Tag Archives: coping life

Bitterness

I woke up today with bitterness in my heart. And I washed my hair and I had my coffee and I read the news on the web and I edited some writing. Now my hair has almost dried and I … Continue reading

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All that I have (yet another wonderful summer)

And yet another wonderful summer. Biking to a lake, reading a book and drink coffee from a thermos and eat cinnamon buns, sticky in the heat – and breadcrumbs and ants all over the blanket. (To bike slowly home in … Continue reading

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A humble man with a heart

It was a Monday in the beginning of April this year and I had an appointment with my dental hygienist the very same morning. It turned out to be a meeting including more than a cleaning of teeth, but resulting … Continue reading

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An actual description

“Keep smiling” is the worst advice and pressure people can ever put on themselves and others. It should belong to “the human rights” to be able to talk about melancholy moods without getting moralizing from someone, and not least from … Continue reading

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You are allowed to be happy

I tell myself:   “You are allowed to be happy now, even if you still mourn what you once never had. The sun rarely shone on you and darkness linger deep in your sad eyes and heart, yet you are … Continue reading

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February Sun

        The sun is shining, the birds are singing They think it’s spring, but we know better It’ll take time for our spring to come to us.

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Some call it juice others call it blues

That life is lemons is common knowledge and what you make out of it some people call juice, others call blues. Now – juice need sweetness to be drinkable, but the blues can’t be sweeter than it is in itself. … Continue reading

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Opportunities

Thoughts in January and the beginning of the new yea about “dead ends” and “Catch 22” – life situations that are unbearable and impossible to handle… Everyone has at some time in life faced it. In hopeless circumstances where all … Continue reading

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The old bard’s advice how to handle the pain of life

Gunnar Ekelöf 1907 – 1968 Swedish poet and translator.  He is one of the most significant, loved and well-known poets in the Swedish literature. From the poetry collection Dedikation 1934 Note: The poem here translated by me and just for … Continue reading

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Sweden today

At the Sweden’s most northerly point, called Three-Country Cairn, the sun will never raise from today, the first of December. This will be for about 2 weeks. Then the same phenomenon will appears at Sweden’s northernmost city Kiruna. It is … Continue reading

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To be frank about the nature of our love

            I woke up from my late afternoon nap. And then I missed him. Or to be frank – I missed to have the warm tenderness between two people being together and liking each other. … Continue reading

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It causes me pain in my fingers to spread butter on the bread

It causes me pain in my fingers to spread butter on the bread. I have luckily bought ready-sliced cheese home, but when I stretch out my arm for a slice of cheese it hurts in my back. The relapse this … Continue reading

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So much love…

After weeks of silence and not a beep from or about Putin, I was wondering if he has been  so busy with his last puppy he haven’t got the time to do or say any to be caught up in … Continue reading

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Disappointed

I woke up one morning the other day and saw like a sign for my inner sight, short simply written “I’m disappointed” Just that: no anger and no frustration, no nothing: not one emotion in motion for all the time … Continue reading

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For the sake of love

        When love is over and you have blown and then blown once more on cooled embers, for the sake of love, for the sake of love, for the sake of love, but see there’s no spark … Continue reading

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We travel on the same bus in different worlds

I had such dreams latest night! Just before I woke up I dreamt I was on a bus full with other people and I was in company with a person I’m not comfortable to be with. But I meet with  … Continue reading

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“The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it”

John 1:5 “The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it” After the last killings, Manhattan October 31, 2017, I felt such an overwhelming tiredness coming over me when I heard it on the news. It comes … Continue reading

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Why is it so easy to love and so hard to be loved?

            Why is it so difficult for a talented woman (like me) to be loved and respected despite her greatness? Women are expected subordinate the other’s stubborn ignorance and limitations, right? Having a penis is … Continue reading

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Lost direction

You were my direction. Now I’m lost and confused. I walk around every day like a dog that does not belong to any.  

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Ride the river in this boat

(Sometimes I’m all mixed up, tottered between longing love and resentment, Paradise in Hell.) Woke up this morning realizing I have opened a line, giving a tool through which he can continue to treat me with his old habitual manner … Continue reading

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To talk too much – or not talk at all?

                  We have in our world today a big mouthed leader who is an idiot… After having him as a pain in ass for the last year or more – his last … Continue reading

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I lost him a Thursday in October

I lost him a Thursday in October. It was a chilly but sunny day and I had just went to bed for a nap. It was at 17.39 to be precise and 3600 km away he looked up and met … Continue reading

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I drink my coffee in my silent room

I drink my coffee in my silent room, contemplating whether there’s any way I could make my life look good enough to me? But must it be that good? This silence is quite relaxing. My coffee taste good. My cute … Continue reading

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Forever you and me

  Forever you and me, he said. And it will be a shortening for forever goodbye, you and me. Alltid du och jag, sa han. Det blir en förkortning för för alltid farväl du och jag    

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Climbs the mountains (aging, part 1)

  Log for Tuesday September 12. I have a time  been thinking about write some blog posts about age and aging  – and maybe also about age discrimination. The latter, age discrimination, and myself now being an elderly person is … Continue reading

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In the essence of the night

There’s an old grief at the bottom of my soul that never heal and goes away. When the cold nights come and I have no one to hold on to, ghosts chase me and makes me feel worthless. My last … Continue reading

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Two dreamers in the night

      I said to my son last night “they killed King, they killed the Kennedy brothers, so why no one kill that disgusting Kim?” The best to say about that beast, he has reduced your daily life’s little … Continue reading

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It’s not about being “right” or “wrong”

It’s not about right or wrong here! My feelings are what they are and I react like I react. “Right” or “wrong”, OMG! Please! It is what is! I’m unhappy because I strongly feel you’ve not a clue how I … Continue reading

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Frankly, my dear!

