Category Archives: relationships

Such is our togetherness (Sådant är vårt tillsammans)

I sit in my living room reading a novel that annoys me because its boring banality, even if I realize that is precisely the subject for the novel. (Loneliness in a spoiled middle class family, have it all and lack … Continue reading

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A love story

                I know it is crazy you and I can be one and we. Yet every inch of my skin talks and tells about you exception for my feral and numb feet. The … Continue reading

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The miracle to be loved

        He’s the last one to be her first one, yet if so the other in the family rank In the complete desert in her aging and of losses sad, weakened heart, his lasting and devoted love … Continue reading

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Children of divorce, left behind

Children of divorce, left behind. When one or both parents find new love, they cut off the past: what’s old luggage comes last. And children can be neglected, needing loving care is rejected. I was talking on phone with my … Continue reading

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To stay authentic within the limits of life

        He had been her friend and guardian angel for long as he had held the gate to the tomb of loneliness locked and at the same he had kept a door ajar to what could have … Continue reading

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Composted forgettings

Before you say “forget about it”, maybe you should tell me what it is I should forget about? You carry a whole trash bin with all these “forget it” and I fear I will one day get all yours “forget … Continue reading

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Philosophizes about my (lack of a) love life

I plugged in the wrong end of a cord into my laptop and the electrical system collapsed instantly. Now I sit here without computer and energy, without passion and power and without contact with anyone and I wonder if you … Continue reading

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Solitaire matters

        Well, you say we have love but from what I see, you have your friends and I have yet another round of solitaire and my constant bad and hurting hip. But I don’t have you. You … Continue reading

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Single “forever”

If you wonder if I miss you the answer is simply “yes”. All other answers are “no”. If you can forget me: good! If you can’t: just live with it. And the same goes for me!   You said your … Continue reading

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Porn is not an issue, it’s just a “no”!

You have met a nice guy, finally. And he’s such an angel to you, nice and charming and respectful. Right? I did too. He’s a believer he told me early on, and preach and pray every day and he teach … Continue reading

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Fleeing Dragonfly in May

                  I’m standing now afterwards in front of my mirror and admires my latest jewelry. It’s a necklace in form of a dragonfly. This ancient insect has existed 300 million years back … Continue reading

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My lover is a fisherman

My lover is a fisherman and once he got me on the hook with his glistening lure and now he doesn’t want to let me go free. And even if his trawler is gone far, the net tied behind is … Continue reading

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That old song

                You have loved that old song “Missing you” too long and too much and then you got so much of it you just had to get it out of your system as … Continue reading

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You are allowed to be happy

I tell myself:   “You are allowed to be happy now, even if you still mourn what you once never had. The sun rarely shone on you and darkness linger deep in your sad eyes and heart, yet you are … Continue reading

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The persistent presence of your absence

The persistent presence of your absence: you are never in my room, but always in my heart! We are living with longing, you and I, not with each other such we desire! Dazzling days, the dark and lonely nights. Sometimes … Continue reading

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I am a private person

I am a private person who is living with words and only with words. It’s so easy to make me feel uncomfortable. But my words are all public and accessible to everyone, yet my words are not touchable (unfortunately, not … Continue reading

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February Sun

        The sun is shining, the birds are singing They think it’s spring, but we know better It’ll take time for our spring to come to us.

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Vinegar and lemon juice (distracted day)

      We have a quarrel now again and he doesn’t talk and as ever before I’m worried not knowing if it’ll last. On the radio the old time pop star Millie Small sings shrilly “What am I living … Continue reading

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Mother and son united

              We came to talk about times that have been, my son and I, last time he was at home and I’ve since then thought and thought about it. Thought what he told me … Continue reading

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To miss you has become my daily bread

To miss you has become my daily bread. My every day thirst is to hear your voice; to talk to you. I think of you constantly. You’re a hurricane and the peace in my soul. One day you will rest … Continue reading

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December morning

It’s a winter morning, December 13, 2017. The celebration of Lucia Day. Our Queen of Light and Hope come to visit the North one of the darkest days of the year. It is a kind of magic ritual. But we … Continue reading

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Sweden today

At the Sweden’s most northerly point, called Three-Country Cairn, the sun will never raise from today, the first of December. This will be for about 2 weeks. Then the same phenomenon will appears at Sweden’s northernmost city Kiruna. It is … Continue reading

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To be frank about the nature of our love

            I woke up from my late afternoon nap. And then I missed him. Or to be frank – I missed to have the warm tenderness between two people being together and liking each other. … Continue reading

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Disappointed

I woke up one morning the other day and saw like a sign for my inner sight, short simply written “I’m disappointed” Just that: no anger and no frustration, no nothing: not one emotion in motion for all the time … Continue reading

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Broccoli

Oh, I’m so bored having no one to talk to But when you’re surprisingly calling me all you say is just annoying me If you only have broccoli in your head and not a brain, talk to another vegetable  

