me to run where … Continue reading

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There is someone for everyone except for me

  There is someone for everyone except for me of course, Cupid simply sneaked past my house one dark night when I was hard sleeping, caught by nightmares. At a ”certain age” you try to fit in to your new … Continue reading

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Even if you silently weep

  Even if you silently weep, don’t worry, no one sees your tears. Yet everybody knows that all hearts have their secret tales. I still think of you, from my early morning to the silent nights. I wonder what was … Continue reading

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“I was born to be with you”

      I listen to music on You Tube every day. But I’m not that overwhelmed of the playlists YouTube try to tempt me with. But now and then I get lucky, like when I got the suggestion of … Continue reading

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I was easy forgotten

I was easy forgotten just piece of a game the One knew words not ever compassion heart split and alone moving on shattered tears hidden in heart smiles cover up pains

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It’s the third of August

            It’s the third of August, the second day of the beginning of the second week without you. When I woke up this morning I remembered the line I had written before “But my silly … Continue reading

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James (came and left)

James (the bonded guy) came to town in the week, “us” to be shaken, but not stirred and it all just for “Sweden” to know about being stared at. And soon enough when a certain trial is over and been … Continue reading

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The pains where my soul is seated

        If my soul has a place in my mortal body, then it hides behind the lower tip of the right shoulder blade. You were always on my back and pushed me with your intensity and tough … Continue reading

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Some reflections on “obstruction of justice” and about contemporary politics

  We have nowadays not only serious realities as ever before to deal with in our world, but there’s a ruthless rhetoric in the public room today that makes us confused about what’s real and true and makes us incapable … Continue reading

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A poet from my time of youth has died

Reading in the paper that the Finnish poet Claes Andersson died on Wednesday this week. Thinking instantly (as always now in my old age), “next it can be me”: as he was only 12 years older than me…! 😦   … Continue reading

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Wisdom Wells

                (translated from Swedish) When summer so sleeps its last rest, the fall flames as fire yet chilly. Then the young hero comes to the Nordic regions to find his Crone, she the … Continue reading

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Marmalade love

  I was as made to be the marmalade on his daily bread, now he seems to has lost his sweet tooth and I’m not yet ready to be left, a single sweetie Then he told: I can feel you … Continue reading

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Laundry day

Had a hard day taking the laundry An afternoon nap and I slept deep Woke and my hand searching you and got the fur of my sleeping cat Me and Cat in a freshly made bed My body is a … Continue reading

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A hill of beans in a crazy world

He said: Well, if it’s not important for you to meet me, I won’t come! I said: It’s not important for me to see you but I believe it’s important for you. Yet I would like to see you. But … Continue reading

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Three times, three roses

        Lars Forssell  (Swedish poet) (1928–2007) Odysseus på Ithaca (from the poetry collection Telegram, 1957) In the Greek tale, the hero is captured on the island Ogygia by the beautiful nymph Calypso who seduces him with her love … Continue reading

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Greta and the environmental concerns (Greta och miljön)

It annoys me this false devoted heightening of this girl in media here in Sweden and abroad. She did not start her school strike for the environment to be praised by media and or by celebrities, minor politicians or a … Continue reading

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All the difference

  Every evening after dark I take a 12 minutes’ walk around the block. Nor have I ever said, “I want to be alone. I only said, I want to be left alone.” It is the Garbo truth: “There is … Continue reading

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Heart wrapped in barbed wire

          I read your letter, roses sweet with thorns thoroughly hidden in thin silk paper. I grieve your heart wrapped in barbed wire! What you have you don’t want and what you want is far away. … Continue reading

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And it may be you will love two

And it may be you will love two men And one you have and the other not And you swallow the latter his bitter words, as you not want to see him go And yet you still drink the sweetness … Continue reading

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Are you alone today on Midsummer’s Eve (in Sweden!)

Är du ensam idag på Midsommarafton? Vet då att det är du inte ensam om! Are you alone today at Midsummer’s Eve? Know then, you are not alone about that!  

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At my age! (2) (prose)

“At my age anything unexpected that isn’t medical or mortal should be celebrated.”A quote attributed to Kathleen Brennan.               If any say “at my age”, she’s for sure not 6 years old… or 20 … Continue reading

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At my age!

I came old and stood at the edge, mirrored nothingness fearing but fighting, as faced the end of the mortal “me” Then I met him, a freedom fighter for his own good only He caught me and brought me a … Continue reading

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Ambiguous love (feeling trapped)

He asked me if I had written something at my blog that same day and I said no. “No poems?” he asked and “No!” I said. “Why?”  he queried. “I have nothing to write about” I said unhappy. “So what … Continue reading

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I remember you

I remember you, lovely bearded man, who loved me more than your life (that’s what you told me). But then you dumped me like trash, just like that! It was when you were cornered not to be serious about us … Continue reading

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Where the birches rustles their summer song

When one goes, the other is seen left behind: But the former will be what comes. The other: the laughing gentleman, now ridiculous naked butt as the fairy tale emperor: but still haughty he gabbles his garbage. Far after the … Continue reading

