Category Archives: poems by vonnely

The Day cools down / Dagen svalnar

  Tiden har gått och dagen svalnar, men ett sårat hjärta blöder ännu lätt. Ett ansikte stelnat som en mask och tårar, dolda. Salta åkrar ger ingen grodd och ingen skörd. Fridfull ter sig din ofrid när som natten nalkas. … Continue reading

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Farewell Agadir!

Farewell Agadir, we never met in your narrow alleys or on your beaches. Your white sins and dirty morals! Closed eye, blinded in contempt for your betrayals, lament and false tears. Farewell Agadir, black light, we never met in true … Continue reading

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Ramadan in the Nordic light is a tricky story

 In English below Ramadan i Sverige är en kinkig historia, vilken tur att den infaller under våren detta år, då kan man be 20.30 och äta fort som (…) för att sedan slumra halvannan timme, äta och be igen. Så … Continue reading

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Rain in May and potting soil

(In English below) Jag tänkte gå ut och köpa något (Microlax, toalettpapper och blomjord) Men det regnar idag (också), bra för grönskan och jag kan vänta med att gå ut nån dag till, det kan inte regna för evigt heller! … Continue reading

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Aging female body (part I and II)

He made me hate my aging body, as mercilessly mirrored when I dress in the hall looking at these undeniably saggy boobs and right before, in the bathroom caring for what’s secretly hidden “down there” my flaccid pussy prickly dry … Continue reading

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The footprints we make in others

Like you smitten me and like I smitten you to burn, to then disappear and become to ashes. A petrified footprint found in Kenya 1.5 million years old. The olden tales about lost paths and of grievous searches for the … Continue reading

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Moses Tegnell med sin stafettpinne leder svenska folket genom Corona-pestens ökenlandskap

Moses Tegnell with his baton leads the Swedish people through the desert landscape of the Corona plague De rör sig ur dunkla dis, de sågs aldrig komma I fängelser utan dörrar, tror vi att vi ska överleva… De dirigerar förlusterna … Continue reading

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My new neighbor upstairs (Min nya granne)

Translated to English below   Jag har fått en ny granne en trappa upp. Min son hemma på besök för några veckor sen, sa att det hade varit mycket spring i trappan under dagen (jag sov). Det var min nya … Continue reading

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Lady Corona: heaven can wait, we old don’t want to die!

“I wanted to live,” said a 92 years old Louise in a report on Swedish TV news and in an interview in the Swedish tabloid Expressen. She has survived both covid-19 and intensive care and has now been discharged from … Continue reading

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One hot day in April I went shopping…

            It’s bloody hot today! It’s only April, but still a summer heat! Well, I expected it to be hot when I dressed to go out to shop – but like a normal spring heat! … Continue reading

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Det finns en stad (There is a city)

Det finns en stad där ingen sover på natten. Drömmarna är hemlösa där och härbärgen saknas, då ingen vill vidkännas denna brist. Jag bor i en annan stad. Jag inte är hemma där. Min tillhörighet vilar i kontaktlösheten och det … Continue reading

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Medelklassens hastiga uppvaknande (What is “normal” and to whom?)

Read this post in English here below Jag läser om morgonen en krönika i en morgontidning om att vi aldrig “efter detta” (pandemin!) kan gå tillbaka till det ”normala”. Det vill säga förgifta jorden. Äga förmågan att uppleva vad som … Continue reading

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April 2020, fears and balcony dreams

Written in Swedish and then translated to English  When I see the few people on the streets nowadays, I see not only the people who seems to ignore everything but their own living: I can see fears in the others’ … Continue reading

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Extra Everything!

