Category Archives: loss

August trail

              Kissed by the shadow of what could have been, him gone when August arrived in cooling nights with its Moon’s Mona Lisa smile. And it darkens a little bit more every day. All … Continue reading

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Now we got July

The summer heat holds you by the throat and presses you against its white endless walls. The days floats away unwritten and at night you are kept awake worried in your bed’s twisted, sweaty sheets. So my friend, now we … Continue reading

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I’m sorry

Was I stupid, or was it you who misled me on purpose? No matters! We have all our desires. And I don’t want to blame any of us, but to say “I’m sorry it became as it became”. As these … Continue reading

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Single “forever”

If you wonder if I miss you the answer is simply “yes”. All other answers are “no”. If you can forget me: good! If you can’t: just live with it. And the same goes for me!   You said your … Continue reading

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Porn is not an issue, it’s just a “no”!

You have met a nice guy, finally. And he’s such an angel to you, nice and charming and respectful. Right? I did too. He’s a believer he told me early on, and preach and pray every day and he teach … Continue reading

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Victims or martyrs or heroes?

Some thoughts from an outside person! Inspired by the latest school shooting in USA (Florida school shooting February 14, 2018) a Swedish newspaper has conducted a peer review among their (Swedish) readers with the question “Do you think it is … Continue reading

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Missing someone

But no common sense can deny the missing in me after you and all I can wish for now is that its bitter-sweetness stays with me all my days left, if you cannot. Ändå kan inget sunt förnuft förneka saknaden … Continue reading

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It causes me pain in my fingers to spread butter on the bread

It causes me pain in my fingers to spread butter on the bread. I have luckily bought ready-sliced cheese home, but when I stretch out my arm for a slice of cheese it hurts in my back. The relapse this … Continue reading

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Disappointed

I woke up one morning the other day and saw like a sign for my inner sight, short simply written “I’m disappointed” Just that: no anger and no frustration, no nothing: not one emotion in motion for all the time … Continue reading

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Lonely swan dreams in November (haiku)

It don’t come easy – November sun and swan dreams! Where did it all go?      

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A love story in summary

First you got me miss you Then you got me love you You indeed got me to sing Ending, you got me crying    

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We travel on the same bus in different worlds

I had such dreams latest night! Just before I woke up I dreamt I was on a bus full with other people and I was in company with a person I’m not comfortable to be with. But I meet with  … Continue reading

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Chocolate and roses

          If you give me chocolate I’ll give you a kiss, tasted If you give me roses, red I’ll give you my true heart unlimited, if you love me as before – oh, you don’t!   … Continue reading

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Online friends, good and bad ones

I have been a member on a pen pal site to and fro since 2011. I have met a few friends for life there, as Anne from England – a very nice lady now 76 years old. We been friends … Continue reading

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I will never love more but you

          I got a call yesterday from an “ex” bf. I remember him as a nice man. He has still a very nice voice. Alluring. But he’s not to trust. Still it was sad to say … Continue reading

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There’s nothing between Stockholm and Agadir

      When it’s plus 6 in Stockholm there’s plus 30 in Agadir. I needed knitted gloves today when I biked to the grocery store. And I was thinking of you meantime biking. How are you doing? The cold … Continue reading

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Long distance heating

This apartment I have, it’s too hot all through the summer. In the fall when the first cold hits outdoors, the temperature drops to normal indoors. Yet it never pleases me, but make me feel uneasy and frozen in the … Continue reading

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This angry woman you know so well

          I tell myself you’re just a silly man nothing to bother my thoughts with. I should forget about you and that’s exactly what I never want to do! If you’ll never be with me in … Continue reading

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Ride the river in this boat

(Sometimes I’m all mixed up, tottered between longing love and resentment, Paradise in Hell.) Woke up this morning realizing I have opened a line, giving a tool through which he can continue to treat me with his old habitual manner … Continue reading

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I never told you goodbye

  To cut you off was easy and actually an act of self-defense, I don’t expect you to understand. But now I discover I’ve cut off a part of myself. And sometimes during my days it hurts in my absent … Continue reading

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Said within parentheses

            If there were a road back to me, would you choose that road then, would you? Do you miss me like I miss you, do you? (Poor me, loving you so stupidly much.) I … Continue reading

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It never happened

        The very power of how you never happened to me will never go away but stay. You never touched my body, but you shook my soul. You aroused in me such a fire and now you’re … Continue reading

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I lost him a Thursday in October

I lost him a Thursday in October. It was a chilly but sunny day and I had just went to bed for a nap. It was at 17.39 to be precise and 3600 km away he looked up and met … Continue reading

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October and I miss you

September leaving and October coming and autumn glow. Rain and clouds holds back and the nature is bright. But we travels on different roads now. Yet I wonder how you’re doing and what you think about. Do you still think … Continue reading

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Life is what happens in the background

life is what happens in the background a wagtail chirping outside your window and you don’t know it’s my lonely soul words are written on its wings, tales of lovers like you and me, forever apart from each other, but … Continue reading

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In September it’s far to next summer

In September it’s very far to next summer. What’s written in the book that I then will be reading? And what will I think of when I look up on the blue summer sky a sunny day? Will I still … Continue reading

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In the essence of the night

There’s an old grief at the bottom of my soul that never heal and goes away. When the cold nights come and I have no one to hold on to, ghosts chase me and makes me feel worthless. My last … Continue reading

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Cloudy

  I said  “you could at least try to communicate”. He said “how is the weather over there”. “It’s rainy but not cold”, I said. “It rains a lot here”, he said. “Not a lot here”, I said. “It’s cloudy”, … Continue reading

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Out of silence comes the music

            Out of silence comes the music, rises from its longing to itself. But there are silences between people that make love die of lack of nutrition. This, my being now, that what is related to … Continue reading

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I used to dream about you, what will I dream about now?

          I used to dream about you, your kindness and your love. What will I dream about now? Light returns, nights get shorter. My days are endlessly empty – what to do when I shouldn’t think … Continue reading

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Are you really gone?

          I could write epistles for hours and days about how much I miss you. (And I do.) (I work hard to find the right words for this specific condition: to miss someone – but it’s … Continue reading

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Doors in life

          I You’re always told – “when one door closes, another opens”. You just have to open your eyes to see this newly opened door and don’t become stuck in your past. So it is said. … Continue reading

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