Tag Archives: loneliness

Lost direction

You were my direction. Now I’m lost and confused. I walk around every day like a dog that does not belong to any.   Advertisements

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Said within parentheses

            If there were a road back to me, would you choose that road then, would you? Do you miss me like I miss you, do you? (Poor me, loving you so stupidly much.) I … Continue reading

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We live here apart

We live here apart and caught in the prejudices of our societies and minds like flies in a spider web. But I know that in another planetary system in a parallel reality we live happily and sleep together every night, … Continue reading

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Do you remember me?

minns du mig? har du också dagar då du bara hatar mig och dagar då blå längtan blommar ömt och kärleksfullt? Do you remember me, she writes. Do you have – like me – days when all is pain and … Continue reading

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Life is what happens in the background

life is what happens in the background a wagtail chirping outside your window and you don’t know it’s my lonely soul words are written on its wings, tales of lovers like you and me, forever apart from each other, but … Continue reading

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In the essence of the night

There’s an old grief at the bottom of my soul that never heal and goes away. When the cold nights come and I have no one to hold on to, ghosts chase me and makes me feel worthless. My last … Continue reading

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He’s a daydreamer, he’s a dream of love

              Her lover is a keen daydreamer and he’s dreaming about their daily life, like they hope it will be one day and in his secret life he imagine how they make dinner together, … Continue reading

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The loneliest girl in the world

              I don’t feel good now, left alone and no one at all around, silence and emptiness chase me. When I walked around in my flat today carrying the burden of myself I got … Continue reading

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Making an apple pie with a secret jewel in mind

  After a wakeful night, the dawn longed and feared and I slept all morning, this the first and bright September day. One of the coming days, I’ll peel an apple and cut it to cubes and powder it with … Continue reading

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Songbird

When I woke up last Sunday afternoon from my daily nap I could vaguely hear a melancholy voice singing in my head. It happens to me at times I  can hear a tiny tune like that for my inner ear … Continue reading

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After the summer vacations

  When you’re left there and everyone has traveled back to their own and your rooms fills you to the brim with their silence and emptiness and all the new things you bought for yourself – shopping in gaiety community … Continue reading

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The story of the man at the pier

The first version of this poem was published August 2015. The story is   inspired by the picture, that I liked and want to create something around. I’m a man of fire and ashes. Every day is new, I know … Continue reading

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As if I tried to catch the wind

I held out my hands for love, but it seems to me all I caught was wind. My years have run away like sand through my fingers and I now face my last life years and I’m still alone. Oh, … Continue reading

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And the lilacs bloom another year

        The first of June and summer at last. But my back aches after a bad night. Two painkillers and then the bus to the supermarket to buy cat food. To feed the cat is my merely … Continue reading

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(A rose to my) cyber friends

          I go to bed late at night and before I fall asleep I recall the past day – and I ask myself “Is this all there is to my life?” I wake in mornings facing … Continue reading

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Togetherness

                  Each opinion having more than two adherents becomes a group, which soon enough creates a set of rules and rituals to promote the group’s survival and then a strictly worded creed … Continue reading

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Polar Times

        There are times you stand as a polar bear between two ice floes – one foot in the air and trying to get over save not wet your feet, when in fact your world is melting … Continue reading

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So it’s Monday

              So it’s Monday and you’re back in your deed. I’m still in bed, sleepy thinking how strange someone like you met someone like me. But then I leave bed to make my morning … Continue reading

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I think of my latest lover

                    The year 1971 I was 22, slim and cute and clever and lonely. Now I’m 67 and I’m not slim and cute, maybe clever, surely lonely. And I think of … Continue reading

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I have a cold in my soul

        I woke up again today with a cold in my soul. When will this bluesy flu let me be free? I went down town the other day and I saw a man in a wheelchair with … Continue reading

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November and winter coming

November and I fear winter coming. I wish me cosiness, but so far it’s only a longing and a “write about”! To whom will I write, now when I have lost my most ardent friend? Friendship is such a matter! … Continue reading

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It’s you, in my thoughts (det är du, i mina tankar)

It’s you, in my thoughts in lonely evenings – and it’s like a whole century of silence reigns in my rooms! Now late October’s icy golden glow slowly glides into gloomy November’s muted darkness and bare cold nights – and … Continue reading

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Getting old

On the evening news – a feature about home care service and a short interview with an old gentleman in a wheelchair. He looked nice. Smiling – very likeable. He said he always look forward the visits from the staff … Continue reading

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Ensamheten är beväpnad med kulsprutor

Loneliness is armed with machine guns! (in English below the Swedish text)       Ensamheten är beväpnad med kulsprutor! Efter att långan tid varit beväpnad måste du tala med omsorg, så att du inte avsiktslöst skjuter nå’n. Alltsomoftast skjuter du … Continue reading

