Tag Archives: breaking up

If I could talk to you

  And if I could talk to you, I would tell you I’m not happy for this either. But you and I and talking was never good and it always went from bad to worse. And I had to end … Continue reading

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Tired!

  I heard a tune on Youtube and wasted my morning with reading some Swedish song lyrics, the younger generation. It is that tiny but constant hope to find something that is genuine and heartfelt. But no? I said to … Continue reading

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An angry man

              An angry man stands at the corner waiting for me; his arms crossed over his chest. “I’m ashamed of you” was the last he said to me. But his English is not good … Continue reading

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I will see coltsfoot flower this year too

          I have been sitting at my desk today for hours waiting for the blessed words to come to me. But my words seems to have ran out through my door with him who said he … Continue reading

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When the passion is gone

              When the passion is over you thank your lucky stars for being able to cross the wasted land for fresh water without get a headshot from your ex beloved. There is a road … Continue reading

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Away from standstill (her ticket to a better life)!

            He dumped her today! The birds sings out: She’s happy! The wheels moves again!    

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The road to let go

  3600 miles as the crow flies from your heart and body, 4500 miles on roads where my feet have never walked. Years have passed and how far have we come, tell me! And how long do I have to … Continue reading

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Simple

          We’re simple people you and I and our feelings for each other are also simple. But the world isn’t simple. I wanted to release you to free myself, but you didn’t want to. So we … Continue reading

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“I’m fine, thanks!”

I looked after you and found you in my heart, that which I lost given it to you. You hold yourself back with these “I’m fine”. With time, it’s like serving a chicken to a lion. We are like prisoners … Continue reading

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Is love’s ending, love in vain?

                    Is love’s ending, love in vain? I woke up and felt like a bus had run over me, it was you! Walking a street, no map and not sure where … Continue reading

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This is the end of our story

          And this is the end of our story: so much hope and so little glory. This is the end of a sweet romance, which never got a single chance. Know, in my mind I always … Continue reading

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Moving into gloomy November

  Two weeks not a word from you is a very long time, two weeks at a new place is too short to feel home. I’m tired and worn out after all hassle with the move and I wonders about … Continue reading

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Moving, still steady

I’ve lived in this house for ten years but for the last years I’ve mostly been online, it all while I tried to shake off my feelings of wearing a cooling suit of loneliness and desolation. Solitude has for long … Continue reading

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Forsaken lover

Har du övergett mig? Aldrig mer din mjuka röst? Vintern kom tidigt! Have you forsaken me? Never more your soft voice? Winter came early!         Two great Swedish music artists: Totta Näslund sings the lyrics written by … Continue reading

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Children of divorce, left behind

Children of divorce, left behind. When one or both parents find new love, they cut off the past: what’s old luggage comes last. And children can be neglected, needing loving care is rejected. I was talking on phone with my … Continue reading

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Moving (and got a life crisis)

  The silent walls given me, they have become too toxic for me. Though I have loved to live in this area with all the lovely nature close by. But I will leave behind what is in changes to become … Continue reading

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To stay authentic within the limits of life

        He had been her friend and guardian angel for long as he had held the gate to the tomb of loneliness locked and at the same he had kept a door ajar to what could have … Continue reading

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Perspective (world closer my door I almost got my toes toasted)

I usually start my day with coffee while I check the news from the world on the web. And ”the world” is somewhere on the other side of Oresund Bridge. But now ”the world” has come close to my own … Continue reading

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I’m sorry

Was I stupid, or was it you who misled me on purpose? No matters! We have all our desires. And I don’t want to blame any of us, but to say “I’m sorry it became as it became”. As these … Continue reading

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I miss smoking cigarettes

I miss you! But, oh well! I miss smoking cigarettes too! I’ve been told I have done well ending with bad men as well as with cigarettes. Oh well! I haven’t smoked in 18 years. I wonder if I still … Continue reading

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Single “forever”

If you wonder if I miss you the answer is simply “yes”. All other answers are “no”. If you can forget me: good! If you can’t: just live with it. And the same goes for me!   You said your … Continue reading

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Porn is not an issue, it’s just a “no”!

You have met a nice guy, finally. And he’s such an angel to you, nice and charming and respectful. Right? I did too. He’s a believer he told me early on, and preach and pray every day and he teach … Continue reading

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Fleeing Dragonfly in May

                  I’m standing now afterwards in front of my mirror and admires my latest jewelry. It’s a necklace in form of a dragonfly. This ancient insect has existed 300 million years back … Continue reading

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Disappointed

I woke up one morning the other day and saw like a sign for my inner sight, short simply written “I’m disappointed” Just that: no anger and no frustration, no nothing: not one emotion in motion for all the time … Continue reading

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I never told you goodbye

  To cut you off was easy and actually an act of self-defense, I don’t expect you to understand. But now I discover I’ve cut off a part of myself. And sometimes during my days it hurts in my absent … Continue reading

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We live here apart

We live here apart and caught in the prejudices of our societies and minds like flies in a spider web. But I know that in another planetary system in a parallel reality we live happily and sleep together every night, … Continue reading

