Lately I have been listening a lot to Tracy Chapman. I love her lyrics, but one line in a song annoyed me: “I received an honest answer / When a lie would do”. Because personally, I can’t cope with lies and really I hate to be fooled by hidden truths. But last night I was told something by a loved one I wish I never had been told – and now I understand better the meaning of that line in Chapman’s song.
Through all the years that have passed
I have kept in my memory the moments
of tenderness, when two hearts beat in
the same rate. But I have seen my angels,
my lovers and friends and closest – all
true heroes in my mind – fall to ground,
(But never like this time now with him!)
And always music floats in my room
and follows me out on the street and
on my walks in woods and fields, carry
me further then nothing else carry.
Last night my angel, my hero now and
my closest, was straight to me about
himself – and he fell to the ground,
simply crashed, a fallen angel…
…because I received an honest answer
when a lie would had been good enough
and no music in this world can restore
my trust in him, it just died.
(And I’m so crushed it happened now again…)