Etikettarkiv: alone

Rainy July

  Now damn it’s fucking raining again and life is as banal as a country song. In the corner the TV shows reruns of reruns while the night darkens toward a new day which will be as soaked as the … Läs mer

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July gloom

And the rain keeps on pouring from the sky, my balcony plants flooded into rotten roots. A face fades away and the days’ grays, alike my hair while my lonely heart shrivels. And I feel like I am sinking away … Läs mer

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Midsummer Dreams in the freezer

        Lonely men All these lonely men, where do they all come from? And to what will they go with all their dreams, kept strictly secret in their hearts, and at their backs and behind harsh smiles? … Läs mer

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A ”Dear John” letter, answering ”Missing you”

(pastiche) In English below Käre John! Om jag nånsin tänker på dig drar jag en lättnadens suck Jag är fortfarande här ensam och du långt härifrån Jag antar att du undrar varför jag dumpade dig, men hur länge kan ett … Läs mer

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Thistles

  Life hasn’t been good to me so far, so why do I bother to put seed in the soil? I never felt people were there, I fought alone and all I got was meager harvests. And thistles on my … Läs mer

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Farewell Agadir!

Farewell Agadir, we never met in your narrow alleys or on your beaches. Your white sins and dirty morals! Closed eye, blinded in contempt for your betrayals, lament and false tears. Farewell Agadir, black light, we never met in true … Läs mer

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One hot day in April I went shopping…

            It’s bloody hot today! It’s only April, but still a summer heat! Well, I expected it to be hot when I dressed to go out to shop – but like a normal spring heat! … Läs mer

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Extra Everything!

        I don’t ask for much, but more than I can get! I want a big pizza, with Extra Everything and a pension that would last for a whole month. I don’t ask for much, not like … Läs mer

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I have decided to be happy!

I turn 71 in April and I may reach 75 – or 74, but that would be too sad short to imagine. I hope to be at least 85 and still be movable. Let’s say I’ll have 15 years left, … Läs mer

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Three weeks today

Three weeks today, right! And it’s hard, hard, hard! It’s right hard, right now! A love like a picture book we awhile leafed through?      

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In your absence

      It’s three AM and too late to say good night as you must be already sleeping. If you are okay, are you? I also need sleep, but I want to stay awake a little more to think … Läs mer

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Elderly balance (single-leg stance)

When 18 people read my texts I exist. Otherwise it is not much with that, unless I not wake up in the night with cramps in one lower leg, then I surely know I’m alive. I hear on the TV … Läs mer

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Left over, me!

  I don’t know what was true and not true with him. He always said he was not a liar and I should trust in him and I believe he honestly believed in that. More I will never know. That’s … Läs mer

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Lost love, gloom forever to be

        I never got to know you in this all real world, where one breathe, eat, shit and pay the rent. But still, it was meant to be, you and me. Yet your demanding impatience (as I … Läs mer

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A sunny day in February

Such a lovely day, strong blue sky and chirping little birds, a bleach half-moon above waits for the night. Snowdrops blooms before any snow, no winter this year and it might never be. I’m walking to the mall and I … Läs mer

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A lonely blues around the corner

The whole fucking me is like an emergency Hole in the heart, the claw of abandonment Easily forgotten, lone blues around a corner He told I’ll love you forever true forever was short like a little star afar that twinkle … Läs mer

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I know Sophie

I know Sophie, she lives upstairs and sometimes when I meet her at the front door she says a shy ”hi” and hastily takes the stair home to her own. Neighbors say she has lived here for a long time … Läs mer

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One-man riot

There are riots in Hong Kong, there are riots in Paris and in Barcelona. There are riots in Bagdad and the cities around in Iraq as well as in cities in Iran as Tehran and around in the country, tell … Läs mer

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Loneliness is a treacherous haunting guest

That feeling of loneliness now sudden fills me up is a treacherous and haunting guest. When it hits, it permeates your soul and force you in desperation to meddle with the wrong kind of people, just to get some company … Läs mer

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A love thriving in our longing

  I still think of you the first thing I wake up in the morning and I miss you on my lonely evenings: someone to talk to. And sleeping and dreaming I get lost in scary nightmares. But as soon … Läs mer

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Since you left me lastly

Since you left me lastly I rambling around, lost. My eyes are so dry and burns as the winds have blew away all my tears. I’ve a lump in my throat and my heart is icy cold. You have no … Läs mer

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100 years after him

100 years after him I will be no longer! Nor the memory of what never became. 100 years and he will not be either. His dreams for sale; my words remains like lost birds, scattered in the sky. It’s over. … Läs mer

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The weed in my garden of love (thistle love)

I met a guy and I loved him but he never knew my love because he only knew the love he claimed he had for me. It was all about his feelings and never about mine. He never knew how … Läs mer

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Försvinnande kvinna / Vanishing woman

Vanishing woman Part 1 That late night was now approaching, then when I intended to vanish from you without a trace and wipe you out of my life forever. But late came late all my feet colder. The next morning … Läs mer

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Weak sleep and bladder and dreams

        I barely slept last night One hour at a time and I had to pee more than once, and when dozing I got the dream that all my hair had changed to white, but when I … Läs mer