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October and I miss you

September leaving and October coming and autumn glow. Rain and clouds holds back and the nature is bright. But we travels on different roads now. Yet I wonder how you’re doing and what you think about. Do you still think … Continue reading

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Love cannot cure stupidity

        I’ve finally canceled his awful silences out of my life. When my hesitation was gone and it was done I felt a great relief! If he could ask me if I still miss him, my answer … Continue reading

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I drink my coffee in my silent room

I drink my coffee in my silent room, contemplating whether there’s any way I could make my life look good enough to me? But must it be that good? This silence is quite relaxing. My coffee taste good. My cute … Continue reading

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Forever you and me

  Forever you and me, he said. And it will be a shortening for forever goodbye, you and me. Alltid du och jag, sa han. Det blir en förkortning för för alltid farväl du och jag    

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Making an apple pie with a secret jewel in mind

  After a wakeful night, the dawn longed and feared and I slept all morning, this the first and bright September day. One of the coming days, I’ll peel an apple and cut it to cubes and powder it with … Continue reading

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Wading through the ashes of a dead love

          Summer slides away and it darkens to autumn. We’re still walking side by side, but not talking as all that could be said has already been said. We wades strained through drifts of ashes and … Continue reading

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1967 or 2017 – it’s the same lonely story

          Year 1967 or 2017, 18 or 68 years old – it’s the same story now as in the past. I’m left on my own alone with my books and my poetry and love is still … Continue reading

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Moored in your dreams

This following poem is inspired by a poem by Karin Boye (1990 – 1941), a Swedish classical poet. Please observe, this is not a translation of one of her poem, only  inspired by one, so  this poem is all mine. I … Continue reading

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The end of a love story (I hope you will burn in hell!)

There is a nice poem by Robert Louis Stevenson (the man who also wrote the novel “Treasure Island”). The poem is called “Love What Is Love”: LOVE – what is love? A great and aching heart; Wrung hands; and silence; … Continue reading

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“Forever love”

Misstro den som förklarar ”för evigt”. Allt som är levande bär sin egen död. Kärlek är mest önskan och villfarelse. Jag lyssnade till hans ”jag älskar dig”, men valde att inte höra det följande löftet om ett ”för evigt. Och … Continue reading

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The empty folder (1 important)

        I could block you on my e-mail and on my phone (as if you’d call!). I could delete the folder with all your selfies to “Recycle bin” then when asked “Do you want to permanently delete … Continue reading

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A book is written

A book is written. We’re at the end of a story we wanted to begin. I guess I’ll cry tomorrow, off and on. I guess he’ll also do. All while life goes on around us as before. The book is … Continue reading

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Fading love

                  We crowned each other with our hopes and desires and we called it “love” and talked the language of love and seduced ourselves to believe this was true love. But now … Continue reading

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Too easy

it was too easy for you then to let me go because I made you angry and hurt but yet you couldn’t free yourself from have me on your mind all time and all the love you held back got … Continue reading

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Sunrises

there was once a time I was transported around like a bag – childhood times ending in left to loneliness new times, you flies over the world in a second, yet you never leave your room disclosing yourself to clouds … Continue reading

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No, I don’t wish you “the best”!

        No, I don’t wish you “the best” when I now let you go. I don’t wish you luck. If you can’t stay with me to love me as you should do, you can as well spend … Continue reading

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Lost heart

I knew right, but I made it wrong. You knew wrong but made what was right, now you’re gone. You said “love” and you said “forever” but it was just words you spread around like lost leaves in a wind. … Continue reading

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Ball and chain

            Do I believe he ever loved me? Well, I believe he thought he did! I think he still does, because you can’t turn off love like you turn off a water tap. But I … Continue reading

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On the road again

Too often I feel I’m on a road going nowhere, and that I’m always judged never good enough to be loved, tears flowing down my body richly as rain in the gutters on neat house walls cute decorated with plants. … Continue reading

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Now this January!

           Now January has hasty gone from plus seven Celsius to minus seven and heavy snow fall causes chaos; people told to stay home. I stand at my window feeling a bit stifled and reduced – … Continue reading

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Philophobia

          Oh, I remember well the ending of my last one – it was not so much him leaving that broke my heart as him lying about it, trying to handle me like a sack of … Continue reading

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November, and winter will come

November and I fear winter coming. I wish me cosiness, but so far it’s only a longing and a “write about”! To whom will I write, now when I have lost my most devoted friend? Friendship is such a matter! … Continue reading

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Now November 1st (are you sleeping?)

  November 1st, it’s night and it’s quiet, except for the sound of a cold steady rain against my windows. Almost all trees are bare out there. The climate is getting harder. It’s dark here there I am, dark there … Continue reading

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We walk into darkness wherever we go

Summer is all gone and autumn leaves with me and I’ll be missing someone when winter comes. It’s like I walk into darkness wherever I go and Love loses me in some foggy drifting snow. Once I dreamt of a … Continue reading

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