Category Archives: loss

Disappointed

I woke up one morning the other day and saw like a sign for my inner sight, short simply written “I’m disappointed” Just that: no anger and no frustration, no nothing: not one emotion in motion for all the time … Continue reading

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So if I don’t have a “real life”, what do I have? Am I dead?

Forgive me friend, but… 😩 … I’ve just read an entry here on wordpress making me pissed off, frankly. I got the same anger exactly one year ago. Because the blogger had the same entry published back then… He say … Continue reading

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Lone / Swan dreams in November

    no love snow and cold no love freezing hands and heart no love lone at night     It don’t come easy – November sun and swan dreams! Where did it all go?      

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A love story in summary

First you got me miss you Then you got me love you You indeed got me to sing Ending, you got me crying    

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We travel on the same bus in different worlds

I had such dreams latest night! Just before I woke up I dreamt I was on a bus full with other people and I was in company with a person whom I’m not comfortable to deal with. I know her … Continue reading

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Chocolate and roses

          If you give me chocolate I’ll give you a kiss, tasted If you give me roses, red I’ll give you my true heart unlimited, if you love me as before – oh, you don’t!   … Continue reading

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Online friends, good and bad ones

I have been a member on a pen pal site to and fro since 2011. I have met a few friends for life there, as Anne from England – a very nice lady now 76 years old. We been friends … Continue reading

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I will never love more but you

          I got a call yesterday from an “ex” bf. I remember him as a nice man. He has still a very nice voice. Alluring. But he’s not to trust. Still it was sad to say … Continue reading

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There’s nothing between Stockholm and Agadir

      When it’s plus 6 in Stockholm there’s plus 30 in Agadir. I needed knitted gloves today when I biked to the grocery store. And I was thinking of you meantime biking. How are you doing? The cold … Continue reading

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Long distance heating

This apartment I have, it’s too hot all through the summer. In the fall when the first cold hits outdoors, the temperature drops to normal indoors. Yet it never pleases me, but make me feel uneasy and frozen in the … Continue reading

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This angry woman you know so well

          I tell myself you’re just a silly man nothing to bother my thoughts with. I should forget about you and that’s exactly what I never want to do! If you’ll never be with me in … Continue reading

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Ride the river in this boat

(Sometimes I’m all mixed up, tottered between longing love and resentment, Paradise in Hell.) Woke up this morning realizing I have opened a line, giving a tool through which he can continue to treat me with his old habitual manner … Continue reading

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I never told you goodbye

  To cut you off was easy and actually an act of self-defense, I don’t expect you to understand. But now I discover I’ve cut off a part of myself. And sometimes during my days it hurts in my absent … Continue reading

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Said within parentheses

            If there were a road back to me, would you choose that road then, would you? Do you miss me like I miss you, do you? (Poor me, loving you so stupidly much.) I … Continue reading

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It never happened

        The very power of how you never happened to me will never go away but stay. You never touched my body, but you shook my soul. You aroused in me such a fire and now you’re … Continue reading

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I lost him a Thursday in October

I lost him a Thursday in October. It was a chilly but sunny day and I had just went to bed for a nap. It was at 17.39 to be precise and 3600 km away he looked up and met … Continue reading

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October and I miss you

September leaving and October coming and autumn glow. Rain and clouds holds back and the nature is bright. But we travels on different roads now. Yet I wonder how you’re doing and what you think about. Do you still think … Continue reading

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Do you remember me?

minns du mig? har du ocksĂ„ dagar dĂ„ du bara hatar mig och dagar dĂ„ blĂ„ lĂ€ngtan blommar ömt och kĂ€rleksfullt? Do you remember me, she writes. Do you have – like me – days when all is pain and … Continue reading

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Life is what happens in the background

life is what happens in the background a wagtail chirping outside your window and you don’t know it’s my lonely soul words are written on its wings, tales of lovers like you and me, forever apart from each other, but … Continue reading

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I miss you (det regnar)

I miss you It’s raining I miss you It’s raining I miss you It’s raining I miss you It’s raining I miss you It’s raining I’m not crying I’m very calm I did what was right I just have to … Continue reading

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In September it’s far to next summer

In September it’s very far to next summer. What’s written in the book that I then will be reading? And what will I think of when I look up on the blue summer sky a sunny day? Will I still … Continue reading

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A rainy day in Sweden

I can’t find high quality cat food nearby I live, so I must go for an hour’s bus tour to and fro to a shopping mall outside town. And so I did Wednesday September 20th. I hate it and this … Continue reading

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Not the good one

    I felt struck by you and I honestly thought I had in you found the man for me, to miss you was pain, but the hard thing has been to accept you are not identical with the nice … Continue reading

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