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Forever never more, not last long for me when about you

          “Forever never more, not last long for me when about you.” I wrote that to him and I stand for it! He wrote back to me “I’m sorry I don’t understand what you write now.” … Continue reading

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The weed in my garden of love (thistle love)

I met a guy and I loved him but he never knew my love because he only knew the love he claimed he had for me. It was all about his feelings and never about mine. He never knew how … Continue reading

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I was never tougher than the rest

  Well, it’s Saturday noon and you’re gone into the blue. I kept an eye on you a while, maybe you did on me too. It’s true I ran off first, because you caused us such a mess. Once you … Continue reading

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Break up break down told you so

  I told him so many times what made me unhappy and he heard me but he never listened, only told me I was wrong. I could have said when I left him “I told you so” but I didn’t! … Continue reading

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There is someone for everyone except for me

  There is someone for everyone except for me of course, Cupid simply sneaked past my house one dark night when I was hard sleeping, caught by nightmares. At a ”certain age” you try to fit in to your new … Continue reading

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Even if you silently weep

  Even if you silently weep, don’t worry, no one sees your tears. Yet everybody knows that all hearts have their secret tales. I still think of you, from my early morning to the silent nights. I wonder what was … Continue reading

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I was easy forgotten

I was easy forgotten just piece of a game the One knew words not ever compassion heart split and alone moving on shattered tears hidden in heart smiles cover up pains

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It’s the third of August

            It’s the third of August, the second day of the beginning of the second week without you. When I woke up this morning I remembered the line I had written before “But my silly … Continue reading

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Three times, three roses

        Lars Forssell  (Swedish poet) (1928–2007) Odysseus på Ithaca (from the poetry collection Telegram, 1957) In the Greek tale, the hero is captured on the island Ogygia by the beautiful nymph Calypso who seduces him with her love … Continue reading

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Heart wrapped in barbed wire

          I read your letter, roses sweet with thorns thoroughly hidden in thin silk paper. I grieve your heart wrapped in barbed wire! What you have you don’t want and what you want is far away. … Continue reading

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Play it again, Sam!

  I said: Sam, see you in Casablanca! And he shrank to a boy’s voice in a phone with a lousy connection and vanished in the night. Now it’s late and I’m running out of time, but still I’ve that … Continue reading

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The elevator (invisibilized)

                  The lady in the elevator looks down on you, but what do you care! You’re going up and she’s going down, you’ve nothing to share! Mistreated all your life, people now … Continue reading

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Is love’s ending, love in vain?

                    Is love’s ending, love in vain? I woke up and felt like a bus had run over me, it was you! Walking a street, no map and not sure where … Continue reading

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The request

Send me a sign! One word, one line, and make it all undone: you’re not the one for me! Turn to me, listen to my plea be the one I want you to be, the only one I want to … Continue reading

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Unhappy, although I’m loved (forget me not)

        I’m unhappy, although I’m loved. And I tell myself every day to be content with what I have, but that doesn’t make me feel better. Unsatisfactions eats my soul like mice making hole in a pantry … Continue reading

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If I’ve lost you, I’ve lost you!

You have been a fortnight offline. And if I’ve lost you, I’ve lost you. I don’t cry but I don’t smile either. It snows when I lower the blinds in the afternoon. It snows when I raise them in morning. … Continue reading

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Forsaken lover

Har du övergett mig? Aldrig mer din mjuka röst? Vintern kom tidigt! Have you forsaken me? Never more your soft voice? Winter came early!         Two great Swedish music artists: Totta Näslund sings the lyrics written by … Continue reading

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Children of divorce, left behind

Children of divorce, left behind. When one or both parents find new love, they cut off the past: what’s old luggage comes last. And children can be neglected, needing loving care is rejected. I was talking on phone with my … Continue reading

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Porn is not an issue, it’s just a “no”!

You have met a nice guy, finally. And he’s such an angel to you, nice and charming and respectful. Right? I did too. He’s a believer he told me early on, and preach and pray every day and he teach … Continue reading

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Zelda’s bad dreams (that came true)

I’ve got dreams, dreams to remember Many, many dreams Hard dreams and bad dreams to remember I dreamed one day I won’t to be with you that you were so far away an air plane could not reach you I … Continue reading

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Sadness is a seven letters word

      Sadness is a seven letters word. Seven black drops dirt your skin and you rub and rub to clean it off you, but you can still see there are remains of the stains. Some people are just … Continue reading

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A love story in summary

First you got me miss you Then you got me love you You indeed got me to sing Ending, you got me crying    

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Chocolate and roses

          If you give me chocolate I’ll give you a kiss, tasted If you give me roses, red I’ll give you my true heart unlimited, if you love me as before – oh, you don’t!   … Continue reading

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Online friends, good and bad ones

I have been a member on a pen pal site to and fro since 2011. I have met a few friends for life there, as Anne from England – a very nice lady now 76 years old. We been friends … Continue reading

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I will never love more but you

          I got a call yesterday from an “ex” bf. I remember him as a nice man. He has still a very nice voice. Alluring. But he’s not to trust. Still it was sad to say … Continue reading

