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Forever never more, not last long for me when about you

          “Forever never more, not last long for me when about you.” I wrote that to him and I stand for it! He wrote back to me “I’m sorry I don’t understand what you write now.” … Continue reading

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No smile from me!

Today Wednesday, the Minister of Finance presented the government budget for 2020. The rich will be richer and pensioners will have a crumb slight increase in income. But since the pensions have remained steady for a while but living expenses … Continue reading

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100 years after him

100 years after him I will be no longer! Nor the memory of what never became. 100 years and he will not be either. His dreams for sale; my words remains like lost birds, scattered in the sky. It’s over. … Continue reading

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The weed in my garden of love (thistle love)

I met a guy and I loved him but he never knew my love because he only knew the love he claimed he had for me. It was all about his feelings and never about mine. He never knew how … Continue reading

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Looking “good” or “ugly” at age 65 plus?

These two public men have badly insulted public women – for their looks! About in the same age as themselves! Apart from the vulgarity and the improper in their behavior, tell me which two looks best “for their age”? And … Continue reading

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Done with men (färdig med karlar)

I’m going to read 100 novels and then die! But if when 100 done, I still have time left, I will read 100 more novels and list the first hundred and the other 100 and meanwhile my double bed will … Continue reading

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Försvinnande kvinna / Vanishing woman

  Vanishing woman Part 1 That late night was now approaching, then when I intended to vanish from you without a trace and wipe you out of my life forever. But late came late all my feet colder. The next … Continue reading

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The red rose in the rain

              Face the red rose in the rain, a love in vain that was aroused, only to be thrown away! Our longing once, turns into disgust. To apart as friends was never an option! … Continue reading

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The reddest rose to you

        I read this Sunday morning a review of a new Swedish “graphic novel” that investigate different theories of the nature of infatuation. This book genre is new to me, I’m so old I had to google … Continue reading

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I was never tougher than the rest

  Well, it’s Saturday noon and you’re gone into the blue. I kept an eye on you a while, maybe you did on me too. It’s true I ran off first, because you caused us such a mess. Once you … Continue reading

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August rains but doesn’t cry any tears

  August is supposed to be a summer month, at least here there I live. But this year autumn seems to come early. And since it’s raining day after day, the sky is so much darken blue and cloudy that … Continue reading

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Once we were all young

  Once we were all young once we had hope and faith about what we could become once we were like an open book and we read this world is possible Today the book is closed and it will be … Continue reading

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Djupfryst torsk och levande gäddor

  “Hanif Bali är en av få levande och tänkande människor i den samtida politiken” “Fler borde vara som Hanif Bali” skriver Victor Malm i Expressen 22 juli -19 “Hanif Bali är en av få levande och tänkande människor i … Continue reading

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August rain and the rowans blushes

That man who caught my heart, he was nothing but a two-legged beast of prey, so I’m told. He made his five prayers every day and he told me he was a good guy and I was bad if I … Continue reading

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I never knew him

  I never knew him in the flesh I withdrew for safety reasons He expected too much of me He made me his guiding light Now he rests behind my eyes I have to live with this a while Shame … Continue reading

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Weak sleep and bladder and dreams

        I barely slept last night One hour at a time and I had to pee more than once, and when dozing I got the dream that all my hair had changed to white, but when I … Continue reading

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Break up break down told you so

  I told him so many times what made me unhappy and he heard me but he never listened, only told me I was wrong. I could have said when I left him “I told you so” but I didn’t! … Continue reading

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Enslaved horse – unheard truth

          This taste of steel on my tongue, snaffle rings pressing in my mouth corners, the reins resting along my neck sides. There is a man on my back and he urge me to run where … Continue reading

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There is someone for everyone except for me

  There is someone for everyone except for me of course, Cupid simply sneaked past my house one dark night when I was hard sleeping, caught by nightmares. At a ”certain age” you try to fit in to your new … Continue reading

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Even if you silently weep

  Even if you silently weep, don’t worry, no one sees your tears. Yet everybody knows that all hearts have their secret tales. I still think of you, from my early morning to the silent nights. I wonder what was … Continue reading

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“I was born to be with you”

      I listen to music on You Tube every day. But I’m not that overwhelmed of the playlists YouTube try to tempt me with. But now and then I get lucky, like when I got the suggestion of … Continue reading

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I was easy forgotten

I was easy forgotten just piece of a game the One knew words not ever compassion heart split and alone moving on shattered tears hidden in heart smiles cover up pains

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It’s the third of August

            It’s the third of August, the second day of the beginning of the second week without you. When I woke up this morning I remembered the line I had written before “But my silly … Continue reading

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James (came and left)

James (the bonded guy) came to town in the week, “us” to be shaken, but not stirred and it all just for “Sweden” to know about being stared at. And soon enough when a certain trial is over and been … Continue reading

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The pains where my soul is seated

        If my soul has a place in my mortal body, then it hides behind the lower tip of the right shoulder blade. You were always on my back and pushed me with your intensity and tough … Continue reading

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Some reflections on “obstruction of justice” and about contemporary politics

  We have nowadays not only serious realities as ever before to deal with in our world, but there’s a ruthless rhetoric in the public room today that makes us confused about what’s real and true and makes us incapable … Continue reading

