Tag Archives: missing

Long distance heating

This apartment I have, it’s too hot all through the summer. In the fall when the first cold hits outdoors, the temperature drops to normal indoors. Yet it never pleases me, but make me feel uneasy and frozen in the … Continue reading

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Lost direction

You were my direction. Now I’m lost and confused. I walk around every day like a dog that does not belong to any.  

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This angry woman you know so well

          I tell myself you’re just a silly man nothing to bother my thoughts with. I should forget about you and that’s exactly what I never want to do! If you’ll never be with me in … Continue reading

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Ride the river in this boat

(Sometimes I’m all mixed up, tottered between longing love and resentment, Paradise in Hell.) Woke up this morning realizing I have opened a line, giving a tool through which he can continue to treat me with his old habitual manner … Continue reading

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I never told you goodbye

  To cut you off was easy and actually an act of self-defense, I don’t expect you to understand. But now I discover I’ve cut off a part of myself. And sometimes during my days it hurts in my absent … Continue reading

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Said within parentheses

            If there were a road back to me, would you choose that road then, would you? Do you miss me like I miss you, do you? (Poor me, loving you so stupidly much.) I … Continue reading

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I lost him a Thursday in October

I lost him a Thursday in October. It was a chilly but sunny day and I had just went to bed for a nap. It was at 17.39 to be precise and 3600 km away he looked up and met … Continue reading

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October and I miss you

September leaving and October coming and autumn glow. Rain and clouds holds back and the nature is bright. But we travels on different roads now. Yet I wonder how you’re doing and what you think about. Do you still think … Continue reading

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Not the good one

    I felt struck by you and I honestly thought I had in you found the man for me, to miss you was pain, but the hard thing has been to accept you are not identical with the nice … Continue reading

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Oh man, you make my heart to a dried fruit

When you were gone, life was empty and I felt like half of myself. Now back, you’re holding yourself back and with your indolence you make my heart to a dried fruit and silenced I ask myself “what was it … Continue reading

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Making an apple pie with a secret jewel in mind

  After a wakeful night, the dawn longed and feared and I slept all morning, this the first and bright September day. One of the coming days, I’ll peel an apple and cut it to cubes and powder it with … Continue reading

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The Rowan Berries (a sour-sweet love story)

In the month of August, when the berries on rowan trees ripen bright reddish, love tends to run off my life, likewise this year. The days are still sunny and warm, but it darkens earlier in the evening and nights … Continue reading

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Out of silence comes the music

  Out of silence comes the music, rises from its longing to itself. But there are silences between people that make love die of lack of nutrition. This, my being now, that what is related to you, can’t be described with … Continue reading

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Bottle post (så som jag saknar dig)

        The way I miss you Fills me to the brim Empty me to nothing I’m lost, no belonging I wanted to sing about you and only you But without you I have no voice I want … Continue reading

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I’m jealous of your day

I’m jealous of the day that has you without me 3600 kilometers far away. But I don’t care what you set eyes on as I know you have me on your mind almost all of your time. Fate has tied … Continue reading

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Callow mind

Know that I can feel your pain now. Know that I cannot do any for you. Know that you have a callow mind. Your words were too often ignorant and lacked empathy and insight in others emotional lives. I don’t … Continue reading

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In the silence bubble

I woke up late today at lunchtime and now it’ll soon be evening and I sit here moved by a French song I’ve translated to Swedish. It was released 37 years ago and I don’t understand French except for “je’taime”. … Continue reading

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A field of tulips would have bloomed

          en ensam flöjt skulle ha spelat din ton ett fält av tulpaner borde ha blommat en varm vind vänligt dansat, ett leende kunde nu ha skimrat på mina läppar av det du är, men all … Continue reading

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It’s never darkest before dawn

It’s never at the darkest before dawn (in summertime and now in Sweden). And “now”, it’s me on my own again! Yet, I’m happy it has come as far as until April, though the meadows still are dreary dead in … Continue reading

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Who needs a man when you have a cat?

Han har dragit sig tillbaka och byggt en Trumpsk mur av tystnad och han låter mig betala för den. Två dagar av total tystnad och allt av ljud som har hörts här hemma är kattens spinnande. Hon sover i min … Continue reading

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A book is written

A book is written. We’re at the end of a story we wanted to begin. I guess I’ll cry tomorrow, off and on. I guess he’ll also do. All while life goes on around us as before. The book is … Continue reading

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Too easy

it was too easy for you then to let me go because I made you angry and hurt but yet you couldn’t free yourself from have me on your mind all time and all the love you held back got … Continue reading

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Live longing

          To love and live longing for someone is like living with a slight but persistent toothache. With time you gets used to these dull pains in you and it lowers to a mumbling bumbling bumblebee … Continue reading

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I used to dream about you

          I used to dream about you, your kindness and your love. What will I dream about now? Light returns nights get shorter. My days are endless empty – what do I do when I can’t … Continue reading

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You’re gone (?)