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We have a love thing going

In retro perspective dreams are just memories of time we wasted on what might be nothing. Dreams belongs to and are seated in our futures, but for what purposes? Only to keep us struggling on in the now? Or is … Continue reading

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November haiku

In dim November I rest in your breathing My nest in dark nights Dunkla november vilar jag i din andning Mitt bo i natten

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Things are not what they should be

In Swedish below It is the seventh of November and the sun shines like a madman through my south windows. It has been for a week now, November and this sunny madness. November should be nothing but a gray and … Continue reading

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Fear

Even though I fell away you were there when I returned, silent as ever before. But the following night an anxiety dream aroused me and I could not sleep more. You in my head and I felt scared for you. … Continue reading

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Online friends, good and bad ones

I have been a member on a pen pal site to and fro since 2011. I have met a few friends for life there, as Anne from England – a very nice lady now 76 years old. We been friends … Continue reading

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Bugs (essentials)

The overwhelming amount of testimony (#metoo) that has become to a landslide that so many women and girls throughout the world have suffered all kind of insults from scornful sexist comments (called jokes!), to grabbing and other kind of daily … Continue reading

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Why is it so easy to love and so hard to be loved?

            Why is it so difficult for a talented woman (like me) to be loved and respected despite her greatness? Women are expected subordinate the other’s stubborn ignorance and limitations, right? Having a penis is … Continue reading

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I will never love more but you

          I got a call yesterday from an “ex” bf. I remember him as a nice man. He has still a very nice voice. Alluring. But he’s not to trust. Still it was sad to say … Continue reading

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There’s nothing between Stockholm and Agadir

      When it’s plus 6 in Stockholm there’s plus 30 in Agadir. I needed knitted gloves today when I biked to the grocery store. And I was thinking of you meantime biking. How are you doing? The cold … Continue reading

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Lost direction

You were my direction. Now I’m lost and confused. I walk around every day like a dog that does not belong to any.  

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Said within parentheses

            If there were a road back to me, would you choose that road then, would you? Do you miss me like I miss you, do you? (Poor me, loving you so stupidly much.) I … Continue reading

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It never happened

        The very power of how you never happened to me will never go away but stay. You never touched my body, but you shook my soul. You aroused in me such a fire and now you’re … Continue reading

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I lost him a Thursday in October

I lost him a Thursday in October. It was a chilly but sunny day and I had just went to bed for a nap. It was at 17.39 to be precise and 3600 km away he looked up and met … Continue reading

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And whenever I think of you

And whenever I think of you I get the instant urge to hold you close and touch you so tenderly but all we did was arguing driving us apart but when I think of you and it’s about hundred times … Continue reading

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We live here apart

We live here apart and caught in the prejudices of our societies and minds like flies in a spider web. But I know that in another planetary system in a parallel reality we live happily and sleep together every night, … Continue reading

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To live the love was not easy

I could consider to marry you (if you still want it, of course) if you never more slaughter animals never more say “I hate Jews” never more say “homosexuality is disgusting” never more abuse me with silences for weeks never … Continue reading

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October and I miss you

September leaving and October coming and autumn glow. Rain and clouds holds back and the nature is bright. But we travels on different roads now. Yet I wonder how you’re doing and what you think about. Do you still think … Continue reading

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And the good men take their spaces…

This morning, me and my coffee and eyes on web newspapers: and “the good boys” take the spaces, seemingly unaware of what they do – and “the girls” let them!   (But better believe me: every woman born knows!) Yeah, that … Continue reading

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Love cannot cure stupidity

        I’ve finally canceled his awful silences out of my life. When my hesitation was gone and it was done I felt a great relief! If he could ask me if I still miss him, my answer … Continue reading

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I drink my coffee in my silent room

I drink my coffee in my silent room, contemplating whether there’s any way I could make my life look good enough to me? But must it be that good? This silence is quite relaxing. My coffee taste good. My cute … Continue reading

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I dream of walks in sunsets on a pristine beach

  A young man close to me imagine us come together sitting on a beach talking. In the sunset or sunrise I assume. But I cannot imagine it as a reality to become. Because we live far and we both … Continue reading

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He’s a daydreamer, he’s a dream of love

              Her lover is a keen daydreamer and he’s dreaming about their daily life, like they hope it will be one day and in his secret life he imagine how they make dinner together, … Continue reading

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Oh man, you make my heart to a dried fruit

When you were gone, life was empty and I felt like half of myself. Now back, you’re holding yourself back and with your indolence you make my heart to a dried fruit and silenced I ask myself “what was it … Continue reading

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Cloudy

  I said  “you could at least try to communicate”. He said “how is the weather over there”. “It’s rainy but not cold”, I said. “It rains a lot here”, he said. “Not a lot here”, I said. “It’s cloudy”, … Continue reading

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Wading through the ashes of a dead love

          Summer slides away and it darkens to autumn. We’re still walking side by side, but not talking as all that could be said has already been said. We wades strained through drifts of ashes and … Continue reading

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