Kategoriarkiv: lost trust
Breast cancer as a personal experience (I)
Ingress So kindly pestering, again and again I’m asked to stay in the care plan. I’m asked to act against my will for my own good. It’s simply disgusting. I I knocked on a door … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i alienation, armed loneliness, choices, create life, diseases, fragility, grief, illness, left aside, life crises, life turns, living with chronic diseases, Living with chronic pains, living with others, living with sickness, loneliness, loners, loss, lost, lost trust, opportunities, poems, poems by vonnely, reading life, repression and borders, sadness, single-handed voyage, surviving, troubled life, vulnerability
Märkt alone, breast cancer, cancer care, cancer erfarenhet, cancer treatment, coping life, experiences of health care, loss, repression, svensk sjukvård
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Now it will be Spring
In English below the Swedish verses Mosade och tillplattade ligger våra drömmar framför våra fötter, de duger inte ens att ha på vegomackan, än mindre att kompostera. Smältvatten porlar ned i gatubrunnarna och vinterns grusande drivor snubblar under våra … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i arduous times, armed loneliness, borders, changes, choices, coping skills, courage, create life, culture values, cultures, darkness, dreaming, falsehood, falsity, fate, fears, fooled, forgetting, fragility, garbage, hard times, hate, hope, human cruelty, human rights, images, inspiring literature, inspiring writer, life and love, life crises, life turns, living in the world, living with others, loss, lost, lost romance, lost trust, melancholy, memories, moods, morality, nobody's somebody, oblivion, obstacles, opportunities, paradigms, past, poem in Swedish and English, poem in Swedish translated to English, poems, poems by vonnely, Poetry, politics, present time, reading life, reality, remembering, repression and borders, restrictions, roots, seasons, sowing, spring, vår, vårvinter
Märkt create life, historical ignorance, living in the world, nutid, present times, repression and borders, selfishness, Spring coming, vårens ankomst
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Lost libido, lost lovers
One, I met one time but I never got to know him. One I got to know but I never met him, not even one time. (Oh, in my youth age, there were some in real: and I regret there … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i absence, body image, create life, forgetting, fragility, grief, heartache, illness, incapacity, left aside, life and love, life turns, living with sickness, loneliness, loners, longing, loss, lost, lost romance, lost trust, love poem, love story, memories, missing, nobody's somebody, obstacles, old age, opportunities, past, poems, poems by vonnely, Poetry, remembering, sadness, secret love, sentimentality, sexuality, sickness, single-handed voyage, struggles, troubled life, unhappiness, vulnerability, walk of life
Märkt aged life, aging, alone, dream of love, grow old, living in the past, loneliness, lonely heart, lost libido, lost lovers, lost romances, love and life, love memories, old and frail
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”Enough is enough”
Mostly I met people at treatment days, I was cared for. After the surgery there were a change. Last the nurse showed me to an empty narrow room with 3 black chairs, like in a minor hairdresser salon. I … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i alienation, fatigue, gloom, hard times, illness, life crises, life turns, living with sickness, loneliness, lost, lost trust, obstacles, poems by vonnely, sickness, surviving, troubled life, unhappiness, vonnely prose, vulnerability
Märkt abandoned, alone, biverkningar, breast cancer, cancer treatments, cancerbehandling, coping life, loneliness, recover from cancer, repression, sadness, side effects
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I was young at a time when…
In English below Jag var ung i en tid när man kunde sätta tiden på sitt armbandsur efter tåget, varje avgång exakt på minuten. Jag var ung i en tid när ”tiden” var lika förutsägbar som ett brev på … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i alienation, beliefs, changes, choices, create life, culture values, faith, life turns, living in the world, lost, lost trust, morality, paradigms, poem in Swedish translated to English, poems, poems by vonnely, Poetry, politics, present time, repression and borders, Swedish conditions, Swedish poem to English, Swedish souls, unhappiness
Märkt alienation, archetypes, estrangement, framtidstro, future faith, lost dreams, repression, tidsandan, time changes
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As the world appears (barber wire haiku)
As the world appears Why bother picking flowers? And why fall in love? Barbed wire Flower The power of tyranny Hong Kong Orchid Tree Trump and Xi Jinping like monsters in ancient myths kills our single lives What to dream … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i about writing, armed loneliness, create life, dreamers, fragility, frihet, grief, living in the world, lost trust, poem in English and Swedish, poem in Swedish and English, poems, poems by vonnely, Poetry, politics, rebellious lovers, repression and borders, summer poem, summertime, surviving, troubled life
Märkt övervåld, borders, coping life, create life, dream of love, dreams, injustice, missing, oppression, orättvis värld, rebellious lovers, repression, samhällsbilder, tyranny, unhappiness
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Harsh wind, some reflections
