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Philosophizes about my (lack of a) love life

I plugged in the wrong end of a cord into my laptop and the electrical system collapsed instantly. Now I sit here without computer and energy, without passion and power and without contact with anyone and I wonder if you … Continue reading

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Solitaire matters

        Well, you say we have love but from what I see, you have your friends and I have yet another round of solitaire and my constant bad and hurting hip. But I don’t have you. You … Continue reading

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Old Woman Blues

It’s a sad thing to have become an old woman, living alone with a cat and a TV set, desperately longing for a warm hand and a little sympathy and someone to talk to: easy victim of wreckers.  

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All that I have (yet another wonderful summer)

And yet another wonderful summer. Biking to a lake, reading a book and drink coffee from a thermos and eat cinnamon buns, sticky in the heat – and breadcrumbs and ants all over the blanket. (To bike slowly home in … Continue reading

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An actual description

“Keep smiling” is the worst advice and pressure people can ever put on themselves and others. It should belong to “the human rights” to be able to talk about melancholy moods without getting moralizing from someone, and not least from … Continue reading

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Dark chocolate, love’s bitter taste

I miss talking to you. But I don’t know if it is more than that anymore. Maybe I just miss someone to talk to? Or maybe I’m in “a phase”, low and tired? But I think you feel sad and … Continue reading

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I met you in my dream / Jag mötte dig i min dröm

            I met you in my dream and we walked hand in hand on a beach below a city I have never seen and you told me “I will never forget you” and I woke … Continue reading

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The Winter Street

  The scientists believe nowadays, there are two trillions galaxies “out there”. Our “own” galaxy is named The Milky Way in several languages, even in Arabic, though it comes from a pagan Greek myth. In Finnish it’s imaginatively called The … Continue reading

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The persistent presence of your absence

The persistent presence of your absence: you are never in my room, but always in my heart! We are living with longing, you and I, not with each other such we desire! Dazzling days, the dark and lonely nights. Sometimes … Continue reading

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Sadness is a seven letters word

      Sadness is a seven letters word. Seven black drops dirt your skin and you rub and rub to clean it off you, but you can still see there are remains of the stains. Some people are just … Continue reading

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Online friends, good and bad ones

I have been a member on a pen pal site to and fro since 2011. I have met a few friends for life there, as Anne from England – a very nice lady now 76 years old. We been friends … Continue reading

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Why is it so easy to love and so hard to be loved?

            Why is it so difficult for a talented woman (like me) to be loved and respected despite her greatness? Women are expected subordinate the other’s stubborn ignorance and limitations, right? Having a penis is … Continue reading

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There’s nothing between Stockholm and Agadir

      When it’s plus 6 in Stockholm there’s plus 30 in Agadir. I needed knitted gloves today when I biked to the grocery store. And I was thinking of you meantime biking. How are you doing? The cold … Continue reading

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Long distance heating

This apartment I have, it’s too hot all through the summer. In the fall when the first cold hits outdoors, the temperature drops to normal indoors. Yet it never pleases me, but make me feel uneasy and frozen in the … Continue reading

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Lost direction

You were my direction. Now I’m lost and confused. I walk around every day like a dog that does not belong to any.  

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I never told you goodbye

  To cut you off was easy and actually an act of self-defense, I don’t expect you to understand. But now I discover I’ve cut off a part of myself. And sometimes during my days it hurts in my absent … Continue reading

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Said within parentheses

            If there were a road back to me, would you choose that road then, would you? Do you miss me like I miss you, do you? (Poor me, loving you so stupidly much.) I … Continue reading

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It never happened

        The very power of how you never happened to me will never go away but stay. You never touched my body, but you shook my soul. You aroused in me such a fire and now you’re … Continue reading

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I lost him a Thursday in October

I lost him a Thursday in October. It was a chilly but sunny day and I had just went to bed for a nap. It was at 17.39 to be precise and 3600 km away he looked up and met … Continue reading

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And whenever I think of you

And whenever I think of you I get the instant urge to hold you close and touch you so tenderly but all we did was arguing driving us apart but when I think of you and it’s about hundred times … Continue reading

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We live here apart

We live here apart and caught in the prejudices of our societies and minds like flies in a spider web. But I know that in another planetary system in a parallel reality we live happily and sleep together every night, … Continue reading

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I drink my coffee in my silent room

I drink my coffee in my silent room, contemplating whether there’s any way I could make my life look good enough to me? But must it be that good? This silence is quite relaxing. My coffee taste good. My cute … Continue reading

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In the essence of the night

There’s an old grief at the bottom of my soul that never heal and goes away. When the cold nights come and I have no one to hold on to, ghosts chase me and makes me feel worthless. My last … Continue reading

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Two dreamers in the night

      I said to my son last night “they killed King, they killed the Kennedy brothers, so why no one kill that disgusting Kim?” The best to say about that beast, he has reduced your daily life’s little … Continue reading

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The loneliest girl in the world

              I don’t feel good now, left alone and no one at all around, silence and emptiness chase me. When I walked around in my flat today carrying the burden of myself I got … Continue reading

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Making an apple pie with a secret jewel in mind

