Category Archives: poems

The desires of the beloved

I imagining having you here with me, touching your naked body unlimited. This even though I, also in the mere thought, shy away from same intimacy from you. Why is obscure, but clearly I cannot talk with you about my … Continue reading

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Silence, solitude

Silence, solitude Now two days without talking to you: it is a lifetime of despair for my heart! Same as once you told me, walked on a shore fearing you and I would never become “us”. When one cry, the … Continue reading

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People’s random meetings

Random meetings say hello before you go stay a while be my friend leave a memory your smile the warmth in your hands your eyes drowning in mine your breathing to breathe say hello before you go leave your smile … Continue reading

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Morning tea, waking up slowly

When I wake up in the morning, my eyes are tiny reddish in my spongy puffy face, my nose is even bigger and I cough and sneeze and farts. When I hurry to the toilet not to pee in my … Continue reading

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Mother of five (Mater Dolorosa at Rinkeby)

Mother of five, son why did you not die in my womb? From Rinkeby to Dubai now prison for life for murder? You never came back home, reading your truth in my eyes! Son, you grew up to become a … Continue reading

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(Oh Carol) I think I’ll retire and start write literature criticism!

I was chatting again with him today, him – the one who has designated me as his first and greatest and only one love forever and ever. And it’s as terrible as listening to Neil Sedaka’s howling Oh Carol. Verbatim! … Continue reading

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Kindly kill yourself on an unnoticed day

It is a popular game, blaming others! Everyone points fingers at everyone and nobody is good enough: you’re white not good, you’re black not good, you’re a “leftie” not good, a “right-wing” not good, you’re a criminal not good, homeless … Continue reading

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Snoppar som stoppar / Dicks that kicks

Dicks that kicks but never lift on their tops what is kind and soft and gives room to all! We see it everywhere how arrogance and selfishness are rewarded and the power is given to those who offends the integrity … Continue reading

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Jag trivs bäst bak låsta dörrar med 7tillhållarlås (travesti på Ulf Lundell, Öppna landskap)

“Öppna landskap” (Open landscapes) is a ballad by the Swedish rock icon and author Ulf Lundell. The song is often sung and well known to Swedes, sometimes called “The unofficial Swedish Anthem”. It was released in 1982 but the Swedish … Continue reading

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I know Sophie

I know Sophie, she lives upstairs and sometimes when I meet her at the front door she says a shy “hi” and hastily takes the stair home to her own. Neighbors say she has lived here for a long time … Continue reading

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Love and art

Kärlek gör sig, ärligt talat, bäst omgestaltad till musik och sång. Verkligheten är lättare att förstå i litteraturen, tagen på pulsen. När en älskare säger jag ska sitta vid din sida när du skriver, då vet man att nu är … Continue reading

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The icicle (imagination)

It’s raining outside and he fell asleep so easily. She sits on the edge of the bed, nude but with a blanket over her bare shoulders and the back from him. She thinks of nothing while smoking a cigarette. At … Continue reading

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Loneliness is a treacherous haunting guest

That feeling of loneliness now sudden fills me up is a treacherous and haunting guest. When it hits, it permeates your soul and force you in desperation to meddle with the wrong kind of people, just to get some company … Continue reading

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Carrie Lam says “I am”

Carrie Lam says “I am” and the students at Hong Kong Polytechnic University says “We are” – and they are so far. Who Carrie Lam decides to be, will be a line in the historybook and the face she will … Continue reading

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A future without the other

I wanted it differently and so did you as far as I know. Though I’m helpless against your anger, hell no I will allow you drown me in your self-righteous black sea. Of all unskilled male lovers in the world … Continue reading

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A love thriving in our longing

  I still think of you the first thing I wake up in the morning and I miss you on my lonely evenings: someone to talk to. And sleeping and dreaming I get lost in scary nightmares. But as soon … Continue reading

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The grief in the tiger’s eyes

The grief in the tiger’s eyes, it reaches down the bottom of my soul, it’s I in the hidden. In a cage, starved and deprived its dignity the tiger looks beyond you as it has learned humans aren’t human and … Continue reading

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Ice cream dreams (the end of the road)

  It was down minus 25C in Nikkaluokta last night, that would be alike minus 77 Fahrenheit in USA. There I am it’s only +3C and to me that’s far too freezing cold. I have never been in Nikkaluokta, even … Continue reading

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Remembering (All Saints’ Day)

What olden dead can be deader than those who were once buried in graveyards which were later abandoned to become desolate churchyards? Decades and centuries have passed by those wasted and neglected places and curious but yet rare visitors can … Continue reading

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How many times we split up

            How many times we split up! He never learns. Watch up, sweep up, I said to him. Remember we must tiptoe walk now: maybe the last time that we try to get a future … Continue reading

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Ensam saknad viskar / Lone missing whispers

Oktober glöder, även i duggregn. Men en trötthet håller mig nere. Jag önskar mig ett ”hej” från dig, men ändå inte. Vi alla här lunkar kalla mot kala träd och gravsång- er i dyster nordisk november grå. Inomhus, ensam saknad … Continue reading

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Fireweed joy (Glädjefält)

Ur den brända marken växer en ros närd av aska. Från vad som var härjande eld, förgängelse och kallnad död gror hon och snart många i vida fält, hon lyser som en Fågel Fenix, ren fröjd för ögat. Se, vad … Continue reading

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October, haiku

I October colors and the Earth still carry us: November comes next! II She still thinks of him like birches gold on the street. But not so often. III Rain and autumn gloom, and missing stings inwardly. Blue hope in … Continue reading

