Tag Archives: repression and borders

I never knew him

  I never knew him in the flesh I withdrew for safety reasons He expected too much of me He made me his guiding light Now he rests behind my eyes I have to live with this a while Shame … Continue reading

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A hill of beans in a crazy world

He said: Well, if it’s not important for you to meet me, I won’t come! I said: It’s not important for me to see you but I believe it’s important for you. Yet I would like to see you. But … Continue reading

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I remember you

I remember you, lovely bearded man, who loved me more than your life (that’s what you told me). But then you dumped me like trash, just like that! It was when you were cornered not to be serious about us … Continue reading

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Pink dreams

She could hardly sleep at all last night and yet she woke up at four in morning, went up for coffee and checking internet, then quick back to bed to sleep and she woke up again after two dreaming in … Continue reading

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(Mind matter) Märka ord

Märk nu mina ord, jag besökte er ett tag, men var verkligen aldrig där: ett vingslag mot din kind i natten, du rös till litegrann. Vi bor i Sverige men lever i världen. Våra tankar borde vara såsom svalor i … Continue reading

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I will see coltsfoot flower this year too

          I have been sitting at my desk today for hours waiting for the blessed words to come to me. But my words seems to have ran out through my door with him who said he … Continue reading

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Simple

          We’re simple people you and I and our feelings for each other are also simple. But the world isn’t simple. I wanted to release you to free myself, but you didn’t want to. So we … Continue reading

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Sunday morning coffee insnowed in Sweden

The weather reports promised large snowing at the East coast regions and it came and comes! I’m having my Sunday morning coffee insnowed in Sweden while the plow cars roar outside my windows and I read online a CNN article … Continue reading

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Making an apple cake for one

In English below! Jag står i köket en dag och gör en äppelkaka för en då jag hör ett stillsamt skvalande från en granne, jag hoppas att det är från kranen i dennes kök, men nej – strax därpå följer … Continue reading

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Free ticket to Erdogan?

After the two last awful years living in the worl and trying to cope with it – now 1919 will come – and yes asking, what will come next? President Trump announces American troops will leave Syria, claiming ISIS now is … Continue reading

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A real life that’s not poetry

      Now last he told he’ll be out of work once again and it annoyed me a lot, as it’s like he lives from one day to another, having no plan that includes me in a future, but … Continue reading

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And if!

  And if one day my hands cannot reach for you and you will be gone or never came my way, my heart will still reach out for you. And if one day my eyes cannot catch you anymore, the … Continue reading

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Dead Queen, City of Stockholm

  Do not breathe the air in my capital, Stockholm city, be- cause it is poisoned by the stifling stench of inbreeding! Close eyes and ears to the city’s leading priestesses, all blindly anchored in their middleclass crotches while they … Continue reading

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Chinese drama, Internet use and Swedish matters of the heart

According to Swedish newspapers reports in September were public institutions in Sweden such as Sweden’s television and the Ministry of Foreign Affairs exposed to massive attacks by Chinese internet trolls. The affected have confirmed that “an increased activity has been … Continue reading

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Moving, still steady

I’ve lived in this house for ten years but for the last years I’ve mostly been online, it all while I tried to shake off my feelings of wearing a cooling suit of loneliness and desolation. Solitude has for long … Continue reading

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A love story

                I know it is crazy you and I can be one and we. Yet every inch of my skin talks and tells about you exception for my feral and numb feet. The … Continue reading

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Hen house

Part I, Saturday It’s the weekend after Sweden voted for new leaderships in counties and parliament. The mandates for the parliament after the final statement is 144-143 to the favor of red/green bloc, but Swedish Democrats receives 62 mandates. The … Continue reading

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The miracle to be loved

        He’s the last one to be her first one, yet if so the other in the family rank In the complete desert in her aging and of losses sad, weakened heart, his lasting and devoted love … Continue reading

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Love-potion mystery

              On the other side of the globe, a man walks on a street late in night heading home to sleep and while he walks he thinks of the one he loves and the … Continue reading

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Sometimes I sense your presence in my room

        Sometimes I sense your presence in my room as if you actually were here with me and close. Over time, I’ve had to give up my attempts to be sensible and wise about us and give … Continue reading

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“It could be worse!”

Have a bad government with confused ministers who don’t know how to find their own hands in their pockets, wishing for another reign but realise the alternative we would get an even worse government that is not footed, but for … Continue reading

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Longing for the sea (längtan till havet)

I have lived at inlands my whole life. Now with age it feels as if the inlands choke me and I’m longing to the sea. But I feel trapped in poverty and my lack of health and supporting friends. You’re … Continue reading

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Single “forever”

If you wonder if I miss you the answer is simply “yes”. All other answers are “no”. If you can forget me: good! If you can’t: just live with it. And the same goes for me!   You said your … Continue reading

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Porn is not an issue, it’s just a “no”!