The rain ended and the summer heat came but the harsh wind has stayed. And it is hard-bitten merciless. My balcony plants looks like terrified puppies. My mother heart aches for little ones. I’m worn out from … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i alienation, courage, culture values, distance, falsity, fears, fragility, grannar, grief, human cruelty, human rights, left aside, living in the world, loneliness, loners, loss, lost trust, morality, neighbors, obstacles, old age, poem in English and Swedish, poem in Swedish and English, poems, poems by vonnely, Poetry, politics, poverty, present time, sadness, Sweden view, Swedish "culture", Swedish conditions, troubled life, vulnerability
Märkt abandoned, abandonment, äldrevården, övergivenhet, broken heart, coping life, corona-ättestupan, covid-19 Sverige, ensamhet dubblad isolering, Erich Maria Remarque, gamlas liv, loneliness, lonely heart, loss, Natt i Lissabon, relationships, repression, sadness, The night in Lisbon
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Thistles
Life hasn’t been good to me so far, so why do I bother to put seed in the soil? I never felt people were there, I fought alone and all I got was meager harvests. And thistles on my … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i alienation, armed loneliness, create life, fate, living in the world, living with others, loneliness, loners, lost trust, obstacles, paradigms, poems, poems by vonnely, Poetry, reality, sadness, sowing, walk of life
Märkt alone, coping life, create life, growing, living in the world, loneliness, planting, relationships, repression, sad heart, seeds, thistles, tistlar
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Aging female body (part I and II)
He made me hate my aging body, as mercilessly mirrored when I dress in the hall looking at these undeniably saggy boobs and right before, in the bathroom caring for what’s secretly hidden ”down there” my flaccid pussy prickly dry … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i aging, alienation, become old, body image, changes, closeness, create life, desirers, dreamers, falsity, fears, fragility, images, life and love, loneliness, lost romance, lost trust, maturity, old age, poems, poems by vonnely, Poetry, relationships, vulnerability
Märkt aging, aging distress, avsexualisering, åldrande, beauty ideal, borders, breaking up, coping life, courting, create life, desexualizing, dream of love, loneliness, love and life, mirrored, relationships, repression
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Moses Tegnell med sin stafettpinne leder svenska folket genom Corona-pestens ökenlandskap
Moses Tegnell with his baton leads the Swedish people through the desert landscape of the Corona plague De rör sig ur dunkla dis, de sågs aldrig komma I fängelser utan dörrar, tror vi att vi ska överleva… De dirigerar förlusterna … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i abuse, alienation, armed loneliness, betrayal, borders, copied lyrics, creativity, culture values, darkness, desirers, dreamers, faith, falsity, fragility, frihet, gloom, hate, hope, human cruelty, human rights, inspiring literature, inspiring music, inspiring songs, left aside, lies, living in the world, loneliness, longing, loss, lost trust, melancholy, memories, morality, opportunities, parenting, poem in English and Swedish, poems, poems by vonnely, Poetry, reading, rebellious lovers, repression and borders, roots, sacred, satire, Sweden view, Swedish "culture", Swedish conditions, Swedish souls, to die, transformation, translations by vonnely, troubled life, visionaries, vulnerability, walls
Märkt "Sverigebilden", Anders Tegnell, Fadime, finding light, free interpretation, fri tolkning, J M Baule, mortality, samhällsbilden, society and the individual, Sweden Corona solutions, tidsbild, time image, translations, unga döda, Yahya Hassan, young migrants
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The end of a high flying romance (quarantine)
I have nothing to say to you that could be of any comfort to you. For once, the saying ”you reap what you sow” fits good when about you! I don’t feel anything yet, no anger or bitterness or sadness. … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i heartache, life and love, loss, lost romance, lost trust, love story, poem in English and Swedish, poem in Swedish translated to English, poems, poems by vonnely, Poetry, reading life, relationships
Märkt breaking up, dream of love, lonely heart, loss, man in quarantine, relationships, repression
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Her best friend (republished)
From July 2014, the original in Swedish on 17 July, the translation now rewritten. She once had a best friend and Ralph was his name and he had a wife, Lena, and three children and one cat and he built … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i abuse, aging, copied lyrics, create life, falsehood, falsity, friendship, heartbreaker, hjärtekrossare, loneliness, loss, lost trust, memories, poem in Swedish translated to English, poems by vonnely, Poetry, relationships, sadness, surviving, vulnerability
Märkt överlevare, best friends, betrayal, broken heart, falska vänner, loneliness, lost trust, sad past, sexmissbruk, sexual assault
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Elderly balance (single-leg stance)