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Since she left me lastly (part 2)

          Since she left me lastly I rambling around, lost. My eyes are so dry and burns as the winds have blew away all my tears. I’ve a lump in my throat and my heart is … Continue reading

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Since you left me lastly

Since you left me lastly I rambling around, lost. My eyes are so dry and burns as the winds have blew away all my tears. I’ve a lump in my throat and my heart is icy cold. You have no … Continue reading

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Forever never more, not last long for me when about you

“Forever never more, not last long for me when about you.” I wrote that to him and I stand for it! He wrote back to me “I’m sorry I don’t understand what you write now.” Ouch! All the blind alleys … Continue reading

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100 years after him

100 years after him I will be no longer! Nor the memory of what never became. 100 years and he will not be either. His dreams for sale; my words remains like lost birds, scattered in the sky. It’s over. … Continue reading

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Done with men (färdig med karlar)

I’m going to read 100 novels and then die! But if when 100 done, I still have time left, I will read 100 more novels and list the first hundred and the other 100 and meanwhile my double bed will … Continue reading

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Försvinnande kvinna / Vanishing woman

Vanishing woman Part 1 That late night was now approaching, then when I intended to vanish from you without a trace and wipe you out of my life forever. But late came late all my feet colder. The next morning … Continue reading

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I was never tougher than the rest

Well, it’s Saturday noon and you’re gone into the blue. I kept an eye on you a while, maybe you did it on me too. It’s true I ran off first because you caused us so much stress. Once you … Continue reading

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I never knew him

  I never knew him in the flesh I withdrew for safety reasons He expected too much of me He made me his guiding light Now he rests behind my eyes I have to live with this a while Shame … Continue reading

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Weak sleep and bladder and dreams

        I barely slept last night One hour at a time and I had to pee more than once, and when dozing I got the dream that all my hair had changed to white, but when I … Continue reading

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Enslaved horse – unheard truth

          This taste of steel on my tongue, snaffle rings pressing in my mouth corners, the reins resting along my neck sides. There is a man on my back and he urge me to run where … Continue reading

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Even if you silently weep

  Even if you silently weep, don’t worry, no one sees your tears. Yet everybody knows that all hearts have their secret tales. I still think of you, from my early morning to the silent nights. I wonder what was … Continue reading

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I was easy forgotten

I was easy forgotten just piece of a game the One knew words not ever compassion heart split and alone moving on shattered tears hidden in heart smiles cover up pains

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The pains where my soul is seated

        If my soul has a place in my mortal body, then it hides behind the lower tip of the right shoulder blade. You were always on my back and pushed me with your intensity and tough … Continue reading

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Wisdom Wells

              (translated from Swedish) When summer so sleeps its last rest, the fall flames as fire yet chilly. Then the young hero comes to the Nordic regions to find his Crone, she the wise … Continue reading

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Marmalade love

  I was as made to be the marmalade on his daily bread, now he seems to has lost his sweet tooth and I’m not yet ready to be left, a single sweetie Then he told: I can feel you … Continue reading

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Three times, three roses

Lars Forssell  (Swedish poet) (1928–2007) Odysseus på Ithaca (from the Swedish poetry collection Telegram, 1957)In the Greek tale, the hero is captured on the island Ogygia by the beautiful nymph Calypso who seduces him with her love and songs. But every … Continue reading

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Heart wrapped in barbed wire

          I read your letter, roses sweet with thorns thoroughly hidden in thin silk paper. I grieve your heart wrapped in barbed wire! What you have you don’t want and what you want is far away. … Continue reading

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And it may be you will love two

And it may be you will love two men And one you have and the other not And you swallow the latter his bitter words, as you not want to see him go And yet you still drink the sweetness … Continue reading

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At my age!

I came old and stood at the edge, mirrored nothingness fearing but fighting, as faced the end of the mortal “me” Then I met him, a freedom fighter for his own good only He caught me and brought me a … Continue reading

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Ambiguous love (feeling trapped)

He asked me if I had written something at my blog that same day and I said no. “No poems?” he asked and “No!” I said. “Why?”  he queried. “I have nothing to write about” I said unhappy. “So what … Continue reading

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I remember you

I remember you, lovely bearded man, who loved me more than your life (that’s what you told me). But then you dumped me like trash, just like that! It was when you were cornered not to be serious about us … Continue reading

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Hedgehog men

          He sent me a photo and he had a chin like a hedgehog. He said “You can kiss me as much as you want!” “Oh thanks,” I said in fear. “Yet I don’t!”     … Continue reading

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I met him on the internet

          I met him on the internet, and that is something I will always regret. He had pics of sparkling eyes, a lovely smile. Charmed, I was thinking I will chat for a while. But soon … Continue reading

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She wants him differently and he wants her as she should be

                She’s his first love, he told her. He is a pain in her ass but she can’t tell him and thereof she feels like she’s a burning bush in a blinded desert. … Continue reading

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A bird in hand (Spring rain, pollen season)

        When walking home from the grocery in spring rain this last Friday afternoon, I saw all the pollen floating on the streets down the drains and sudden from nowhere I came to think of the Swedish … Continue reading

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We try to talk

We try to talk to keep it going but we’re not doing it so well, I miss so much to sense your body near mine, not so much about sex as a severe longing to feel your presence here and … Continue reading

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Couple talk

            My lover thinks it’s better to say “ok” than to argue. And “ok” is, according to him, what he say and “arguing” is, according to him, what I do! It is just too much … Continue reading

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