I miss the love that was not

pic from the TV serial "Doctor Foster"

pic from the TV serial “Doctor Foster”

 

 

 

I miss not you, but I miss the love that was not
I miss not you, but the one you said you were
I miss not you, but the love I richly deserves

If only one single note in the song you sang
to me were true, I still love this note. Even if
it was pure calculating, this lovely note made
me love you. You came so close to me. I came
close to myself trough you.

You created a persona so nice – and in a
corner of your soiled soul you knew what
characterizes a good man for a woman –
and I fell in love with your image.

I can tell people I don’t miss you, but it’s
not true – everywhere I go I’m looking for
“you”, in spite I know he not exist at all.

But you showed me how deep my desire to
live with someone is – and I’m not thinking
now about those poetry romances I spend
my time to create so artfully.

In a way we are the same kind, as creating
fantasies people believe in – but mine are
free poetry, giving something to others, but
you rob people on their trust and make life
smaller and harder to cope with.

I miss not you, but I miss the love that was not
I miss not you, but the one you said you were
I miss not you, but the love I richly deserves.

Now deep inside me a little hard bullet of steel
pierces my heart. It’s you; it’s the grief coming
requiring its right.

 

 

 

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