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I was chosen to be cheated

      I was chosen to be cheated at a time I was upside down and life turned around and I landed on my feet. In the darkest of my nights, a highwayman cleared road free and swept me … Continue reading

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Life Path (The Book of Love)

      I was alone. I walked alone. And I bought a dog and I wasn’t alone anymore. I walked with my dog. And the dog grow old and the dog died and I walked alone. I was alone … Continue reading

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Wounded people in Wasteland

Longing for love and tenderness, crying when touched, skin burned the citizens living in Wasteland Singing songs for the lonely ones silent choirs, deserts despair Oh, citizens living in Wasteland Spiky yet juicy, hard blooming when in love, just like … Continue reading

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Looking for Mr. Goodman

          I’m looking for Mr. Goodman. When Mr. Goodman comes to me everything will be good. Yes, when Mr. Goodman walks in, my life will be all good. But where can he be? I’ve been looking and waiting, … Continue reading

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The private life of Jesse Stone, in the night

I want to hear the first silence when you answer my phone call and understands it’s me – again. I want to hear you say my name and the emptiness coming next when the click tells me you have end … Continue reading

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Alone

I didn’t want to be alone, only be left alone Badly beaten by bullies I retreaded from the people, learned hard way hard years edifying friends was not meant for me No one sees a lonely heart’s pain forced to … Continue reading

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Listening to Dylan and naming you Angelo

The ground is rising and the sky lies low in these tiny rooms there’s no air and no peace I’m singing to you Goodbye Angelo, I have to go Oh Angelo, I demand my release I’m too old for lies … Continue reading

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At dusk César Vallejo talks to me

No one has asked for me today, César Vallejo tells me in the afternoon as the dusk slowly falls over me and emptiness begin to tiptoe in the corners. Every day I have “the courage to live”. Why, heaven only … Continue reading

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A cat never gets worried

  In English below       Katten spinner i sängfötterna. Hon släcker lampan för natten, blundar och tänker på honom. Om morgonen stannar hon en stund i sängvärmen. Och hon blundar och tänker på honom. Katten i sängen spinner … Continue reading

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We will never be complete (2 poems)

(human incompleteness on two levels in life) I We will never be complete and we will die in the middle of our incompleteness, not yet done with life. Now the wicked wants to cause us so much harm as they … Continue reading

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Cyber friends (A rose on my pillow)

        I go to bed late at night and before I fall asleep I recall the past day – and I ask myself “Is this all there is to my life?” I wake in mornings facing a … Continue reading

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Sitting on a park bench

          She’s sitting on a park bench – “just a minute more”, she tells herself “it’s nice here, a really good day indeed, not too hot and not cold either and people around; not much of … Continue reading

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The story of the man at the pier

I’m a man of fire and ashes. Every day is new, I know – but it all feels like repeats. I try to walk straight, but constantly stumbles on my feet. Time and time again and all my life I’ve … Continue reading

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Cloudy (x 3)

1. Cloudy As I think of you I look at me – I’m fat old stooped losing my teeth, what’s there for you to love, like you say you do? You told me you don’t want to be alone anymore. … Continue reading

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Mr Solitary Man Mystery

I said, hello Mr Solitary Man, do you still feel like lonely? No, he said. You’re with me now, that’s why I’m not alone anymore. I said, but I’m far from you. Yes, but not far from my heart, he … Continue reading

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Sugar babe (Blood sugar blues 2)

I woke up one day with a sugar babe in my blood, Oh, woke up so sick with a sugar babe in my blood I was dizzy, down and out and couldn’t help myself and staggered downstairs to a neighbour’s … Continue reading

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Fatal loneliness

I’m reading in papers loneliness is not good for you, because it can make you sad and depressed. But loners are really not more sad or depressed than others, but we surely often feel we live a wretched life. Actually … Continue reading

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Walking my right foot (living with chronic pains)

I like walks. And I have never been able to be in a room full of loud and chattering people, without feeling uncomfortable and wanting to just walk away. And I have done that. I have walked my own ways. … Continue reading

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I don’t mind to be alone

          I don’t mind to be alone, not really. It can be good. It can be essential. It can be boring, sometimes uninspiring, then walk with dogs playing safe. But I hate that feeling of loneliness … Continue reading

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A beautiful October day

October sun and blue sky, country road and my cycle wheels silent spin, golden leaves on trees and ground and a scent of pine and forest. I’m on my way home from the bird lake with its cacophony of screaming … Continue reading

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What’s the point?

He said “You know, it’s going to be hot!” I said “It’s hot already, I wake up in the morning all sweaty and you’re not here!” It’s June and it’s summer now again. I wake up in mornings and find myself … Continue reading

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