When 18 people read my texts I exist. Otherwise it is not much with that, unless I not wake up in the night with cramps in one lower leg, then I surely know I’m alive. I hear on the TV … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i about writing, aging, alienation, armed loneliness, authenticity, become old, body image, courage, create life, creativity, culture values, dreamers, fate, fears, fragile, grief, happiness, human cruelty, left aside, living with chronic diseases, loneliness, loners, loss, lost, lost trust, maturity, melancholy, memories, morality, obstacles, old age, opportunities, past, poems by vonnely, politics, poverty, reading life, reality, repression and borders, Short prose, Sweden view, Swedish "culture", Swedish conditions, unhappiness, visionaries, vulnerability, walk of life, walls, with or without you, words, writing
Märkt aging, alone, balance, bli sedd, breaking up, create life, dreams, living in the world, loneliness, loss, on poetry writing, readers, repression, sadness, visible, yoga
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Visiting the local library
I (Friday, February 7) It is a Friday noon and I’ll wash my hair and when it has dried, I intend to take the bus to city and walk from there to … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i about writing, aging, create life, creativity, cultures, door openers, dreamers, faith, inspiring literature, Living with chronic pains, loners, lost trust, memories, nature, old age, poem in Swedish translated to English, poems, poems by vonnely, Poetry, reading, reality, roots, Sweden view, Swedish artists, Swedish conditions, Swedish poem to English, transformation, translations by vonnely, vulnerability, walk of life, welfare, words, writing
Märkt Ögats dikt, böcker, bibliotek, create life, läsande, Lennart Sjögren, libraries, library books, Människans fot, memories
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One-man riot
There are riots in Hong Kong, there are riots in Paris and in Barcelona. There are riots in Bagdad and the cities around in Iraq as well as in cities in Iran as Tehran and around in the country, tell … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i armed loneliness, authenticity, borders, create life, living in the world, loneliness, lost trust, morality, opportunities, paradigms, past, politics, reading, reading life, reading newspapers, reality, relationships, repression and borders, right wing, roots, Short prose, Sweden view, Swedish conditions, visionaries, vulnerability, walk of life, walls, with or without you
Märkt alone, coping life, dream of love, living in the world, love and life, private zone, relationships, repression and borders, riots, world events
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Nuts from Turkey, and the nutcases ruling the world
One of the days in late September I felt a sudden yearning for nuts and I didn’t found any in the pantry and then I realized that it was some time since I ate any nuts at all. Mostly, I … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i food, human rights, living in the world, lost trust, obstacles, reading newspapers, visionaries
Märkt coping life, dictators, hazelnuts, injustice, Kurds, nutcases, repression, Turkey
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The weed in my garden of love (thistle love)
I met a guy and I loved him but he never knew my love because he only knew the love he claimed he had for me. It was all about his feelings and never about mine. He never knew how … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i armed loneliness, courage, create life, desirers, dreamers, fragile, hate, heartache, heartbreaker, hjärtekrossare, leaving, life and love, loneliness, loss, lost, lost trust, love story, morality, poems by vonnely, prose poem, relationships, romance, sadness, Short prose, surviving, vulnerability
Märkt alone, breaking up, broken heart, courting, dream of love, egotism and love, emotional limitations, loneliness, love and life, repression, romance, sadness, thistle love
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Where the birches rustles their summer song
When one goes, the other is seen left behind: But the former will be what comes. The other: the laughing gentleman, now ridiculous naked butt as the fairy tale emperor: but still haughty he gabbles his garbage. Far after the … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i about writing, courage, create life, culture values, dreamers, faith, garbage, life and love, loners, lost trust, love story, morality, nature, past, poems by vonnely, Poetry, politics, reading, reading newspapers, repression and borders, sexuality, summer poem, summertime, surviving, Swedish souls, writing
Märkt birches, björksus, cleaner woman, coping life, create life, dynga, falsity, hypocrites, life and poetry, livet och dikten, loss, mulch, power abuse, repression, ruttenhet, sex offenders, surviving romance, träd, träd lungor, träd tankar, trädlycka, tree blessings
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An angry man
An angry man stands at the corner waiting for me; his arms crossed over his chest. ”I’m ashamed of you” was the last he said to me. But his English is not good … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i changes, courage, lost, lost trust, love poem, love story, morality, poems, poems by vonnely, Poetry, reality, rebellious lovers, relationships, repression and borders, romance
Märkt angry men, bad boys, breaking up, destructive relations, distrust, dream of love, loss, love and life, oppression, repression, romance, sadness
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And Sam said
