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Opportunities

Thoughts in January and the beginning of the new yea about “dead ends” and “Catch 22” – life situations that are unbearable and impossible to handle… Everyone has at some time in life faced it. In hopeless circumstances where all … Continue reading

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The old bard’s advice how to handle the pain of life

Gunnar Ekelöf 1907 – 1968 Swedish poet and translator.  He is one of the most significant, loved and well-known poets in the Swedish literature. From the poetry collection Dedikation 1934 Note: The poem here translated by me and just for … Continue reading

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Sweden today

At the Sweden’s most northerly point, called Three-Country Cairn, the sun will never raise from today, the first of December. This will be for about 2 weeks. Then the same phenomenon will appears at Sweden’s northernmost city Kiruna. It is … Continue reading

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To be frank about the nature of our love

            I woke up from my late afternoon nap. And then I missed him. Or to be frank – I missed to have the warm tenderness between two people being together and liking each other. … Continue reading

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It causes me pain in my fingers to spread butter on the bread

It causes me pain in my fingers to spread butter on the bread. I have luckily bought ready-sliced cheese home, but when I stretch out my arm for a slice of cheese it hurts in my back. The relapse this … Continue reading

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So much love…

After weeks of silence and not a beep from or about Putin, I was wondering if he has been  so busy with his last puppy he haven’t got the time to do or say any to be caught up in … Continue reading

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Disappointed

I woke up one morning the other day and saw like a sign for my inner sight, short simply written “I’m disappointed” Just that: no anger and no frustration, no nothing: not one emotion in motion for all the time … Continue reading

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So if I don’t have a “real life”, what do I have? Am I dead?

Forgive me friend, but… 😦 … I’ve just read an entry here on wordpress making me pissed off, frankly. I got the same anger exactly one year ago. Because the blogger had the same entry published back then… He say … Continue reading

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For the sake of love

        When love is over and you have blown and then blown once more on cooled embers, for the sake of love, for the sake of love, for the sake of love, but see there’s no spark … Continue reading

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Baby, I got soul today!

Time change the last weekend! Yet I woke up this Saturday much later than usually. The sun shone like a desperado through the windows, like tossing in its light in big buckets! I stayed dazzled in my bed for another … Continue reading

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We travel on the same bus in different worlds

I had such dreams latest night! Just before I woke up I dreamt I was on a bus full with other people and I was in company with a person whom I’m not comfortable to deal with. I know her … Continue reading

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“The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it”

John 1:5 “The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it” After the last killings, Manhattan October 31, 2017, I felt such an overwhelming tiredness coming over me when I heard it on the news. It comes … Continue reading

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Why is it so easy to love and so hard to be loved?

            Why is it so difficult for a talented woman (like me) to be loved and respected despite her greatness? Women are expected subordinate the other’s stubborn ignorance and limitations, right? Having a penis is … Continue reading

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Lost direction

You were my direction. Now I’m lost and confused. I walk around every day like a dog that does not belong to any.  

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Ride the river in this boat

(Sometimes I’m all mixed up, tottered between longing love and resentment, Paradise in Hell.) Woke up this morning realizing I have opened a line, giving a tool through which he can continue to treat me with his old habitual manner … Continue reading

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To talk too much – or not talk at all?

                  We have in our world today a big mouthed leader who is an idiot… After having him as a pain in ass for the last year or more – his last … Continue reading

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I lost him a Thursday in October

I lost him a Thursday in October. It was a chilly but sunny day and I had just went to bed for a nap. It was at 17.39 to be precise and 3600 km away he looked up and met … Continue reading

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I miss you (det regnar)

I miss you It’s raining I miss you It’s raining I miss you It’s raining I miss you It’s raining I miss you It’s raining I’m not crying I’m very calm I did what was right I just have to … Continue reading

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I drink my coffee in my silent room

I drink my coffee in my silent room, contemplating whether there’s any way I could make my life look good enough to me? But must it be that good? This silence is quite relaxing. My coffee taste good. My cute … Continue reading

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Forever you and me

  Forever you and me, he said. And it will be a shortening for forever goodbye, you and me. Alltid du och jag, sa han. Det blir en förkortning för för alltid farväl du och jag    

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Climbs the mountains (aging, part 1)

  Log for Tuesday September 12. I have a time  been thinking about write some blog posts about age and aging  – and maybe also about age discrimination. The latter, age discrimination, and myself now being an elderly person is … Continue reading

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In the essence of the night

There’s an old grief at the bottom of my soul that never heal and goes away. When the cold nights come and I have no one to hold on to, ghosts chase me and makes me feel worthless. My last … Continue reading

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Two dreamers in the night

      I said to my son last night “they killed King, they killed the Kennedy brothers, so why no one kill that disgusting Kim?” The best to say about that beast, he has reduced your daily life’s little … Continue reading

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It’s not about being “right” or “wrong”

It’s not about right or wrong here! My feelings are what they are and I react like I react. “Right” or “wrong”, OMG! Please! It is what is! I’m unhappy because I strongly feel you’ve not a clue how I … Continue reading

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Out of silence comes the music

  Out of silence comes the music, rises from its longing to itself. But there are silences between people that make love die of lack of nutrition. This, my being now, that what is related to you, can’t be described with … Continue reading

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Frankly, my dear!