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A poet from my time of youth has died

Reading in the paper that the Finnish poet Claes Andersson died on Wednesday this week. Thinking instantly (as always now in my old age), “next it can be me”: as he was only 12 years older than me…! 😦   … Continue reading

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Wisdom Wells

                (translated from Swedish) When summer so sleeps its last rest, the fall flames as fire yet chilly. Then the young hero comes to the Nordic regions to find his Crone, she the … Continue reading

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Marmalade love

  I was as made to be the marmalade on his daily bread, now he seems to has lost his sweet tooth and I’m not yet ready to be left, a single sweetie Then he told: I can feel you … Continue reading

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“We have to love more and hate less”

“… This is my charge to everyone! We have to be better. We have to love more and hate less. We have to listen more and talk less. We gotta know this is everybody’s responsibility, every single person here. Every … Continue reading

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“Drink Tap Water in Sweden! Just Like All Swedes Do!”

“Drink Tap Water in Sweden! Just Like All Swedes Do!” But don’t beat up people brutally on the street because they annoys you – and think you will get away with it. I’m not a nationalist and have never been. … Continue reading

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Laundry day

Had a hard day taking the laundry An afternoon nap and I slept deep Woke and my hand searching you and got the fur of my sleeping cat Me and Cat in a freshly made bed My body is a … Continue reading

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A hill of beans in a crazy world

He said: Well, if it’s not important for you to meet me, I won’t come! I said: It’s not important for me to see you but I believe it’s important for you. Yet I would like to see you. But … Continue reading

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Woman of the year

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Three times, three roses

        Lars Forssell  (Swedish poet) (1928–2007) Odysseus på Ithaca (from the poetry collection Telegram, 1957) In the Greek tale, the hero is captured on the island Ogygia by the beautiful nymph Calypso who seduces him with her love … Continue reading

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Greta and the environmental concerns (Greta och miljön)

It annoys me this false devoted heightening of this girl in media here in Sweden and abroad. She did not start her school strike for the environment to be praised by media and or by celebrities, minor politicians or a … Continue reading

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All the difference

  Every evening after dark I take a 12 minutes’ walk around the block. Nor have I ever said, “I want to be alone. I only said, I want to be left alone.” It is the Garbo truth: “There is … Continue reading

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Heart wrapped in barbed wire

          I read your letter, roses sweet with thorns thoroughly hidden in thin silk paper. I grieve your heart wrapped in barbed wire! What you have you don’t want and what you want is far away. … Continue reading

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And it may be you will love two

And it may be you will love two men And one you have and the other not And you swallow the latter his bitter words, as you not want to see him go And yet you still drink the sweetness … Continue reading

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Are you alone today on Midsummer’s Eve (in Sweden!)

Är du ensam idag på Midsommarafton? Vet då att det är du inte ensam om! Are you alone today at Midsummer’s Eve? Know then, you are not alone about that!  

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At my age! (2) (prose)

“At my age anything unexpected that isn’t medical or mortal should be celebrated.”A quote attributed to Kathleen Brennan.               If any say “at my age”, she’s for sure not 6 years old… or 20 … Continue reading

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At my age!

I came old and stood at the edge, mirrored nothingness fearing but fighting, as faced the end of the mortal “me” Then I met him, a freedom fighter for his own good only He caught me and brought me a … Continue reading

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Ambiguous love (feeling trapped)

He asked me if I had written something at my blog that same day and I said no. “No poems?” he asked and “No!” I said. “Why?”  he queried. “I have nothing to write about” I said unhappy. “So what … Continue reading

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I remember you

I remember you, lovely bearded man, who loved me more than your life (that’s what you told me). But then you dumped me like trash, just like that! It was when you were cornered not to be serious about us … Continue reading

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Where the birches rustles their summer song

When one goes, the other is seen left behind: But the former will be what comes. The other: the laughing gentleman, now ridiculous naked butt as the fairy tale emperor: but still haughty he gabbles his garbage. Far after the … Continue reading

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Hedgehog men

          He sent me a photo and he had a chin like a hedgehog. He said “You can kiss me as much as you want!” “Oh thanks,” I said in fear. “Yet I don’t!”     … Continue reading

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Microscopic notices in Swedish medias “Microscopic remains of Nazi victims buried”

  VideoSpäte Würdigung für NS-Opfer http://www.stern.de/panorama/video-spaete-wuerdigung-fuer-ns-opfer-8708712. “Berlin buries prisoners’ tissue kept by Nazi-era doctor” http://www.bbc.com/news/world-europe-48215894 This doctor’s name was Hermann Stieve. He was active until his death in 1952 and he was never charged for his dealing with the executed … Continue reading

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I met him on the internet

          I met him on the internet, and that is something I will always regret. He had pics of sparkling eyes, a lovely smile. Charmed, I was thinking I will chat for a while. But soon … Continue reading

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If I could talk to you

  And if I could talk to you, I would tell you I’m not happy for this either. But you and I and talking was never good and it always went from bad to worse. And I had to end … Continue reading

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She wants him differently and he wants her as she should be

                She’s his first love, he told her. He is a pain in her ass but she can’t tell him and thereof she feels like she’s a burning bush in a blinded desert. … Continue reading

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