And Sam said ”Lady, you shot me” and he fell back and hasty he bled to death, still in his 30s. Soon 70, I walk my way slow and oldish as life and people have hurt me hard but … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i aging, alienation, become old, changes, courage, create life, desirers, fooled, grief, life and love, living with chronic diseases, Living with chronic pains, loss, lost trust, love story, memories, missing, morality, old age, past, Poetry, secret love, sexuality, spring, surviving
Märkt aging distress, betrayal, courting, dream of love, killing Sam, last dance, loneliness, love and life, one-night-stand, passion, repression, robbed womanizer, romance, sad heart, sadness
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Adonis’ speech
I gave her my heart and she sliced it and spiced it and fried it and show it to the world to view and to consume. Since I’ve fled the battles she gives me bad names but my name … Fortsätt läsa
The elevator (invisibilized)
The lady in the elevator looks down on you, but what do you care! You’re going up and she’s going down, you’ve nothing to share! Mistreated all your life, people now … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i alienation, armed loneliness, create life, darkness, fragile, loners, lost, lost trust, obstacles, past, poems, poems by vonnely, Poetry, reality, repression and borders, sadness, unhappiness
Märkt alienation, alone, anxiety, broken heart, coping life, darkness, despair, disrespected, dream of love, expelled, fears, invisible, invisible tears, loneliness, lonely heart, longing, marginaliserad, misunderstood, relationships, repression, sadness, same square, seclusion, solitude, unhappiness, utanförskap, utfryst
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There’s no tomorrow for what died yesterday
There’s no love around us anymore what once has solidify will never change It’s silly to believe love is all you need when blindness becomes its only seed Love will fade just like the sun goes … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i loss, lost, lost trust, love story, morality, past, poems, poems by vonnely, Poetry, reading life, reality, sentimentality, surviving, with or without you
Märkt förljugenhet, heartburn, loss, lost love, reality check, remorse, romanticizing, sadness, soap operas, spells
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Is love’s ending, love in vain?
Is love’s ending, love in vain? I woke up and felt like a bus had run over me, it was you! Walking a street, no map and not sure where … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i armed loneliness, loss, lost, lost trust, love poem, love story, past, poems, poems by vonnely, Poetry, reading life, romance, sadness
Märkt breaking up, broken heart, dream of love, ending love, forlorn, lonely heart, lost love, love and life, love confusion, love in vain, lover's despair, relationships, sad heart
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Hen house
Part I, Saturday It’s the weekend after Sweden voted for new leaderships in counties and parliament. The mandates for the parliament after the final statement is 144-143 to the favor of red/green bloc, but Swedish Democrats receives 62 mandates. The … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i immigrants, inspiring music, inspiring songs, lost trust, maturity, obstacles, old age, poems by vonnely, politics, reading, repression and borders, right wing, satire, Sweden view, Swedish "culture", Swedish conditions
Märkt beröringsskräck, coping life, creating hostilities, dödläge, deadlock, deadlock Sweden, environmental disaster, hönshuskackel, igelkottaskinn, living in the world, mångkultur, multi culture, repression and borders, skapade konflikter, svensk blockpolitik
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”It could be worse!”
Have a bad government with confused ministers who don’t know how to find their own hands in their pockets, wishing for another reign but realise the alternative we would get an even worse government that is not footed, but for … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i create life, dreaming, fooled, heartache, living in the world, lost trust, morality, poems by vonnely, politics, repression and borders, Sweden view, Swedish conditions
Märkt coping life, frustration, it-could-be-worse, living in the world, lost visions, politikerförakt, repression and borders, right wing movements
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Single ”forever”
If you wonder if I miss you the answer is simply ”yes”. All other answers are ”no”. If you can forget me: good! If you can’t: just live with it. And the same goes for me! You said your … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i aging, armed loneliness, heartache, loneliness, loners, longing, loss, lost trust, love poem, love story, missing, morality, online romance, poems, poems by vonnely, Poetry, relationships
Märkt breaking up, cold awakening, dream of love, forever, loneliness, loss, lost love, missing, moon dreams, repression and borders, summer divorce
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Porn is not an issue, it’s just a ”no”!
You have met a nice guy, finally. And he’s such an angel to you, nice and charming and respectful. Right? I did too. He’s a believer he told me early on, and preach and pray every day and he teach … Fortsätt läsa
Publicerat i cultures, heartache, loss, lost trust, morality, online romance, poems by vonnely, reading life, relationships, repression and borders, secret love, sexuality
Märkt betrayal, breaking up, broken heart, create life, dream of love, infedility, lifestyle porn, lost love, lost thrill, men and sex, relationships, repression and borders, romance
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