        I can write epistles for hours and days about how much I miss you. And I do. (I work hard to find the right words for this specific condition: to miss someone – that you kind … Continue reading

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April and silence

          That stranger’s face in my bathroom mirror? It looks oddly familiar? Oh yes – oh no…! It’s me! Those furrows from nose to mouth, deep as ditches – where did they come from? And for … Continue reading

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Ball and chain

          Do I believe he ever loved me? Well, I believe he thought he did! I think he still does, because you can’t turn off love like you turn off a water tap. But I think … Continue reading

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The tears you never see

like you have showed up to vanish again all the time we known each other, gathered resentment for the pains I felt and still feel that I missed you, now my anger scares you, still you never sees the sadness … Continue reading

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Naughty nipples

even if my brain gets occupied with other matters during the day my nipples goes on and on and on chatting and chatting about you    

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Tears to my eyes

And late at night, we finally have to say good night. And sometimes when he log out, sadness comes over me and forces tears to my eyes. This is a love that’ll never dance in the daylight, but must die … Continue reading

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Cold December

            Cold snowy December. My days flows together like in a fog. I can’t differ one day from the other the times muscles and joints hurts. Every step is a pain. I listen to music … Continue reading

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Haiku poems in November

  She talks to him in her mind: “I miss you now – surely! But it’s good you ended it before we even began. I know your kind and it’s my big luck you spared me from you!”   November … Continue reading

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Winter has only begun

          I deleted his photos from my laptop. But it has only made me remember his face on them clearer and sharper than before. Yet my memory of him has become blurry. And what was so … Continue reading

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I can’t quit you, buddy!

A tribute to a friend and to blues music. I love Buddy Guy and blues music.       Oh buddy, what will I do the time you’re gone! Sure, we’re “just friends” with no obligations, acquaintances for some time … Continue reading

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given no answer to no answer

      given no answer to no answer, dropping me like a dead fish, how could he hurt me like this, dropping him like a dead fish, I’m sick and tired of old roads, new faces, new talks and … Continue reading

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Whiter than possibly can be

              I ”You better decide what you want”, he wrote me. But I had already and told him and I have nothing to add. I know well what I want, but what I want … Continue reading

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Watching September leaving (haiku poems)

(to Bill) September leaving All my love rains down the drains My eyes dry and calm       Late summer romance and he was my perfect match too good to be true       I loved him, simply … Continue reading

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I miss the love that was not

I like to spend some of my time watching music videos on Youtube. Some songs I listen to over and over. John Waite “Missing you” is one of them. I’m choosey when it comes to illustrations and pics. But last … Continue reading

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Where are you now?

A wind that kindly stroked my cheek, where are you now? Words from you so lovingly said, where are you now? A love that came late, hastily on, but where are you now? Gave life me you, only to lose … Continue reading

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Fatigue (Tröttheten)

            When fatigue is a blanket over face When hours of work suddenly is lost When you think “why am I doing this” When there’s not a single song in world that capture what you … Continue reading

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September and I miss you now

September morning smiled youthfully and promising, so sunny blue chilly, ignoring time and I missed you then. September afternoon cloudy dim, summer hasty gone. Walking I fell hard on my own feet, I missed you then. September day vanished, autumn … Continue reading

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I skuggan av en, saknad / In the shadow of one, missing

          Ett fönster står öppet mot natten, en tom säng ännu varm av barnets kropp – inga spår. De reste till solen, mor och far, två döttrar och en son. En glad dag på stranden och … Continue reading

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You became a dream, my song never sung

I saw your picture in a paper last week, since then images from times gone flickers through my mind and I wonder where you went and what went on with you, and I could never forget your sunny blue eyes … Continue reading

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The private life of Jesse Stone, in the night

I want to hear the first silence when you answer my phone call and understands it’s me – again. I want to hear you say my name and the emptiness coming next when the click tells me you have end … Continue reading

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It is Friday May 13

I wake up on Friday, May 13 and my eyes are inflamed and I can not see you here with me, but my gums have an abscess that hurts a lot and I have a crack in the corner of … Continue reading

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“How are you today?”

You text me all the time “how are you today?” and I say “fine, I’m just fine”, but fine, I’m not No matter rain or sun, summer or winter I say “fine, I’m just fine” but fine, I’m not And … Continue reading

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You call it love

I don’t know why I miss you when I miss you, as we have never met. It’s the same for you – I am an absence in you. But you have no doubts, you call your longing for me – … Continue reading

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It’s a friend’s birthday today

“Messenger” informed me it’s your birthday today. It’s five months since we last talked, but I texted you three months ago to remind you of your absence – and on my phone you are listed under letter “A” just before … Continue reading

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We got a link to love (August Moon)

Summer is for love in Scandinavia, though it has never happened to me, now summer soon will leave and I see the rowans on my yard reddens again and I’m still alone as ever before. I love August moon, so … Continue reading

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He want me to miss him

          He want me to miss him, he’s such a brat. A real man would want to see me happy. Sure, I’m better off without him. Even so, if he miss me too and if this … Continue reading

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