        I don’t ask for much, but more than I can get! I want a big pizza, with Extra Everything and a pension that would last for a whole month. I don’t ask for much, not like … Continue reading

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Det svåraste / The Hardest

(translated from Swedish) There will be days we will never forget, but will want to forget, there have been days we thought we could never live on with, but still we did and it is like a silencing shame and … Continue reading

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A “But?” poem

My son buys books online and got an offer to get three books for the prize of two and he offered me this “free” book, which I’m very thankful for. I wanted Rainer Maria Rilke “The Book of Hours Das … Continue reading

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Keeping the distance

Don’t shake my hand and don’t stand too close! No cheek kisses and no hugs – don’t make your moves too soon! We fear the other and stay at home, no matter believers or non-believers, Lady Corona is equally infectious … Continue reading

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The end of a high flying romance (quarantine)

I have nothing to say to you that could be of any comfort to you. For once, the saying “you reap what you sow” fits good when about you! I don’t feel anything yet, no anger or bitterness or sadness. … Continue reading

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I have decided to be happy!

I turn 71 in April and I may reach 75 – or 74, but that would be too sad short to imagine. I hope to be at least 85 and still be movable. Let’s say I’ll have 15 years left, … Continue reading

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Laura

Inspired by Francesco Petrarca’s courtly love poems to Laura de Sade I And ever since the day you died, my Laura, my heart is an empty deserted grieving tomb. I dreamed about you in lonely bachelor nights, my feverish body … Continue reading

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Three weeks today

Three weeks today, right! And it’s hard, hard, hard! It’s right hard, right now! A love like a picture book we awhile leafed through?      

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A low-priced life // Fattigpensionär

            In my universe it’s rather empty, even the cat rejects the low-price tuna fish from supermarket to then run around in fury in my two-room flat when I tell her it’s what you get … Continue reading

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Do I really dare to leave home?

  It’s evening and I want to go out for a short walk. But do I really dare to leave home? I read on some website that about 46 % of us over 65 who falls cannot get up on … Continue reading

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Married to the blues

Married and buried in longing for you, my loneliness singing a blues forever. I wonder who’s kissing you now and if you eat properly? Is it any raining out? Do you still go to the mall on Saturday to then … Continue reading

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ἄσυλον

The right of asylum (sometimes called right of political asylum, from the Ancient Greek word ἄσυλον) Quote from en.wikipedia Sweden’s politicians and the EU: We protect the right of asylum, we only make it impossible for people to come to … Continue reading

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Cleaning old data

Jag låter datorn rensa bort onödiga filer. Om bara min hjärna vore lika hygglig och rensade bort alla onödiga filer i alla dess vindlande vrår! Plågor, vrede och skam som en gång var! Det är sen natt och jag avslutar … Continue reading

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In your absence

      It’s three AM and too late to say good night as you must be already sleeping. If you are okay, are you? I also need sleep, but I want to stay awake a little more to think … Continue reading

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Disguised Poetry (Samtida diktkonst)

  Under ytterrockar, bakom ansiktsmasker framträder dagens svenska poeter, såsom saudiska kvinnor går på en gata, förklädda. Hellre beläst skriva om Ovidius eller Sapfo än som ett ”jag” skriva om en trång förhud. Endast romanförfattare jagar sin jagiskhet i avsaknad … Continue reading

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Sharing same heart

I am fine and everything works well don’t worry about me, but take care of yourself. I miss you too of course: two far-off continents and two souls apart, still we share one same heart.   Jag mår bra och … Continue reading

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Her best friend (republished)

From July 2014, the original in Swedish on 17 July, the translation  now rewritten. She once had a best friend and Ralph was his name and he had a wife, Lena, and three children and one cat and he built … Continue reading

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Elderly balance (single-leg stance)

When 18 people read my texts I exist. Otherwise it is not much with that, unless I not wake up in the night with cramps in one lower leg, then I surely know I’m alive. I hear on the TV … Continue reading

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Slowly slowly whispering wind

  Slowly slowly whispering wind cradles serene, silent stillness. Like Mose shrouded in braided basket hidden in reed, we rest in the lap of an unknown fate.   Sakta sakta vaggande vind Talande tigande tystnader Som Moses i vassen, höljd … Continue reading

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The current historylessness (Dysterkvistar)

Here my bumpy thighs and unnoticed life which still is in progress, yet declining. All I have ever accomplished is aging, now I’m not 30 and depressed anymore, but read the literary reviews: such gloom and pretensions! It get me … Continue reading

