Tag Archives: romance

Love torn apart

          I wanted your love to be my shelter, a comfort zone, a mine for golden joy to give strength as I’m struggling every month to keep my head above the water having hard times. You … Continue reading

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A lonely blues around the corner

The whole fucking me is like an emergency Hole in the heart, the claw of abandonment Easily forgotten, lone blues around a corner He told I’ll love you forever true forever was short like a little star afar that twinkle … Continue reading

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The desires of the beloved

I imagining having you here with me, touching your naked body unlimited. This even though I, also in the mere thought, shy away from same intimacy from you. Why is obscure, but clearly I cannot talk with you about my … Continue reading

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Silence, solitude

Silence, solitude Now two days without talking to you: it is a lifetime of despair for my heart! Same as once you told me, walked on a shore fearing you and I would never become “us”. When one cry, the … Continue reading

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People’s random meetings

Random meetings say hello before you go stay a while be my friend leave a memory your smile the warmth in your hands your eyes drowning in mine your breathing to breathe say hello before you go leave your smile … Continue reading

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Morning tea, waking up slowly

When I wake up in the morning, my eyes are tiny reddish in my spongy puffy face, my nose is even bigger and I cough and sneeze and farts. When I hurry to the toilet not to pee in my … Continue reading

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(Oh Carol) I think I’ll retire and start write literature criticism!

I was chatting again with him today, him – the one who has designated me as his first and greatest and only one love forever and ever. And it’s as terrible as listening to Neil Sedaka’s howling Oh Carol. Verbatim! … Continue reading

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The icicle (imagination)

It’s raining outside and he fell asleep so easily. She sits on the edge of the bed, nude but with a blanket over her bare shoulders and the back from him. She thinks of nothing while smoking a cigarette. At … Continue reading

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A future without the other

I wanted it differently and so did you as far as I know. Though I’m helpless against your anger, hell no I will allow you drown me in your self-righteous black sea. Of all unskilled male lovers in the world … Continue reading

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How many times we split up

            How many times we split up! He never learns. Watch up, sweep up, I said to him. Remember we must tiptoe walk now: maybe the last time that we try to get a future … Continue reading

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Forever never more, not last long for me when about you

“Forever never more, not last long for me when about you.” I wrote that to him and I stand for it! He wrote back to me “I’m sorry I don’t understand what you write now.” Ouch! All the blind alleys … Continue reading

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The weed in my garden of love (thistle love)

I met a guy and I loved him but he never knew my love because he only knew the love he claimed he had for me. It was all about his feelings and never about mine. He never knew how … Continue reading

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I never knew him

  I never knew him in the flesh I withdrew for safety reasons He expected too much of me He made me his guiding light Now he rests behind my eyes I have to live with this a while Shame … Continue reading

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Even if you silently weep

  Even if you silently weep, don’t worry, no one sees your tears. Yet everybody knows that all hearts have their secret tales. I still think of you, from my early morning to the silent nights. I wonder what was … Continue reading

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Three times, three roses

Lars Forssell  (Swedish poet) (1928–2007) Odysseus på Ithaca (from the Swedish poetry collection Telegram, 1957)In the Greek tale, the hero is captured on the island Ogygia by the beautiful nymph Calypso who seduces him with her love and songs. But every … Continue reading

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And it may be you will love two

And it may be you will love two men And one you have and the other not And you swallow the latter his bitter words, as you not want to see him go And yet you still drink the sweetness … Continue reading

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Ambiguous love (feeling trapped)

He asked me if I had written something at my blog that same day and I said no. “No poems?” he asked and “No!” I said. “Why?”  he queried. “I have nothing to write about” I said unhappy. “So what … Continue reading

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I remember you

I remember you, lovely bearded man, who loved me more than your life (that’s what you told me). But then you dumped me like trash, just like that! It was when you were cornered not to be serious about us … Continue reading

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Hedgehog men

          He sent me a photo and he had a chin like a hedgehog. He said “You can kiss me as much as you want!” “Oh thanks,” I said in fear. “Yet I don’t!”     … Continue reading

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I met him on the internet

          I met him on the internet, and that is something I will always regret. He had pics of sparkling eyes, a lovely smile. Charmed, I was thinking I will chat for a while. But soon … Continue reading

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She wants him differently and he wants her as she should be

                She’s his first love, he told her. He is a pain in her ass but she can’t tell him and thereof she feels like she’s a burning bush in a blinded desert. … Continue reading

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A bird in hand (Spring rain, pollen season)

        When walking home from the grocery in spring rain this last Friday afternoon, I saw all the pollen floating on the streets down the drains and sudden from nowhere I came to think of the Swedish … Continue reading

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Tired!

  I heard a tune on Youtube and wasted my morning with reading some Swedish song lyrics, the younger generation. It is that tiny but constant hope to find something that is genuine and heartfelt. But no? I said to … Continue reading

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All I could write was because of you

A tribute to all (female and male) muses that give the romantic poets the ink in their pens (An attempt to translate “L’encre de tes yeux” by Francis Cabrel to Swedish and English. I’ve put the Swedish translation first as … Continue reading

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You fill my dreams with desires!