You have met a nice guy, finally. And he’s such an angel to you, nice and charming and respectful. Right? I did too. He’s a believer he told me early on, and preach and pray every day and he teach … Continue reading

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An orderly reception, a proposal for how to seek asylum in Sweden

The government in Sweden today is led by the veteran Social Democratic Party (founded 1889) in a coalition with the minor Miljöpartiet (The Green)(founded 1981). This supporting party has been forced to refrain from many of its main issues, not … Continue reading

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Disgusts! (in Scandinavia today)

Denmark’s government wants to introduce segregation to eradicate segregation. The Danish government has classified 20 residential areas as “ghettos” and to 2030 they want these areas to be gone. The proposed measures put forward are to expropriate housing  and tear … Continue reading

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Three kind of “missing you” days

I’m struggling with three kinds of “missing you” on a daily basis. There’s a gloomy kind of missing when I have a sickness day and see an ugly and unattractive woman in the bathroom mirror, if in morning or midday … Continue reading

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To miss you has become my daily bread

To miss you has become my daily bread. My every day thirst is to hear your voice; to talk to you. I think of you constantly. You’re a hurricane and the peace in my soul. One day you will rest … Continue reading

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In China, God is spelled Xi Jinping

In China, God is spelled Xi Jinping. Look at the Chinese workers, they are nothing but brainwashed slaves, who lives for nothing in a present dystopia, making commercialized toys for adults in a blindfolded west, it all resulting in pollutions … Continue reading

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I have met so many beautiful people

The Swedish parliament politician Roland Utbult sings his speech on December 4, 2017 I have met so many beautiful people holding mercy in their arms they don’t point finger at the weak ones, but meets them with a stretched hand … Continue reading

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So much love…

After weeks of silence and not a beep from or about Putin, I was wondering if he has been  so busy with his last puppy he haven’t got the time to do or say any to be caught up in … Continue reading

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We have a love thing going

In retro perspective dreams are just memories of time we wasted on what might be nothing. Dreams belongs to and are seated in our futures, but for what purposes? Only to keep us struggling on in the now? Or is … Continue reading

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Fear

Even though I fell away you were there when I returned, silent as ever before. But the following night an anxiety dream aroused me and I could not sleep more. You in my head and I felt scared for you. … Continue reading

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Online friends, good and bad ones

I have been a member on a pen pal site to and fro since 2011. I have met a few friends for life there, as Anne from England – a very nice lady now 76 years old. We been friends … Continue reading

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Why is it so easy to love and so hard to be loved?

            Why is it so difficult for a talented woman (like me) to be loved and respected despite her greatness? Women are expected subordinate the other’s stubborn ignorance and limitations, right? Having a penis is … Continue reading

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I will never love more but you

          I got a call yesterday from an “ex” bf. I remember him as a nice man. He has still a very nice voice. Alluring. But he’s not to trust. Still it was sad to say … Continue reading

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There’s nothing between Stockholm and Agadir

      When it’s plus 6 in Stockholm there’s plus 30 in Agadir. I needed knitted gloves today when I biked to the grocery store. And I was thinking of you meantime biking. How are you doing? The cold … Continue reading

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Said within parentheses

            If there were a road back to me, would you choose that road then, would you? Do you miss me like I miss you, do you? (Poor me, loving you so stupidly much.) I … Continue reading

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To talk too much – or not talk at all?

                  We have in our world today a big mouthed leader who is an idiot… After having him as a pain in ass for the last year or more – his last … Continue reading

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To live the love was not easy

I could consider to marry you (if you still want it, of course) if you never more slaughter animals never more say “I hate Jews” never more say “homosexuality is disgusting” never more abuse me with silences for weeks never … Continue reading

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Log September 2017 The world is politics

I read on a Swedish website today that Spain takes over the Catalan police force in order to prevent the referendum the first of October. I’m not briefed about the relation between Catalonia and Spain to have an opinion about … Continue reading

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I dream of walks in sunsets on a pristine beach

  A young man close to me imagine us come together sitting on a beach talking. In the sunset or sunrise I assume. But I cannot imagine it as a reality to become. Because we live far and we both … Continue reading

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I’m thinking of my Romeo

  I’m scattered and uninspired to words, because I’m ambivalent and uncertain about you, you my beloved brother in my heart. Just as identical twins I can feel how your thoughts embrace me now in this very moment. Yet, it … Continue reading

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A woman must always wear shoes she can run in

As I was reading web papers today I came to listen to a slam poet reading. I’m not that fond of slam poetry. As of course – I could certainly not do it myself, as I’m not that skilled! Yet, … Continue reading

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“Hello! Hello!”

        We had a chat, just like every night about this and that I don’t know what didn’t go right but I said something aimless and she left saying “Hello! Hello!” Like crazy! She left me! Where … Continue reading

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“You’ll be President”, Swedish rock music in the 1980s

“Imperiet” (in translation = the Empire) was a Swedish rockband during the years 1981 – 1988. The leader was sing and songwriter Joakim Thåström, born 1957. Thåström has after the time in rockband and earlier in punkband worked as a … Continue reading

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1967 or 2017 – it’s the same lonely story

          Year 1967 or 2017, 18 or 68 years old – it’s the same story now as in the past. I’m left on my own alone with my books and my poetry and love is still … Continue reading

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Walking along the wall

Walking along the wall trying to see the light don’t want to dig a devil’s ditch but living is hard, once a dreamer now aged and scarred yet every heart is a bird longing for to use its wings and … Continue reading

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Wanting you is like trying to catch the wind

  Yes, my pure-hearted lover and my sweetest thing in the world! I was thinking of you too the past sleepless night and when I finally fell asleep, I woke less than three hours later just before 6 AM and … Continue reading

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Once I looked for Mr. Goodman

Once I looked for Mr. Goodman. He was a good Christian man, but he never made it and I went on alone. And then the American people elected Donald Trump as Mr. Goodman, well: “fuck you”: Mayor of London, Pakistani … Continue reading

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