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Even if you silently weep

  Even if you silently weep, don’t worry, no one sees your tears. Yet everybody knows that all hearts have their secret tales. I still think of you, from my early morning to the silent nights. I wonder what was … Läs mer

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I was easy forgotten

I was easy forgotten just piece of a game the One knew words not ever compassion heart split and alone moving on shattered tears hidden in heart smiles cover up pains

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Laundry day

Had a hard day taking the laundry An afternoon nap and I slept deep Woke and my hand searching you and got the fur of my sleeping cat Me and Cat in a freshly made bed My body is a … Läs mer

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All the difference

  Every evening after dark I take a 12 minutes’ walk around the block. Nor have I ever said, ”I want to be alone. I only said, I want to be left alone.” It is the Garbo truth: ”There is … Läs mer

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Heart wrapped in barbed wire

          I read your letter, roses sweet with thorns thoroughly hidden in thin silk paper. I grieve your heart wrapped in barbed wire! What you have you don’t want and what you want is far away. … Läs mer

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Are you alone today on Midsummer’s Eve (in Sweden!)

Är du ensam idag på Midsommarafton? Vet då att det är du inte ensam om! Are you alone today at Midsummer’s Eve? Know then, you are not alone about that!  

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What you deserve is not always what you get

Haven’t you forgot something, I asked. No why, he said. I said, it’s my birthday today! OMG!, he said, happy birthday to you and I love you and I wish I was there now to celebrate you! Well, I’m used … Läs mer

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Play it again, Sam!

  I said: Sam, see you in Casablanca! And he shrank to a boy’s voice in a phone with a lousy connection and vanished in the night. Now it’s late and I’m running out of time, but still I’ve that … Läs mer

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Pink dreams

She could hardly sleep at all last night and yet she woke up at four in morning, went up for coffee and checking internet, then quick back to bed to sleep and she woke up again after two dreaming in … Läs mer

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(Mind matter) Märka ord

Märk nu mina ord, jag besökte er ett tag, men var verkligen aldrig där: ett vingslag mot din kind i natten, du rös till litegrann. Vi bor i Sverige men lever i världen. Våra tankar borde vara såsom svalor i … Läs mer

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The road to let go

  3600 miles as the crow flies from your heart and body, 4500 miles on roads where my feet have never walked. Years have passed and how far have we come, tell me! And how long do I have to … Läs mer

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Simple

          We’re simple people you and I and our feelings for each other are also simple. But the world isn’t simple. I wanted to release you to free myself, but you didn’t want to. So we … Läs mer

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The elevator (invisibilized)

                  The lady in the elevator looks down on you, but what do you care! You’re going up and she’s going down, you’ve nothing to share! Mistreated all your life, people now … Läs mer

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Empty

          I took all I had and I used it and then I felt so empty and I turned around for you. But you weren’t there as I wished you would be. But again, what are … Läs mer

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Making an apple cake for one

In English below! Jag står i köket en dag och gör en äppelkaka för en då jag hör ett stillsamt skvalande från en granne, jag hoppas att det är från kranen i dennes kök, men nej – strax därpå följer … Läs mer

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If I’ve lost you, I’ve lost you!

You have been a fortnight offline. And if I’ve lost you, I’ve lost you. I don’t cry but I don’t smile either. It snows when I lower the blinds in the afternoon. It snows when I raise them in morning. … Läs mer

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Cold November (Snow bunting song)

(On November 24)  November Snow November is now snowing outside my windows, but where are you in the night so dark and cold? I live near the Arctic Circle, feeling lonely and old: when will you come to my Nordic … Läs mer

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Life and love

  It’s easy understanding love get difficulties to survive in daily life for those poor who hardly have money for the day and are forced to live in a pitiful hut there rain comes freely through an airy roof, no … Läs mer

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Moving into gloomy November

  Two weeks not a word from you is a very long time, two weeks at a new place is too short to feel home. I’m tired and worn out after all hassle with the move and I wonders about … Läs mer

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Voices speaking to the melancholy Swedish soul

It’s the underlying lost melancholy white tune in Springsteen and Harris voices beyond any lyrics, music sets and genres. It sneaks out on you, forces itself on you, it’s you far from forged reality grilles. And it tells of the … Läs mer

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And if!

  And if one day my hands cannot reach for you and you will be gone or never came my way, my heart will still reach out for you. And if one day my eyes cannot catch you anymore, the … Läs mer

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Impossible love

  When I think of him (all the time!)… there’s not so much about having distinct thoughts as about a constant inner awareness, perceiving his existence. He is a living presence in my soul. Living streaming water… But when this … Läs mer

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Moving, still steady

I’ve lived in this house for ten years but for the last years I’ve mostly been online, it all while I tried to shake off my feelings of wearing a cooling suit of loneliness and desolation. Solitude has for long … Läs mer

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Such is our togetherness (Sådant är vårt tillsammans)

I sit in my living room reading a novel that annoys me because its boring banality, even if I realize that is precisely the subject for the novel. (Loneliness in a spoiled middle class family, have it all and lack … Läs mer

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A love story

                I know it is crazy you and I can be one and we. Yet every inch of my skin talks and tells about you exception for my feral and numb feet. The … Läs mer

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