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Farewell Agadir!

Farewell Agadir, we never met in your narrow alleys or on your beaches. Your white sins and dirty morals! Closed eye, blinded in contempt for your betrayals, lament and false tears. Farewell Agadir, black light, we never met in true … Continue reading

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Aging female body (part I and II)

He made me hate my aging body, as mercilessly mirrored when I dress in the hall looking at these undeniably saggy boobs and right before, in the bathroom caring for what’s secretly hidden “down there” my flaccid pussy prickly dry … Continue reading

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The end of a high flying romance (quarantine)

I have nothing to say to you that could be of any comfort to you. For once, the saying “you reap what you sow” fits good when about you! I don’t feel anything yet, no anger or bitterness or sadness. … Continue reading

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I have decided to be happy!

I turn 71 in April and I may reach 75 – or 74, but that would be too sad short to imagine. I hope to be at least 85 and still be movable. Let’s say I’ll have 15 years left, … Continue reading

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Three weeks today

Three weeks today, right! And it’s hard, hard, hard! It’s right hard, right now! A love like a picture book we awhile leafed through?      

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Elderly balance (single-leg stance)

When 18 people read my texts I exist. Otherwise it is not much with that, unless I not wake up in the night with cramps in one lower leg, then I surely know I’m alive. I hear on the TV … Continue reading

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The day after the storm

It’s the morning after the storm, I make my tea and give the cat tuna. I start my laptop and leave for the web, having tea and cheese sandwiches. I note with relief I don’t miss him as I feared … Continue reading

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Left over, me!

  I don’t know what was true and not true with him. He always said he was not a liar and I should trust in him and I believe he honestly believed in that. More I will never know. That’s … Continue reading

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Lost love, gloom forever to be

        I never got to know you in this all real world, where one breathe, eat, shit and pay the rent. But still, it was meant to be, you and me. Yet your demanding impatience (as I … Continue reading

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Love torn apart

          I wanted your love to be my shelter, a comfort zone, a mine for golden joy to give strength as I’m struggling every month to keep my head above the water having hard times. You … Continue reading

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A lonely blues around the corner

The whole fucking me is like an emergency Hole in the heart, the claw of abandonment Easily forgotten, lone blues around a corner He told I’ll love you forever true forever was short like a little star afar that twinkle … Continue reading

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A love thriving in our longing

  I still think of you the first thing I wake up in the morning and I miss you on my lonely evenings: someone to talk to. And sleeping and dreaming I get lost in scary nightmares. But as soon … Continue reading

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Ice cream dreams (the end of the road)

  It was down minus 25C in Nikkaluokta last night, that would be alike minus 77 Fahrenheit in USA. There I am it’s only +3C and to me that’s far too freezing cold. I have never been in Nikkaluokta, even … Continue reading

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Since she left me lastly (part 2)

          Since she left me lastly I rambling around, lost. My eyes are so dry and burns as the winds have blew away all my tears. I’ve a lump in my throat and my heart is … Continue reading

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Forever never more, not last long for me when about you

“Forever never more, not last long for me when about you.” I wrote that to him and I stand for it! He wrote back to me “I’m sorry I don’t understand what you write now.” Ouch! All the blind alleys … Continue reading

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The weed in my garden of love (thistle love)

I met a guy and I loved him but he never knew my love because he only knew the love he claimed he had for me. It was all about his feelings and never about mine. He never knew how … Continue reading

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Försvinnande kvinna / Vanishing woman

Vanishing woman Part 1 That late night was now approaching, then when I intended to vanish from you without a trace and wipe you out of my life forever. But late came late all my feet colder. The next morning … Continue reading

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I was never tougher than the rest

Well, it’s Saturday noon and you’re gone into the blue. I kept an eye on you a while, maybe you did it on me too. It’s true I ran off first because you caused us so much stress. Once you … Continue reading

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I never knew him

  I never knew him in the flesh I withdrew for safety reasons He expected too much of me He made me his guiding light Now he rests behind my eyes I have to live with this a while Shame … Continue reading

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I remember you

I remember you, lovely bearded man, who loved me more than your life (that’s what you told me). But then you dumped me like trash, just like that! It was when you were cornered not to be serious about us … Continue reading

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Tired!

  I heard a tune on Youtube and wasted my morning with reading some Swedish song lyrics, the younger generation. It is that tiny but constant hope to find something that is genuine and heartfelt. But no? I said to … Continue reading

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An angry man

              An angry man stands at the corner waiting for me; his arms crossed over his chest. “I’m ashamed of you” was the last he said to me. But his English is not good … Continue reading

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I will see coltsfoot flower this year too

          I have been sitting at my desk today for hours waiting for the blessed words to come to me. But my words seems to have ran out through my door with him who said he … Continue reading

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When the passion is gone

              When the passion is over you thank your lucky stars for being able to cross the wasted land for fresh water without get a headshot from your ex beloved. There is a road … Continue reading

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Away from standstill (her ticket to a better life)!

            He dumped her today! The birds sings out: She’s happy! The wheels moves again!    