  Du är inte ett dugg trevlig, men alldeles för svår! Men ändå får du blodet att rinna ned till mina lår, och för att säga sanningen, också vad där emellan. Uttröttad snubblar jag och faller på mina egna tår, … Continue reading

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An angry man

              An angry man stands at the corner waiting for me; his arms crossed over his chest. “I’m ashamed of you” was the last he said to me. But his English is not good … Continue reading

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A romantic dream in color

I heard it said in the old days it’s rare to dream in color. But I now read on the web it’s rather the opposite? I don’t know if it is true or not. My dreams usually vanish from my … Continue reading

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Play it again, Sam!

  I said: Sam, see you in Casablanca! And he shrank to a boy’s voice in a phone with a lousy connection and vanished in the night. Now it’s late and I’m running out of time, but still I’ve that … Continue reading

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Pink dreams

She could hardly sleep at all last night and yet she woke up at four in morning, went up for coffee and checking internet, then quick back to bed to sleep and she woke up again after two dreaming in … Continue reading

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Black or white, Edith Södergran

Edith Södergran (1892 – 1923) is a Finnish-Swedish writer and she was a pioneer in the Scandinavian literary modernism in the early 1900s. She never got not much fame for her poetry before her death, rather the opposite. But she … Continue reading

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Freezing night, glowing heart

          Poem by Karin Boye living 1900 – 1941, my translation for private use only I gladly stand here and freeze at a street below for to see those two windows at a gable glow. The … Continue reading

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And Sam said

  And Sam said “Lady, you shot me” and he fell back and hasty he bled to death, still in his 30s. Soon 70, I walk my way slow and oldish as life and people have hurt me hard but … Continue reading

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I will see coltsfoot flower this year too

          I have been sitting at my desk today for hours waiting for the blessed words to come to me. But my words seems to have ran out through my door with him who said he … Continue reading

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Dismissed body, missed (+ one haiku)

  I have so many photos of you: You are a wholesaler in selfies: I take one to see what I sell out: You stand by a swimming pool wearing only swim shorts and showing off a lot of your … Continue reading

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He wrote “I do not know what to say”

  He broke the silence, texting “I do not know what to say, I just want you to be happy, but I think I failed in that.” She wrote back: “You made me love you, you did not failed in … Continue reading

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If I’ve lost you, I’ve lost you!

You have been a fortnight offline. And if I’ve lost you, I’ve lost you. I don’t cry but I don’t smile either. It snows when I lower the blinds in the afternoon. It snows when I raise them in morning. … Continue reading

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Igloo wish, December knocking

  I do wish you the best: a better job, safe with good salary and a future, a home that’s warm, loving woman a couple of kids and a good health. But if you still will say you just want … Continue reading

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Cold November (Snow bunting song)

(On November 24)  November Snow November is now snowing outside my windows, but where are you in the night so dark and cold? I live near the Arctic Circle, feeling lonely and old: when will you come to my Nordic … Continue reading

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Evening call in morning light

I miss so much, you to be present with me. Your smile when you gets your eyes on me on the screen is just stunning, your gentle voice makes me smile and so do your tender touch, if so only … Continue reading

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Moving into gloomy November

  Two weeks not a word from you is a very long time, two weeks at a new place is too short to feel home. I’m tired and worn out after all hassle with the move and I wonders about … Continue reading

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Voices speaking to the melancholy Swedish soul

It’s the underlying lost melancholy white tune in Springsteen and Harris voices beyond any lyrics, music sets and genres. It sneaks out on you, forces itself on you, it’s you far from forged reality grilles. And it tells of the … Continue reading

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And if!

  And if one day my hands cannot reach for you and you will be gone or never came my way, my heart will still reach out for you. And if one day my eyes cannot catch you anymore, the … Continue reading

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Impossible love

  When I think of him (all the time!)… there’s not so much about having distinct thoughts as about a constant inner awareness, perceiving his existence. He is a living presence in my soul. Living streaming water… But when this … Continue reading

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Dreamy lovers

          If you are awake now, I’m certain you think of me. If you sleep, I’m certain that you dream about me. If you were here, our dream would be true reality and our reality as … Continue reading

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Moving, still steady

I’ve lived in this house for ten years but for the last years I’ve mostly been online, it all while I tried to shake off my feelings of wearing a cooling suit of loneliness and desolation. Solitude has for long … Continue reading

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Dark chocolate love

And whenever we’ll meet I’ll offer you a piece of dark chocolate and a cup of coffee. If you’re hungry I’ll make you something to eat and if you’re tired I’ll give you a bed to rest. But my heart … Continue reading

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Dancing smile

Standing in my kitchen, spreading butter on a slice of toasted bread sprinkled with poppy seeds and suddenly I sense a little shy smile dancing on my lips: oh, it’s him on my mind! I once melted like butter on … Continue reading

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Such is our togetherness (Sådant är vårt tillsammans)

I sit in my living room reading a novel that annoys me because its boring banality, even if I realize that is precisely the subject for the novel. (Loneliness in a spoiled middle class family, have it all and lack … Continue reading

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A love story

                I know it is crazy you and I can be one and we. Yet every inch of my skin talks and tells about you exception for my feral and numb feet. The … Continue reading

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The miracle to be loved

        He’s the last one to be her first one, yet if so the other in the family rank In the complete desert in her aging and of losses sad, weakened heart, his lasting and devoted love … Continue reading

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