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Long distance heating

This apartment I have, it’s too hot all through the summer. In the fall when the first cold hits outdoors, the temperature drops to normal indoors. Yet it never pleases me, but make me feel uneasy and frozen in the … Continue reading

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I never told you goodbye

  To cut you off was easy and actually an act of self-defense, I don’t expect you to understand. But now I discover I’ve cut off a part of myself. And sometimes during my days it hurts in my absent … Continue reading

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I lost him a Thursday in October

I lost him a Thursday in October. It was a chilly but sunny day and I had just went to bed for a nap. It was at 17.39 to be precise and 3600 km away he looked up and met … Continue reading

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We live here apart

We live here apart and caught in the prejudices of our societies and minds like flies in a spider web. But I know that in another planetary system in a parallel reality we live happily and sleep together every night, … Continue reading

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Nostalgia (2) (Love hurts)

And this is what we accomplished: hurted hearts! As you hurt me and I hurt you, yet no harm meant: gore! “You’re the victim of your crime”!       Francis Cabrel – Si tu la croises un jour – … Continue reading

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Making an apple pie with a secret jewel in mind

  After a wakeful night, the dawn longed and feared and I slept all morning, this the first and bright September day. One of the coming days, I’ll peel an apple and cut it to cubes and powder it with … Continue reading

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The Rowan Berries (a sour-sweet love story)

In the month of August, when the berries on rowan trees ripen bright reddish, love tends to run off my life, likewise this year. The days are still sunny and warm, but it darkens earlier in the evening and nights … Continue reading

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On May 31 1941 it was too late for Margot

Karin Boye Oct 26, 1900 – April 24 1941 Margot Edman born Hanel, April 12, 1912 – May 30, 1941             The day after it’s too late to regret neglect, to regret ostracism. Margot Hanel’s … Continue reading

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Too easy

it was too easy for you then to let me go because I made you angry and hurt but yet you couldn’t free yourself from have me on your mind all time and all the love you held back got … Continue reading

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No, I don’t wish you “the best”!

        No, I don’t wish you “the best” when I now let you go. I don’t wish you luck. If you can’t stay with me to love me as you should do, you can as well spend … Continue reading

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Lost heart

I knew right, but I made it wrong. You knew wrong but made what was right, now you’re gone. You said “love” and you said “forever” but it was just words you spread around like lost leaves in a wind. … Continue reading

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Are you really gone?

          I could write epistles for hours and days about how much I miss you. (And I do.) (I work hard to find the right words for this specific condition: to miss someone – but it’s … Continue reading

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Ball and chain

            Do I believe he ever loved me? Well, I believe he thought he did! I think he still does, because you can’t turn off love like you turn off a water tap. But I … Continue reading

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On the road again

Too often I feel I’m on a road going nowhere, and that I’m always judged never good enough to be loved, tears flowing down my body richly as rain in the gutters on neat house walls cute decorated with plants. … Continue reading

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Blue doors’ reveries

        Blue doors’ reveries, timeless but passed. That blue door to him, such as he closed. He took his frozen mind and with his hurt burning feelings he welded a key. Chilled, he took it and with … Continue reading

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The day begins as gloomy as I am

      The day begins as gloomy as I am – instant pain in my heart the same. “Good morning” I greet my grief and make myself a plate with yogurt and oats to soak. I take my dose … Continue reading

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Another sunny day in January

The sun shines mercilessly strong this one of the last days of January, the grass out there is fooled to grow in a hurry and so will coltsfoot do. I have a day off, no grief screams in me. My … Continue reading

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I would miss your kiss if I ever tasted it

        I would miss your kiss if I ever tasted it. I would miss your warm body if you ever been near me. But I have never kissed you and I’ve never ever hold you close. So … Continue reading

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Sudden curve ahead

Sudden curve ahead. The road takes a sharp turn here and I need to slow down speed, get the brakes working well for me, not too hard and not to little, steer with care and not to panic. At first … Continue reading

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Polar Times

        There are times you stand as a polar bear between two ice floes – one foot in the air and trying to get over save not wet your feet, when in fact your world is melting … Continue reading

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Philophobia

          Oh, I remember well the ending of my last one – it was not so much him leaving that broke my heart as him lying about it, trying to handle me like a sack of … Continue reading

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Anyone but you

        Någon annan än du! Det kunde ha varit någon annan än du! Men nu var det du – ja, det var du och jag hamnade på akuten med ett pinat hjärta! Ja, mitt hjärta värkte och … Continue reading

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“At your own risk”

        And the doctor at the emergency ward said “you go home at your own risk”! But there’s nothing like “at your own risk” if you have dependents – because you don’t belong to yourself but to … Continue reading

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When walking alone hand in hand with a friend in mind

          When walking alone but hand in hand with a friend in my mind countryside around my home looks its best whether it’s winter or summer. But I’m always sad. My days gets easier to conquer … Continue reading

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Haiku poems in November

  She talks to him in her mind: “I miss you now – surely! But it’s good it ended  before it began. Might be my big luck you spared me from you!”     November now mourn what once glowed in September. Santa … Continue reading

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