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The road to let go

  3600 miles as the crow flies from your heart and body, 4500 miles on roads where my feet have never walked. Years have passed and how far have we come, tell me! And how long do I have to … Continue reading

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Simple

          We’re simple people you and I and our feelings for each other are also simple. But the world isn’t simple. I wanted to release you to free myself, but you didn’t want to. So we … Continue reading

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“I’m fine, thanks!”

I looked after you and found you in my heart, that which I lost given it to you. You hold yourself back with these “I’m fine”. With time, it’s like serving a chicken to a lion. We are like prisoners … Continue reading

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Is love’s ending, love in vain?

                    Is love’s ending, love in vain? I woke up and felt like a bus had run over me, it was you! Walking a street, no map and not sure where … Continue reading

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This is the end of our story

          And this is the end of our story: so much hope and so little glory. This is the end of a sweet romance, which never got a single chance. Know, in my mind I always … Continue reading

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Moving into gloomy November

  Two weeks not a word from you is a very long time, two weeks at a new place is too short to feel home. I’m tired and worn out after all hassle with the move and I wonders about … Continue reading

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Moving, still steady

I’ve lived in this house for ten years but for the last years I’ve mostly been online, it all while I tried to shake off my feelings of wearing a cooling suit of loneliness and desolation. Solitude has for long … Continue reading

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Forsaken lover

Har du övergett mig? Aldrig mer din mjuka röst? Vintern kom tidigt! Have you forsaken me? Never more your soft voice? Winter came early!         Two great Swedish music artists: Totta Näslund sings the lyrics written by … Continue reading

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Children of divorce, left behind

Children of divorce, left behind. When one or both parents find new love, they cut off the past: what’s old luggage comes last. And children can be neglected, needing loving care is rejected. I was talking on phone with my … Continue reading

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Moving (and got a life crisis)

  The silent walls given me, they have become too toxic for me. Though I have loved to live in this area with all the lovely nature close by. But I will leave behind what is in changes to become … Continue reading

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To stay authentic within the limits of life

        He had been her friend and guardian angel for long as he had held the gate to the tomb of loneliness locked and at the same he had kept a door ajar to what could have … Continue reading

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Perspective (world closer my door I almost got my toes toasted)

I usually start my day with coffee while I check the news from the world on the web. And ”the world” is somewhere on the other side of Oresund Bridge. But now ”the world” has come close to my own … Continue reading

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I’m sorry

Was I stupid, or was it you who misled me on purpose? No matters! We have all our desires. And I don’t want to blame any of us, but to say “I’m sorry it became as it became”. As these … Continue reading

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I miss smoking cigarettes

I miss you! But, oh well! I miss smoking cigarettes too! I’ve been told I have done well ending with bad men as well as with cigarettes. Oh well! I haven’t smoked in 18 years. I wonder if I still … Continue reading

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Single “forever”

If you wonder if I miss you the answer is simply “yes”. All other answers are “no”. If you can forget me: good! If you can’t: just live with it. And the same goes for me!   You said your … Continue reading

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Porn is not an issue, it’s just a “no”!

You have met a nice guy, finally. And he’s such an angel to you, nice and charming and respectful. Right? I did too. He’s a believer he told me early on, and preach and pray every day and he teach … Continue reading

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Fleeing Dragonfly in May

                  I’m standing now afterwards in front of my mirror and admires my latest jewelry. It’s a necklace in form of a dragonfly. This ancient insect has existed 300 million years back … Continue reading

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Disappointed

I woke up one morning the other day and saw like a sign for my inner sight, short simply written “I’m disappointed” Just that: no anger and no frustration, no nothing: not one emotion in motion for all the time … Continue reading

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I never told you goodbye

  To cut you off was easy and actually an act of self-defense, I don’t expect you to understand. But now I discover I’ve cut off a part of myself. And sometimes during my days it hurts in my absent … Continue reading

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We live here apart

We live here apart and caught in the prejudices of our societies and minds like flies in a spider web. But I know that in another planetary system in a parallel reality we live happily and sleep together every night, … Continue reading

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October and I miss you

September leaving and October coming and autumn glow. Rain and clouds holds back and the nature is bright. But we travels on different roads now. Yet I wonder how you’re doing and what you think about. Do you still think … Continue reading

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Love cannot cure stupidity

        I’ve finally canceled his awful silences out of my life. When my hesitation was gone and it was done I felt a great relief! If he could ask me if I still miss him, my answer … Continue reading

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I drink my coffee in my silent room

I drink my coffee in my silent room, contemplating whether there’s any way I could make my life look good enough to me? But must it be that good? This silence is quite relaxing. My coffee taste good. My cute … Continue reading

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Forever you and me

  Forever you and me, he said. And it will be a shortening for forever goodbye, you and me. Alltid du och jag, sa han. Det blir en förkortning för för alltid farväl du och jag    

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Making an apple pie with a secret jewel in mind

  After a wakeful night, the dawn longed and feared and I slept all morning, this the first and bright September day. One of the coming days, I’ll peel an apple and cut it to cubes and powder it with … Continue reading

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