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The day after the storm

It’s the morning after the storm, I make my tea and give the cat tuna. I start my laptop and leave for the web, having tea and cheese sandwiches. I note with relief I don’t miss him as I feared … Continue reading

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The dismantling of a writer: Patricia Highsmith

Few writers have been written about over time as much as Patricia Highsmith. She cannot be overlooked but yet looked down on. Writers and journalists who probably got the assignment to write about her and accept it to be able … Continue reading

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Visiting the local library

                I (Friday, February 7) It is a Friday noon and I’ll wash my hair and when it has dried, I intend to take the bus to city and walk from there to … Continue reading

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Left over, me!

  I don’t know what was true and not true with him. He always said he was not a liar and I should trust in him and I believe he honestly believed in that. More I will never know. That’s … Continue reading

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Lost love, gloom forever to be

        I never got to know you in this all real world, where one breathe, eat, shit and pay the rent. But still, it was meant to be, you and me. Yet your demanding impatience (as I … Continue reading

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A sunny day in February

Such a lovely day, strong blue sky and chirping little birds, a bleach half-moon above waits for the night. Snowdrops blooms before any snow, no winter this year and it might never be. I’m walking to the mall and I … Continue reading

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Woman on the first day of February

http://www.milleworld.com/things-not-to-ask-ex-hijabis/ http://www.milleworld.com/hijab-arab-women-stereotypes/ about the site milleworld.com http://www.dazeddigital.com/life-culture/article/41937/1/mille-world-new-arab-youth-culture-platform         A column in a Swedish tabloid “Aftonbladet” 2011 note: the text in Swedish Joumana Haddad http://www.aftonbladet.se/kultur/a/oREGqB/mandag-forvillelser      

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Love torn apart

          I wanted your love to be my shelter, a comfort zone, a mine for golden joy to give strength as I’m struggling every month to keep my head above the water having hard times. You … Continue reading

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A lonely blues around the corner

The whole fucking me is like an emergency Hole in the heart, the claw of abandonment Easily forgotten, lone blues around a corner He told I’ll love you forever true forever was short like a little star afar that twinkle … Continue reading

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To whom will the spring bring joy?

(translated from Swedish) The light returns to the North in January! Ten minutes more in morning and evening makes a world of difference. You raise your gaze, take a deep breath, sees a snowdrop! Frost in the ground and snowflakes … Continue reading

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“If the people go hungry, they will eat their rulers”

Your destiny in the orange envelope     I I want something new, I need something new, I want something else. And I surely don’t want the living conditions I have. II Lack of freedom and poverty is to not … Continue reading

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The desires of the beloved

I imagining having you here with me, touching your naked body unlimited. This even though I, also in the mere thought, shy away from same intimacy from you. Why is obscure, but clearly I cannot talk with you about my … Continue reading

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Silence, solitude

Silence, solitude Now two days without talking to you: it is a lifetime of despair for my heart! Same as once you told me, walked on a shore fearing you and I would never become “us”. When one cry, the … Continue reading

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People’s random meetings

Random meetings say hello before you go stay a while be my friend leave a memory your smile the warmth in your hands your eyes drowning in mine your breathing to breathe say hello before you go leave your smile … Continue reading

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Morning tea, waking up slowly

When I wake up in the morning, my eyes are tiny reddish in my spongy puffy face, my nose is even bigger and I cough and sneeze and farts. When I hurry to the toilet not to pee in my … Continue reading

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Mother of five (Mater Dolorosa at Rinkeby)

Mother of five, son why did you not die in my womb? From Rinkeby to Dubai now prison for life for murder? You never came back home, reading your truth in my eyes! Son, you grew up to become a … Continue reading

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(Oh Carol) I think I’ll retire and start write literature criticism!

I was chatting again with him today, him – the one who has designated me as his first and greatest and only one love forever and ever. And it’s as terrible as listening to Neil Sedaka’s howling Oh Carol. Verbatim! … Continue reading

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