The mysterious ways the drive of desire and affection takes have tied me to you. Though given my love, it will not give you the right to act arrogant and neglecting. But if you’ll mess it up you have violated … Continue reading

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I discovered yesterday myself being happy!

  I discovered yesterday myself being happy. Therefore I woke up today worried in mind as every experienced human having a heart knows romantic love is such a tricky thing – as the lover sending you to heaven today, you … Continue reading

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“You’ll be President”, Swedish rock music in the 1980s

“Imperiet” (in translation = the Empire) was a Swedish rockband during the years 1981 – 1988. The leader was sing and songwriter Joakim Thåström, born 1957. Thåström has after the time in rockband and earlier in punkband worked as a … Continue reading

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1967 or 2017 – it’s the same lonely story

              1967 or 2017 – it’s the same story now as in the past. I’m left on my own alone with my books and my poetry and love is still a fallacy. But I’m … Continue reading

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Walking along the wall

Walking along the wall Trying to see the light Don’t want to dig the devil’s ditch But living is hard Once a dreamer Now aged and scarred Yet every heart is a bird Who yearns to use its wings and … Continue reading

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A rainy day in late June (the rag rugs of life)

It rained heavily when I woke up this morning, But as I had my first coffee for the day, the sun broke through and the clouds were scattered and those left whitening to pretty angel faces. I’ve been thinking lately … Continue reading

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The story of the man at the pier

The first version of this poem was published August 2015. The story is   inspired by the picture, that I liked and want to create something around. I’m a man of fire and ashes. Every day is new, I know … Continue reading

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As if I tried to catch the wind

I held out my hands for love, but it seems to me all I caught was wind. My years have run away like sand through my fingers and I now face my last life years and I’m still alone. Oh, … Continue reading

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Once I looked for Mr. Goodman

Once I looked for Mr. Goodman. He was a good Christian man, but he never made it and I went on alone. And then the American people elected Donald Trump as Mr. Goodman, well “fuck you”: Mayor of London, Pakistani … Continue reading

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Love you as you are

I’ve gained 6 kilos and you’ve lost 2 kilo. I’m too fat and you are too skinny. I’m too old and you’re too young. I intends to improve your thinking, I said. It’s nothing wrong with that if you in … Continue reading

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And the lilacs bloom another year

        The first of June and summer at last. But my back aches after a bad night. Two painkillers and then the bus to the supermarket to buy cat food. To feed the cat is my merely … Continue reading

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The Road

              I guess everyone has their own tragedy to live with. It’s always trivial and personal and hardly visible to others. But it’s utterly sore if any by mistake touch it. (Must know it … Continue reading

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About relationships

          He always thought it was all about him and for a sensitive ego that’s surely hard. He meant she caused them the conflicts and he responded by refuse to talk to her and go to … Continue reading

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Move forward! / En Marche! / Shosholoza (Love a little more)

          No one hates as much as the one who has been rejected, but us all gets there at times. You better let it go! You can’t force someone to join you. Learn to live and … Continue reading

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An election victory for love and common sense?

“All for love”, or was it an election victory  to promote common sense? Well, but who except for a Frenchman could vote and live for both love and common sense? Whoever and whatever Macron will show to be as a … Continue reading

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I see your face (tribute to love, hidden and forbidden )

Re-posted poem from October 2015. To M A and a tribute to all other lovers, fighting for their love against prejudices and violence. Trust / Minns alltid detta (18 October, 2015) You must always remember this: evil has many faces and … Continue reading

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(A rose to my) cyber friends

          I go to bed late at night and before I fall asleep I recall the past day – and I ask myself “Is this all there is to my life?” I wake in mornings facing … Continue reading

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Togetherness

                  Each opinion having more than two adherents becomes a group, which soon enough creates a set of rules and rituals to promote the group’s survival and then a strictly worded creed … Continue reading

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It’s never darkest before dawn

It’s never at the darkest before dawn (in summertime and now in Sweden). And “now”, it’s me on my own again! Yet, I’m happy it has come as far as until April, though the meadows still are dreary dead in … Continue reading

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I want to take you higher

You know I miss you and there’s a need in me for you, no matter how you act and behave and I know well you miss me too and you’ll not be good without me. So where do we go … Continue reading

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If I were a lesbian?

I’m not in general attracted to women. But as a girl child I dreamed about look like Audrey Hepburn. (A very unrealistic dream!) As older I like the Joan Jett look. So I must fancy a certain female look? Yet … Continue reading

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Ms. Evil Eye on visit

A childhood ghost        I have my roots and past 350 km near, the ghosts around the corner. But my glee and future are as far as 3500 km away. What now – Ms. Evil Eye on visit … Continue reading

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Blue Anemones and about a Swedish racist party calling itself democratic

  Donald Trump has again pointed a finger “see what happened in Sweden”. But what Donald Trump believes has happened in Sweden or to Sweden has not yet occurred. It will never do! Not that the country lacks problems to … Continue reading

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A religious man

Did you have to break my heart? If love is what you feel for me, as you say? Your sister did not do “a mistake”, given you the right to put her on the street and withdraw her your love … Continue reading

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Fallen Angel

Lately it has been much of Tracy Chapman. I love her lyrics, but one line has caused me trouble: “I received an honest answer / When a lie would do”. I even felt a bit resentment of this line – … Continue reading

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