Tag Archives: loneliness

Philosophizes about my (lack of a) love life

I plugged in the wrong end of a cord into my laptop and the electrical system collapsed instantly. Now I sit here without computer and energy, without passion and power and without contact with anyone and I wonder if you … Continue reading

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Single “forever”

If you wonder if I miss you the answer is simply “yes”. All other answers are “no”. If you can forget me: good! If you can’t: just live with it. And the same goes for me!   You said your … Continue reading

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Old Woman Blues

It’s a sad thing to have become an old woman, living alone with a cat and a TV set, desperately longing for a warm hand and a little sympathy and someone to talk to: easy victim of wreckers.  

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Moon Girl

Then one night the Moon Girl looked at her crying face in the water and she told herself “Girl, that man doesn’t make you happy”, but the Water Girl had no ears, but simply tears.           … Continue reading

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All that I have (yet another wonderful summer)

And yet another wonderful summer. Biking to a lake, reading a book and drink coffee from a thermos and eat cinnamon buns, sticky in the heat – and breadcrumbs and ants all over the blanket. (To bike slowly home in … Continue reading

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A humble man with a heart

It was a Monday in the beginning of April this year and I had an appointment with my dental hygienist the very same morning. It turned out to be a meeting including more than a cleaning of teeth, but resulting … Continue reading

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The lure is the same

          It may be a strange thing to live daily within another language as I do. I mostly even think in English and not in my native language, Swedish. So I feel comfortable and homey with … Continue reading

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To miss you has become my daily bread

To miss you has become my daily bread. My every day thirst is to hear your voice; to talk to you. I think of you constantly. You’re a hurricane and the peace in my soul. One day you will rest … Continue reading

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To be frank about the nature of our love

            I woke up from my late afternoon nap. And then I missed him. Or to be frank – I missed to have the warm tenderness between two people being together and liking each other. … Continue reading

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It causes me pain in my fingers to spread butter on the bread

It causes me pain in my fingers to spread butter on the bread. I have luckily bought ready-sliced cheese home, but when I stretch out my arm for a slice of cheese it hurts in my back. The relapse this … Continue reading

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Lonely swan dreams in November (haiku)

It don’t come easy – November sun and swan dreams! Where did it all go?      

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Broccoli

Oh, I’m so bored having no one to talk to But when you’re surprisingly calling me all you say is just annoying me If you only have broccoli in your head and not a brain, talk to another vegetable  

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Chocolate and roses

          If you give me chocolate I’ll give you a kiss, tasted If you give me roses, red I’ll give you my true heart unlimited, if you love me as before – oh, you don’t!   … Continue reading

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There’s nothing between Stockholm and Agadir

      When it’s plus 6 in Stockholm there’s plus 30 in Agadir. I needed knitted gloves today when I biked to the grocery store. And I was thinking of you meantime biking. How are you doing? The cold … Continue reading

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Lost direction

You were my direction. Now I’m lost and confused. I walk around every day like a dog that does not belong to any.  

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Said within parentheses

            If there were a road back to me, would you choose that road then, would you? Do you miss me like I miss you, do you? (Poor me, loving you so stupidly much.) I … Continue reading

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We live here apart

We live here apart and caught in the prejudices of our societies and minds like flies in a spider web. But I know that in another planetary system in a parallel reality we live happily and sleep together every night, … Continue reading

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Life is what happens in the background

life is what happens in the background a wagtail chirping outside your window and you don’t know it’s my lonely soul words are written on its wings, tales of lovers like you and me, forever apart from each other, but … Continue reading

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In the essence of the night

There’s an old grief at the bottom of my soul that never heal and goes away. When the cold nights come and I have no one to hold on to, ghosts chase me and makes me feel worthless. My last … Continue reading

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He’s a daydreamer, he’s a dream of love

              Her lover is a keen daydreamer and he’s dreaming about their daily life, like they hope it will be one day and in his secret life he imagine how they make dinner together, … Continue reading

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The loneliest girl in the world

              I don’t feel good now, left alone and no one at all around, silence and emptiness chase me. When I walked around in my flat today carrying the burden of myself I got … Continue reading

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Making an apple pie with a secret jewel in mind

  After a wakeful night, the dawn longed and feared and I slept all morning, this the first and bright September day. One of the coming days, I’ll peel an apple and cut it to cubes and powder it with … Continue reading

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Songbird

When I woke up last Sunday afternoon from my daily nap I could vaguely hear a melancholy voice singing in my head. It happens to me at times I  can hear a tiny tune like that for my inner ear … Continue reading

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After the summer vacations

  When you’re left there and everyone has traveled back to their own and your rooms fills you to the brim with their silence and emptiness and all the new things you bought for yourself – shopping in gaiety community … Continue reading

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(A rose to my) cyber friends

          I go to bed late at night and before I fall asleep I recall the past day – and I ask myself “Is this all there is to my life?” I wake in mornings facing … Continue reading

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Togetherness

                  Each opinion having more than two adherents becomes a group, which soon enough creates a set of rules and rituals to promote the group’s survival and then a strictly worded creed … Continue reading

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Polar Times

        There are times you stand as a polar bear between two ice floes – one foot in the air and trying to get over save not wet your feet, when in fact your world is melting … Continue reading