  After a wakeful night, the dawn longed and feared and I slept all morning, this the first and bright September day. One of the coming days, I’ll peel an apple and cut it to cubes and powder it with … Continue reading

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The Rowan Berries (a sour-sweet love story)

In the month of August, when the berries on rowan trees ripen bright reddish, love tends to run off my life, likewise this year. The days are still sunny and warm, but it darkens earlier in the evening and nights … Continue reading

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Out of silence comes the music

            Out of silence comes the music, rises from its longing to itself. But there are silences between people that make love die of lack of nutrition. This, my being now, that what is related to … Continue reading

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Request for the last dance

“you should miss me” I wrote to him “I do” I expect him to answer me “you forgot to tell” I shall tell him then   I thought he would be my last dance and with him I’ve done my … Continue reading

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While life seem to happens somewhere else

        It’s a quite sunny day today but windy, a few clouds and my door opened to the greenery. While life seems to happen somewhere else but not here where I am this sleepy July 17, 2017 … Continue reading

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I’m jealous of your day

I’m jealous of the day that has you without me 3600 kilometers far away. But I don’t care what you set eyes on as I know you have me on your mind almost all of your time. Fate has tied … Continue reading

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Your eyes smile no more

You still send me selfies to tell me you miss me as much as I miss you and to assure me you love me and I’m not alone and your lips smile so big on your photos. Suddenly I see … Continue reading

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1967 or 2017 – it’s the same lonely story

          Year 1967 or 2017, 18 or 68 years old – it’s the same story now as in the past. I’m left on my own alone with my books and my poetry and love is still … Continue reading

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The Road

              I guess everyone has their own tragedy to live with. It’s always trivial and personal and hardly visible to others. But it’s utterly sore if any by mistake touch it. (Must know it … Continue reading

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(A rose to my) cyber friends

          I go to bed late at night and before I fall asleep I recall the past day – and I ask myself “Is this all there is to my life?” I wake in mornings facing … Continue reading

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Who needs a man when you have a cat?

Han har dragit sig tillbaka och byggt en Trumpsk mur av tystnad och han låter mig betala för den. Två dagar av total tystnad och allt av ljud som har hörts här hemma är kattens spinnande. Hon sover i min … Continue reading

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What can I say? I still miss him

What can I say? I still miss him. The days passes – as in a dream, but I guess this is called “to live”. Muteness spreads in my body – even to my heart. What is, stays the same but … Continue reading

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Walking alone

  People who wishes I should be happy or strive for to be it, annoys me over all limits. I simply can’t stand them or their demands on me to legitimate their banal worldviews. Personal happiness is such an overestimated … Continue reading

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I’ve got the flu but where are you?

        I’ve got the flu but where are you? I’m all alone at home and I tremble with fever and I miss you so badly. You should be with me and make me some herbal tea, have … Continue reading

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On the road again

Too often I feel I’m on a road going nowhere, and that I’m always judged never good enough to be loved, tears flowing down my body richly as rain in the gutters on neat house walls cute decorated with plants. … Continue reading

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So it’s Monday

              So it’s Monday and you’re back in your deed. I’m still in bed, sleepy thinking how strange someone like you met someone like me. But then I leave bed to make my morning … Continue reading

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When walking alone hand in hand with a friend in mind

          When walking alone but hand in hand with a friend in my mind countryside around my home looks its best whether it’s winter or summer. But I’m always sad. My days gets easier to conquer … Continue reading

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Standing on embers for you

I stand here on embers for you, my feet burning. I stand on embers after the rare friendship that was you and I. Now it fades to ashes. We tried so hard to communicate on a language none of us … Continue reading

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Getting old

On the evening news – a feature about home care service and a short interview with an old gentleman in a wheelchair. He looked nice. Smiling – very likeable. He said he always look forward the visits from the staff … Continue reading

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Ensamheten är beväpnad med kulsprutor

Loneliness is armed with machine guns! (in English below the Swedish text)       Ensamheten är beväpnad med kulsprutor! Efter att långan tid varit beväpnad måste du tala med omsorg, så att du inte avsiktslöst skjuter nå’n. Alltsomoftast skjuter du … Continue reading

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Alone awake in a nightmare

Alone awake in a nightmare I stand in the hall inside my front door and I can hear how it blows up a storm out there In fear, I press the door handle and the door opens – so now … Continue reading

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Cyber friends (A rose on my pillow)

        I go to bed late at night and before I fall asleep I recall the past day – and I ask myself “Is this all there is to my life?” I wake in mornings facing a … Continue reading

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Message in a bottle

      And she took her heart and put it in a bottle and she sent it over the seas and it became lost with the ocean currents. She lives alone now as she did before, her chest aches … Continue reading

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We got a link to love (August Moon)

Summer is for love in Scandinavia, though it has never happened to me, now summer soon will leave and I see the rowans on my yard reddens again and I’m still alone as ever before. I love August moon, so … Continue reading

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Walking my right foot (living with chronic pains)

I like walks. And I have never been able to be in a room full of loud and chattering people, without feeling uncomfortable and wanting to just walk away. And I have done that. I have walked my own ways. … Continue reading

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