The mysterious ways the drive of desire and affection takes have tied me to you. Though given my love, it will not give you the right to act arrogant and neglecting. But if you’ll mess it up you have violated … Continue reading

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I discovered yesterday myself being happy!

  I discovered yesterday myself being happy. Therefore I woke up today worried in mind as every experienced human having a heart knows romantic love is such a tricky thing – as the lover sending you to heaven today, you … Continue reading

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“You’ll be President”, Swedish rock music in the 1980s

“Imperiet” (in translation = the Empire) was a Swedish rockband during the years 1981 – 1988. The leader was sing and songwriter Joakim Thåström, born 1957. Thåström has after the time in rockband and earlier in punkband worked as a … Continue reading

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1967 or 2017 – it’s the same lonely story

          Year 1967 or 2017, 18 or 68 years old – it’s the same story now as in the past. I’m left on my own alone with my books and my poetry and love is still … Continue reading

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Walking along the wall

Walking along the wall trying to see the light don’t want to dig a devil’s ditch but living is hard, once a dreamer now aged and scarred yet every heart is a bird longing for to use its wings and … Continue reading

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Once I looked for Mr. Goodman

Once I looked for Mr. Goodman. He was a good Christian man, but he never made it and I went on alone. And then the American people elected Donald Trump as Mr. Goodman, well: “fuck you”: Mayor of London, Pakistani … Continue reading

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Love you as you are

I’ve gained 6 kilos and you’ve lost 2 kilo. I’m too fat and you are too skinny. I’m too old and you’re too young. I intends to improve your thinking, I said. It’s nothing wrong with that if you in … Continue reading

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The Road

              I guess everyone has their own tragedy to live with. It’s always trivial and personal and hardly visible to others. But it’s utterly sore if any by mistake touch it. (Must know it … Continue reading

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About relationships

          He always thought it was all about him and for a sensitive ego that’s surely hard. He meant she caused them the conflicts and he responded by refuse to talk to her and go to … Continue reading

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Move forward! / En Marche! / Shosholoza (Love a little more)

          No one hates as much as the one who has been rejected, but us all gets there at times. You better let it go! You can’t force someone to join you. Learn to live and … Continue reading

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An election victory for love and common sense?

“All for love”, or was it an election victory  to promote common sense? Well, but who except for a Frenchman could vote and live for both love and common sense? Whoever and whatever Macron will show to be as a … Continue reading

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I see your face (tribute to love, hidden and forbidden )

Re-posted poem from October 2015. To M A and a tribute to all other lovers, fighting for their love against prejudices and violence. Trust / Minns alltid detta (18 October, 2015) You must always remember this: evil has many faces and … Continue reading

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(A rose to my) cyber friends

          I go to bed late at night and before I fall asleep I recall the past day – and I ask myself “Is this all there is to my life?” I wake in mornings facing … Continue reading

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Togetherness

                  Each opinion having more than two adherents becomes a group, which soon enough creates a set of rules and rituals to promote the group’s survival and then a strictly worded creed … Continue reading

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It’s never darkest before dawn

It’s never at the darkest before dawn (in summertime and now in Sweden). And “now”, it’s me on my own again! Yet, I’m happy it has come as far as until April, though the meadows still are dreary dead in … Continue reading

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I want to take you higher

You know I miss you and there’s a need in me for you, no matter how you act and behave and I know well you miss me too and you’ll not be good without me. So where do we go … Continue reading

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If I were a lesbian?

I’m not in general attracted to women. But as a girl child I dreamed about look like Audrey Hepburn. (A very unrealistic dream!) As older I like the Joan Jett look. So I must fancy a certain female look? Yet … Continue reading

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Ms. Evil Eye on visit

        What now – Ms. Evil Eye on visit – I spit three times over my left shoulder: If she comes near me again I swear and promise I would rather kill myself than let her stay … Continue reading

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Blue Anemones and about a Swedish racist party calling itself democratic

  Donald Trump has again pointed a finger “see what happened in Sweden”. But what Donald Trump believes has happened in Sweden or to Sweden has not yet occurred. It will never do! Not that the country lacks problems to … Continue reading

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Walking alone

  People who wishes I should be happy or strive for to be it, annoys me over all limits. I simply can’t stand them or their demands on me to legitimate their banal worldviews. Personal happiness is such an overestimated … Continue reading

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The path to the ponds nearby my home and heart

Are you sure life is like a path and not like a duck swimming in the pond begging you for a bread? Are you certain living is about goals and successes and not to be like a duck swimming in … Continue reading

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Lost heart

I knew right, but I made it wrong. You knew wrong but made what was right, now you’re gone. You said “love” and you said “forever” but it was just words you spread around like lost leaves in a wind. … Continue reading

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