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So it’s Monday

              So it’s Monday and you’re back in your deed. I’m still in bed, sleepy thinking how strange someone like you met someone like me. But then I leave bed to make my morning … Continue reading

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I think of my latest lover

                    The year 1971 I was 22, slim and cute and clever and lonely. Now I’m 67 and I’m not slim and cute, maybe clever, surely lonely. And I think of … Continue reading

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I have a cold in my soul

        I woke up again today with a cold in my soul. When will this bluesy flu let me be free? I went down town the other day and I saw a man in a wheelchair with … Continue reading

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November, and winter will come

November and I fear winter coming. I wish me cosiness, but so far it’s only a longing and a “write about”! To whom will I write, now when I have lost my most devoted friend? Friendship is such a matter! … Continue reading

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It’s you, in my thoughts (det är du, i mina tankar)

It’s you, in my thoughts in lonely evenings – and it’s like a whole century of silence reigns in my rooms! Now late October’s icy golden glow slowly glides into gloomy November’s muted darkness and bare cold nights – and … Continue reading

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Getting old

On the evening news – a feature about home care service and a short interview with an old gentleman in a wheelchair. He looked nice. Smiling – very likeable. He said he always look forward the visits from the staff … Continue reading

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Ensamheten är beväpnad med kulsprutor

Loneliness is armed with machine guns! (in English below the Swedish text)       Ensamheten är beväpnad med kulsprutor! Efter att långan tid varit beväpnad måste du tala med omsorg, så att du inte avsiktslöst skjuter nå’n. Alltsomoftast skjuter du … Continue reading

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I was chosen to be cheated

      I was chosen to be cheated at a time I was upside down and life turned around and I landed on my feet. In the darkest of my nights, a highwayman cleared road free and swept me … Continue reading

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Life Path (The Book of Love)

      I was alone. I walked alone. And I bought a dog and I wasn’t alone anymore. I walked with my dog. And the dog grow old and the dog died and I walked alone. I was alone … Continue reading

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Wounded people in Wasteland

Longing for love and tenderness, crying when touched, skin burned the citizens living in Wasteland Singing songs for the lonely ones silent choirs, deserts despair Oh, citizens living in Wasteland Spiky yet juicy, hard blooming when in love, just like … Continue reading

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Looking for Mr. Goodman

          I’m looking for Mr. Goodman. When Mr. Goodman comes to me everything will be good. Yes, when Mr. Goodman walks in, my life will be all good. But where can he be? I’ve been looking and waiting, … Continue reading

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The private life of Jesse Stone, in the night

I want to hear the first silence when you answer my phone call and understands it’s me – again. I want to hear you say my name and the emptiness coming next when the click tells me you have end … Continue reading

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Alone

I didn’t want to be alone, only be left alone Badly beaten by bullies I retreaded from the people, learned hard way hard years edifying friends was not meant for me No one sees a lonely heart’s pain forced to … Continue reading

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Listening to Dylan and naming you Angelo

The ground is rising and the sky lies low in these tiny rooms there’s no air and no peace I’m singing to you Goodbye Angelo, I have to go Oh Angelo, I demand my release I’m too old for lies … Continue reading

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At dusk César Vallejo talks to me

No one has asked for me today, César Vallejo tells me in the afternoon as the dusk slowly falls over me and emptiness begin to tiptoe in the corners. Every day I have “the courage to live”. Why, heaven only … Continue reading

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A cat never gets worried

  In English below       Katten spinner i sängfötterna. Hon släcker lampan för natten, blundar och tänker på honom. Om morgonen stannar hon en stund i sängvärmen. Och hon blundar och tänker på honom. Katten i sängen spinner … Continue reading

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We will never be complete (2 poems)

(human incompleteness on two levels in life) I We will never be complete and we will die in the middle of our incompleteness, not yet done with life. Now the wicked wants to cause us so much harm as they … Continue reading

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Cyber friends (A rose on my pillow)

        I go to bed late at night and before I fall asleep I recall the past day – and I ask myself “Is this all there is to my life?” I wake in mornings facing a … Continue reading

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Sitting on a park bench

          She’s sitting on a park bench – “just a minute more”, she tells herself “it’s nice here, a really good day indeed, not too hot and not cold either and people around; not much of … Continue reading

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The story of the man at the pier

I’m a man of fire and ashes. Every day is new, I know – but it all feels like repeats. I try to walk straight, but constantly stumbles on my feet. Time and time again and all my life I’ve … Continue reading

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Cloudy (x 3)

1. Cloudy As I think of you I look at me – I’m fat old stooped losing my teeth, what’s there for you to love, like you say you do? You told me you don’t want to be alone anymore. … Continue reading

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Mr Solitary Man Mystery

I said, hello Mr Solitary Man, do you still feel like lonely? No, he said. You’re with me now, that’s why I’m not alone anymore. I said, but I’m far from you. Yes, but not far from my heart, he … Continue reading

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Sugar babe (Blood sugar blues 2)

I woke up one day with a sugar babe in my blood, Oh, woke up so sick with a sugar babe in my blood I was dizzy, down and out and couldn’t help myself and staggered downstairs to a neighbour’s … Continue reading

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