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Hedgehog men

          He sent me a photo and he had a chin like a hedgehog. He said “You can kiss me as much as you want!” “Oh thanks,” I said in fear. “Yet I don’t!”     … Continue reading

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Microscopic notices in Swedish medias “Microscopic remains of Nazi victims buried”

  VideoSpäte Würdigung für NS-Opfer http://www.stern.de/panorama/video-spaete-wuerdigung-fuer-ns-opfer-8708712. “Berlin buries prisoners’ tissue kept by Nazi-era doctor” http://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-48215894 This doctor’s name was Hermann Stieve. He was active until his death in 1952 and he was never charged for his dealing with the executed … Continue reading

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I met him on the internet

          I met him on the internet, and that is something I will always regret. He had pics of sparkling eyes, a lovely smile. Charmed, I was thinking I will chat for a while. But soon … Continue reading

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If I could talk to you

  And if I could talk to you, I would tell you I’m not happy for this either. But you and I and talking was never good and it always went from bad to worse. And I had to end … Continue reading

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She wants him differently and he wants her as she should be

                She’s his first love, he told her. He is a pain in her ass but she can’t tell him and thereof she feels like she’s a burning bush in a blinded desert. … Continue reading

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A bird in hand (Spring rain, pollen season)

        When walking home from the grocery in spring rain this last Friday afternoon, I saw all the pollen floating on the streets down the drains and sudden from nowhere I came to think of the Swedish … Continue reading

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We try to talk

We try to talk to keep it going but we’re not doing it so well, I miss so much to sense your body near mine, not so much about sex as a severe longing to feel your presence here and … Continue reading

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Couple talk

            My lover thinks it’s better to say “ok” than to argue. And “ok” is, according to him, what he say and “arguing” is, according to him, what I do! It is just too much … Continue reading

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What you deserve is not always what you get

Haven’t you forgot something, I asked. No why, he said. I said, it’s my birthday today! OMG!, he said, happy birthday to you and I love you and I wish I was there now to celebrate you! Well, I’m used … Continue reading

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At 70!

Vid 70 har man samlat på sig berg av illusioner, förlorade, återvunna, återfunna. Livet går vidare, javisst! Men själv har man nått sin vägs ände och går inte längre med. Och sedan då alla dessa berg som skymmer den fria … Continue reading

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Tom talks to my young suitor

  He think I’m weak and he think I’m fragile, yet he cling to me harder than glue. I want to die with him inside me, but I don’t know if I ever will be able to live with him … Continue reading

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Tired!

  I heard a tune on Youtube and wasted my morning with reading some Swedish song lyrics, the younger generation. It is that tiny but constant hope to find something that is genuine and heartfelt. But no? I said to … Continue reading

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What do we do now? (A Danish saying)

                                    The way in which a man never speaks to a woman about certain things! And she, panties halfway off, what a blanket now … Continue reading

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All I could write was because of you

A tribute to all (female and male) muses that give the romantic poets the ink in their pens (An attempt to translate “L’encre de tes yeux” by Francis Cabrel to Swedish and English. I’ve put the Swedish translation first as … Continue reading

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You fill my dreams with desires!

  Du är inte ett dugg trevlig, men alldeles för svår! Men ändå får du blodet att rinna ned till mina lår, och för att säga sanningen, också vad där emellan. Uttröttad snubblar jag och faller på mina egna tår, … Continue reading

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An angry man

              An angry man stands at the corner waiting for me; his arms crossed over his chest. “I’m ashamed of you” was the last he said to me. But his English is not good … Continue reading

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A romantic dream in color

I heard it said in the old days it’s rare to dream in color. But I now read on the web it’s rather the opposite? I don’t know if it is true or not. My dreams usually vanish from my … Continue reading

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Play it again, Sam!

  I said: Sam, see you in Casablanca! And he shrank to a boy’s voice in a phone with a lousy connection and vanished in the night. Now it’s late and I’m running out of time, but still I’ve that … Continue reading

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Pink dreams

She could hardly sleep at all last night and yet she woke up at four in morning, went up for coffee and checking internet, then quick back to bed to sleep and she woke up again after two dreaming in … Continue reading

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Know me

                  He said Let’s not talk about the past I don’t want to I said I come to your bed with my body and with my NOW and my PAST All that … Continue reading

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Black or white, Edith Södergran

Edith Södergran (1892 – 1923) is a Finnish-Swedish writer and she was a pioneer in the Scandinavian literary modernism in the early 1900s. She never got not much fame for her poetry before her death, rather the opposite. But she … Continue reading

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(Mind matter) Märka ord

Märk nu mina ord, jag besökte er ett tag, men var verkligen aldrig där: ett vingslag mot din kind i natten, du rös till litegrann. Vi bor i Sverige men lever i världen. Våra tankar borde vara såsom svalor i … Continue reading

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Freezing night, glowing heart

          Poem by Karin Boye living 1900 – 1941, my translation for private use only I gladly stand here and freeze at a street below for to see those two windows at a gable glow. The … Continue reading

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